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Who knows where the time goes?

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Everyone is tired and wants to go home.

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where are you from?

very south texas

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- july 29, 25.

We’re driving on ID-33. The window won’t close, and the smell of rain is beginning to drift in. The horizon is wrestling with the clouds, and for some reason it feels almost biblical.

My dad once said he felt something similar when he witnessed the solar eclipse in Texas last April.

Early in the tour, I saw my mom for the first time in a year and a half, and it wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be. Shortly after, I saw my brother for the first time in a while, and we walked around his apartment complex for a couple of hours, catching up.

I’ve loved the word ‘violent’ lately to describe things, although I’m not necessarily a violent person at all. But interacting with most things that move me feels this way. I think there’s a chance at reshaping that connotation, and I feel relatively inspired to do so in my further work.

I like talking to Keyan because it feels like we’re standing on opposite sides of the same horizon, and every conversation about art feels like closing some kind of interstice that I can’t identify yet.

I miss Sofia a vicious amount. Before I left Los Angeles, we saw each other every day, and summer hasn’t felt like this in a long time. I didn’t really know how to articulate it then, but our relationship feels ultraviolet to me. I love the color and the feeling.

I think with tour, it’s helped : forced me to be more present and to only engage in this way. I haven’t really thought about the past as much as I typically do when I’m back home. It definitely has to be in correlation with being preoccupied, maybe? I’m unsure. This does feel healthier, though.

The fall semester begins next month, and I’ll be attending in-person classes, studying accounting.

I was telling Alex and Dillon yesterday at dinner that I couldn’t believe I almost walked away from all of this.

Also, is it important to make a point of something?

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Slept so violently.

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Portland doesn’t feel like how I remembered.

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Why won’t you jump?

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when are we gonna get new work from u! <3

in the fall

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hyper-perceptive

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I look back at the last two years and don’t really know what to say.

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what if things don't change?

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how soon is now?