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Should’ve Held On (Optional Bias)

Ahhhh this is my first time trying this concept, a songfic! I hope you guys like it! This is not only applicable with Astro, but with any bias you like! (enclosed it to “Astro” because of the song used).

I changed the lyrics a bit to fit the reader’s perspective. :) Warning: Slight angst, open/cliffhanger ending

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The winter chill is slowly creeping up into your coat as you find the nearest coffee shop you’ll see to take shelter. You regretted having a bit of overtime on your work and now you have to take on the cold wind on your way home.

The chimes of the coffee shop rang as you entered. You hurriedly went in and sighed in relief due to the warmth of the coffee shop’s heater it emits. You ordered a simple hot cappuccino and took a seat beside the window, opening your phone.

You were typing an e-mail related to your work until a familiar song came on in the coffee shop. Even if you heard the first silent beat, memories from long ago came rushing to you like a filmstrip of the movie. You stared at the window, letting yourself get lost in the memories, every moment clear even though it happened almost 10 years ago.

♫ I miss you, my heart aches It was a snowy winter night, oh no ♫

“We need to talk.” You silently read as you stared at the Messaging app on your phone. Another beep was heard as you saw that it was another text, indicating where you two would meet up.

You kind of expected what was going to happen, but not too soon. You sighed as you held your chest which was clenching. You wrapped yourself into warm clothes as you went out onto that snowy winter night.

The road was out of people since the snow’s falling too hard. But nonetheless, you went on your way, even if you know what was going to happen.

♫ I couldn’t do anything You don’t cry cry cry My turning heart is aching, yeah ♫

“Hi! Why’d you suddenly called me out?” You covered your nervousness with a happy tone as you greet him inside the cafe where you two would meet. He just looked at you with an unusual, stony look and gestured for you to sit.

“W-What’s wrong?” You felt your lips quivered as you asked him. He just looked outside the window as he heaved a heavy sigh.

“I can’t do this anymore. It’s futile.” You just stared at him full of fear and confusion, wanting to just bolt out of the shop and cry your heart out. You don’t know yourself if you can bear hearing the words you’ve also been expecting.

But you did.

“Let’s break up, Y/N.”

♫ You say you understand me but you’re turning around You’re not even shedding tears, I hate you so much Whenever I think about that, I hate you so much But I keep thinking about you ♫

You just sat there, frozen. Millions of questions ran through your head even though you expected this. You were very eager to fix your relationship but he gave up, just like this.

“W-Where did I go wrong?” You managed to whisper very softly but he heard.

“No. It’s not you. You’re perfect. You’re what every man needs. You’re more than enough. It’s not you who’s the problem. It’s me. I’m sorry.”

But you’re perfect and enough for me too! Why’d you have to this to me? To us? I thought you’d fight for us, you assured me! What happened...? You badly wanted to shout those words but instead of words coming out, warm pool of tears started to fill your eyes.

“Is this... is this what you really.. w-want?” You quivered, but managed to say in between deep breaths to stop your tears.

“Yes.” His voice sounds monotone. It doesn’t hold any emotion. And with all the strength and courage you have left, despite your slowly shattering heart, you looked at him, straight in the eyes.

His eyes that no longer held warmth and gentleness as he stare at you. His eyes that no longer held light and sunshine everytime he smiles because of you. His eyes that used to be shining and glowing, was now void, hollow and covered in emptiness.

You wanted to hug him, kiss him, comfort him and ask him what’s going on as you assure him you’re always there for him and you’ll never leave him alone. You’re willing to do everything, but what’s the point of holding on when you’re the only one who’s willing to fight and not the both of you?

♫ You should’ve held on, should’ve held onto us I’ll understand even your greed, so please come back You weren’t good enough to handle me So now I finally realize why you left ♫

You badly wanted to plead to him not to leave you, not to break up with you. As you stare at his eyes, you felt your tears stream down your face, nonstop. You almost imagine that he’d rush beside you to wipe your tears, but he didn’t.

He didn’t budge. He didn’t move. He lowered his head, muttering the same words, “I’m really sorry.”

The two of you were covered in silence. The only sounds you’ll hear are the silent clattering of utensils and the sounds coffee machines make. You’re still crying silently, the numbness and emptiness slowly creeping into your heart.

“I... I do have one more q-question for y-you... B/N...” You trailed off. You weren’t sure if you’re a masochist or a martyr for coming up with a question that could hurt and ruin you.

“Do you... do you still love me?” You felt yourself shiver and your heart thumping as you wait for his answer. In a few minutes, no one dared to speak until you decided to stand up.

“I guess I got my answer...” You took a deep breath as your tears threaten to fall once again. “Goodbye, B/N. I wish you happiness.”

♫ Alright boy, we used to talk all night We fell asleep together You brought me medicine when I was sick You texted me to meet you in front of my house You can only feel better if I’m not sick, baby ♫

“Miss Y/N!” You were brought back to the present as you get your order. You returned to your seat, memories flooding you once again.

“Y/N!” You almost went deaf as you heard your boyfriend’s group members scream right at your phone. You coughed a bit as you answered them. “Geez, no need to shout guys!”

“Noona! We miss you! Come here!”

“What? Right now?” You coughed a bit harder than before. You wanted to tell them you can’t because you caught a cold but on the other hand, you don’t want them to worry.

“Are you okay, Y/N?” One of them asked as you moved your phone away, blowing your nose. You went back to tell them you’re fine. “Yep, but I’m afraid I can’t go because--”

You coughed roughly, trying to complete your sentence but gets interrupted. “My colds are *cough* getting wo-*cough* worse... but I’m ok!” you ended the sentence with a sniff and cough.

“Y/N!! Are you okay?” You heard a concerned-filled voice and you immediately recognized it was B/N. Oh sht. You cursed at your head, knowing your overly-protective boyfriend.

“Of course I’m fine. These colds will pass quickly don’t worry.” You covered your nasal voice with a cheerful tone but suddenly, the phone went off. You tried calling it back but no one’s answering so you just slouched back on your couch filled with blankets, warm water and hot packs on your coffee table.

As you were about to drift off to sleep, your phone rang loudly followed by a knock on your door. You first answered your phone as you removed the blankets one by one. “Hello?”

“Y/N, open the door.” You realized it was B/N and you hurriedly went to the door and opened it. You were welcomed with a worried B/N, holding three plastic bags. “What are you doing here?”

“I brought you medicine and food.” He lifted the bags and let him enter. You coughed behind him as you closed the door. Once he put the bags in your counter, he immediately went to you and guided you to your blanket-filled couch.

“You don’t have to do this you know? I might get you sick too.” You sniffed and coughed as you drink some water. He didn’t answer and instead, he went to your side, warm food in hands.

“Just let me take care of you, jagiya. No more questions.” You laughed and just cuddled close to him, letting him take care of you.

♫ When I pass by places I used to go with you I just stand there, quietly When memories of you pass like a film I miss you even more, sadly ♫

You didn’t care even if you freeze into the cold, you just wanted to get out of there and save what remained in your heart after shattering. You slowly walked out of the coffee shop, onto the freezing road, not minding where your feet take you.

Until you realized that it took you to that one special place that held so dear to you and to him. That certain park where the both of you met, where the both of you first dated, and where you finally answered him yes.

You laughed bitterly as you thought fate likes playing with your now shattered but continuously breaking heart. It was too painful to describe in words. You just sat on one of the benches as all the happy memories with him came to you as if you were in a movie.

It was just moments ago when the both of you broke up but you’re certain, this will be a long, painful process to recover from.

♫ It was like that rainy scene From the movie we last watched together, oh no You said goodbye with a stony face Never say goodbye I can’t believe it, it hurts, yeah ♫

You slowly sipped in your coffee as you smiled sadly on every memory. You still remembered how he looked when you stood up and told him goodbye. It hurts, it was like you were stabbed and got ran to by a truck, you can just wish to die instead of the emotional torture. He was emotionless. Apart from being hurt, you’re worried what happened to him and that, maybe you are at fault with what happened, too.

Thinking about it, it doesn’t hurt now unlike before. Just a few years ago, you and your heart finally accepted everything that happened and you decided to move on with your life.

You’re not bitter. You don’t mind going back to that past time of your life. It was a great lesson that you’re glad you got to learn and experience.

But it’s always there. All of the emotions and memories are still there. After all, it happened with your first love.

♫ On my way back Memories of us together float up like a movie When I think about that, I feel like such a fool Tears keep falling ♫

As you noticed the snow subside, you fixed yourself, ready to leave the shop as you drank the last sip of your coffee. You covered yourself with a scarf as you walked outside, going to your way home.

But after a trip to your memory lane, you decided to stop by the park, in which you haven’t visited and went to for the past years. You took a step, a familiar yet calm feeling enveloped you as you looked around the snow-filled park.

You sat by the bench and looked around. Every part of the park you look on was reminded of your past. You couldn’t help but smile.

“Which reminds me, I have no news of him and his group so far...” After what happened, even though it hurt you, you cut off ties and connection even with his group members. You felt bad about not telling them your side but it was what you needed at that time.

You still hear news about them a few years ago. Even though one of them broke your heart, you still feel proud and happy every time they make a comeback, receive their wins and even win awards from music shows awards.

Their career became on peak, which made you realize that maybe, what happened was for the best. You focused more on your studies, went on a good college, graduated with flying colors and now you’re working in one of the biggest companies and your position’s a bit high.

♫ The small present you gave me Is that everything about you has changed I couldn’t even say my last goodbye If I have one more chance Baby please take my hand ♫

If you think back, what could’ve happened if you held on a bit longer? What could’ve happened if the both of you talked it out and fought together?

You still have slight regrets with what happened but if it were to happen that cold winter night, you were willing to give your all. You’re willing to take his hand and gather all the chances you got.

You sighed as you shook your head. “What’s bound to happen will happen no matter what. C’mon Y/N, loosen yourself up. It’s done.” You talked to yourself as you stood up and go home.

♫ (I should’ve held on) Where did it go wrong? Our goodbye (Should’ve held onto you) When did this break up start? From our love (I should’ve held on) When did love start? From our destiny (Should’ve held onto you) Where does this destiny stop? From our love ♫

You were silently walking home, fiddling with your gloved hands as you heard your phone ring. It was your office ringtone so you stopped for a bit to get your phone and remove your gloves to take the call. But unfortunately, someone bumped onto you, making your gloves and some of your things fall out of your hands.

The person you bumped to, halted for a bit as if hesitating, but you didn’t notice it as you were busy gathering your things. Soon enough, someone helped you and immediately went to the opposite side after helping you.

You walked a bit slowly, thinking about the person who helped you. You can’t recognize because he has a hoodie and the street’s a bit dark. You glanced back and you saw him looking at you, him standing under the lamppost.

Your eyes widen as you realized it was him. His eyes were full of familiarity and warmth and something you couldn’t recognize.

“Y/N...”

“B/N...”

AAAAAHHHHHH It’s done finallyy!!!! I hope some of you liked it! I decided to end it that way so I’m sorryyyyy. :)))

I’m a new Astro fanfic writer with few works on her blog so I hope you guys check it out! :))) Thank you!

#astro #aroha #astro scenarios #astro fanfic #astro imagines #kpop scenarios #kpop imagines #kpop fanfic #angst #optional bias

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REMEMBER HOW WE WERE FREAKING OUT THAT THE ALBUM HAD TWO SONGS WITH (2016) WHICH WERE BABY AND EVERY MINUTE AND WE THOUGHT MAYBE EVERY MINUTE WAS FOR ASTRO

EVERY MINUTE REPRESENTS AROHA AND ASTRO TOGETHER. ALL 7 COLORS TOGETHER MAKE A RAINBOW.

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REMEMBER HOW WE WERE FREAKING OUT THAT THE ALBUM HAD TWO SONGS WITH (2016) WHICH WERE BABY AND EVERY MINUTE AND WE THOUGHT MAYBE EVERY MINUTE WAS FOR ASTRO

EVERY MINUTE REPRESENTS AROHA AND ASTRO TOGETHER. ALL 7 COLORS TOGETHER MAKE A RAINBOW.

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Twirls pt3 (Rocky x Reader)

Part 1 and Part 2 links are here! I’m sorry it went up to three parts it got too long! I hope you’re satisfied with the ending!

You quickly went back to the restroom and held your chest. It was him all this time? But w-why me?

You didn’t get out of the restroom until a female staff knocked at the door, telling you it was your time to perform. You felt your legs shaking because of what you knew and the performance but you shook it out of your system. I need to focus on this.

The two of you met and Rocky greeted you. “Are you fine, Y/N?” You only nodded at him, unsure of what to act around him now you knew.

“Y/N and Rocky.” You heard your names being called and as you went in front. The music started as you two get into character. You were suddenly reminded yours were a couple concept, and that means a lovey physical contact. The first time you completed and practiced the dance, you’re heart’s beating crazily and now, it’s beating more crazily than before.

When the choreography came to the point where Rocky knelt down according to the choreo, you asked him. “It was you?”

“Who’s me?” He asked you back as you continued dancing. When the both of you became close again, you replied. “The notes?”

Rocky seemed to freeze a bit but managed to continue dancing. “What notes?”

“I caught you earlier…” You trailed off as you focused on dancing the choreo. Your heart keeps on thumping, waiting for his answer, for him to tell you the truth.

The hard part yet the highlight of your dance came. Rocky lifted you up and should twirl you 3 times. You held to him tighter, afraid to fall, but in the middle of it, he answered you. “Yes, it was me.”

You almost stumble when he put you back to the ground. You were in shock as you can’t hide the smile on your face as you perform. You couldn’t deny it in yourself. You’ve fallen for him. Not just with his talent, his looks, but with everything in him.

As you finish your performance, as practiced, he hugged you from the back and it seemed more gentle than usual. After you bowed and the evaluation process, he held your hand and led you into another room.

“You can ask or say anything…” He quietly said after a long silence. You just looked at him and asked. “Why me?”

“Why not you?” He asked you back and looked straight into you. “I… I don’t even know how this started, I just felt it when I first saw you, and in the video. I-I’m also the person who gave you the sweater from before… that’s when, I think.”

“You… you’re the one who covered me with the sweater…?” You were taken aback with what he said. Rocky just nodded and looked away.

Silence filled the two of you when he suddenly spoke. “I… I like you, Y/N. I don’t know when and where but I just realized that, during our practices, I’m more comfortable and happy around you and when I see you overworking and stressing yourself, I hate seeing you like that because I know you’re more than enough…”

“I… I don’t know what to say…” You quietly whispered as you still can’t sink in the thought that Rocky likes you back. “I mean, I like you too, I’ve admired you since I saw your dance covers and the way you dance, and when I got partnered with you…” You can’t say anything anymore and just looked down but he Rocky understood and held your hand.

“Can we make this work? It’s against the rules, right?” You looked at him and he just smiled at you.

“I’m with you. It’s going to work.”

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Twirls pt2 (Rocky x Reader)

Part 1 can be found here :))) This is too long though, it consists of 1.8k words TT

Weeks passed by and you still can’t forget the mystery behind the sweater. You’ve also been creeping yourself out that some ‘ghost’ or a ‘creature’ put it there for you.

“Maybe it was our manager? Have you tried asking her about it?”

You shook your head as your co-trainees facepalmed at you. “Well you should! You’ve also been creeping us out with your assumptions you know!” You just laughed at what she said. “Okay, sorry. My fault.”

Just as all of you stood up to start practicing again, your manager walked in to your practice room. “Hey girls!”

“Hi manager-nim!” You all bowed at her and smiled. She also smiled at you as she asked how everything was. Training days were getting difficult especially when evaluation day comes. Fortunately, most of you can cope up with training and you each share one goal, and that is to debut together.

“I have a surprise for you today.” You all looked at each other as the previous surprise your manager had for you didn’t go very well; you just performed a random play dance and it was a mess. But good thing it wasn’t part of the evaluation process.

“I hated surprises ever since that day, manager-nim!” Your unnies whined and you just nodded your head, agreeing with them. Your manager laughed as she cleared her throat.

“Kidding aside, I want you to work on a project. Based on the results that we’ve evaluated decides who will be assigned as your partner on this project.” You immediately looked at each other, slowly getting excited and anticipating what will happen.

“But wait, you’re not going to work with each other.” As your manager said that, you exchanged confused faces as she gestured to the door. You all looked and much to your surprise, all six members of Astro walked in.

Your team resisted on squealing as your talented seniors stood in front of you. You and your group bowed a 90-degree one, “Annyeonghasaeyo, sunbae-nim!”

It was now their turn to greet. “Wanna be your star! We’re Astro!” You still cannot believe that your seniors, especially him, were standing in front of all of you.

“They’re going to be your partners for the said project. I’ve asked their manager about this and he agreed. We believe that they can help you in honing your skills. Get acquainted with each other first as I get your results. And boys?!” Astro turned to your manager who is looking intently at them.

“Be nice. Arraseo?!” The six boys stood straight and all shouted, “Yes!”

They all turned to the six of you as an awkward atmosphere appeared. But MJ being MJ, the happy virus and the eldest of the group started talking, all of you got in the comfortable mood.

You introduced yourselves one by one and when it came to you, “You’re the one who covers Rocky-hyung’s choreos, right?”

A faint strike of red spread across your face as almost all of the pair of eyes inside the room looked at you. “A-Ah... y-yes... I’m Y/F/N.” Why does he have to remember that instead? Save me!

“Your covers were so good and smooth! How’d you do that?!” You slowly lowered your head as you send an emergency look to your unnies. You were really shy and you don’t know how to answer them plus, you’re not the kind of person who wants to be a center of attention.

And just in time, your manager walked in. You all lined up properly to listen to her announcement. It came down to the fourth one and your name hasn’t been called yet.

“...Jinjin and U/N and our last pair would be Rocky and Y/N.” You didn’t even heard the rest of your manager’s words as you still let the information of Rocky being your partner sink in your mind.

“Y/N? YN? Are you uhm, okay?”

You snapped out of your thoughts as Rocky waved his hand in front of you. You blushed slightly as you nodded. “Yes uh, sorry.”

Rocky grinned shyly as he scratched the back of his neck. “So uh…” He introduced himself as an individual and also you. The both of you sat down and get to talk about yourselves and you discovered how the both of you share the same interests and thoughts into things.

“Let’s call it a day, Y/N! It was nice meeting you.” He grinned at you as he stood up and stretched. You followed suit and went to your own practice rooms. As you entered the room, you can’t hide the smile on your face as your fellow members tease you about it.

“Wide smile you got there, Y/N!” One of them shouted followed by coos of cheering.

“Aish, stop it, unnies!” You laughed it off and changed the topic to practicing. You didn’t notice it was getting late at night as your choreographer dismissed you. Your unnies immediately packed their things but you on the other hand, went for the sound system and played some music.

“Y/N.” The oldest one called you with a warning tone. You just grinned widely and others just shook their heads at you. You waved goodbye and started practicing on your own.

“This routine’s really hard!” You suddenly shouted as you rolled on the floor, looking at your haggard (yet still beautiful) face. You looked at the watch and realized it’s almost 2 in the morning. You stayed silent for a while and closed your eyes, falling asleep in the process.

And just in time, someone sneaked inside the room where you are in. The person sighed at the side of you but gently smiled and placed something beside you. He left the room with a smile plastered on his face, shaking his head.

You woke up moments later and turned to the side, your arm bumping to something cold. You cleared your eyes and saw a bottle of cold drink with snacks. You sat up and took notice of a post-it note on the drink.

“Don’t stress yourself too much! You’re already great and talented!” It was just a simple note yet it made you smile really wide.

The snacks and notes kept on coming. When you took a break outside the building, you came back with the same snacks on top of your bag. Even if you just went to the restrooms, there’re simple notes you can find on the place or seat you left. You told your co-trainees about it but they shook their heads saying it wasn’t them, and teased you for having someone as a secret admirer.

One time, as you were practicing with Rocky, you can’t focus as you kept on thinking about the snacks and notes you always see. Is it the same person who covered me with a green sweater before? Who is he? Or she? Why does that person do it? Did I do---

“Y/N. Y/N!” you felt someone shook you by the shoulders and found Rocky looking at you with a concerned face. “Are you okay? You seem pale and out of focus.”

“Ah, sorry, sunb—I mean R-Rocky.” Even if you are already friends and took a lot of practices together, you still can’t familiarize yourself with calling your sunbae with just his name, which Rocky insisted.

“Are you tired? We can stop for a while.” He went to the music player and stopped the music. You sat and leaned your back on the mirror. Rocky took the space and sat beside you.

Silence filled the two of you for a while as you decided to speak up. “I’ve been thinking about the notes and snacks I’ve been getting.” You looked at him and he gave you a curious look. “Snacks? Notes? What do you mean?”

“There’s someone who’s been leaving small notes together with snacks. It’s weird that I didn’t find those creepy but I’m curious and worried. I don’t know, but it made me feel better whenever I find those.” you trailed off as Rocky silently listened to you. You looked at him waiting for his response.

“Maybe that person truly cares about you. He went to that extent just to make you know or feel that he really cares, even if he knows it’s dangerous and against the rules, right?” You hummed at his answer. “ I see… but wait, why against the rules? And do you know the person? You seem to really know him.”

Rocky went silent for a while and stood up, reaching his hand to yours. You looked at him confusedly but reached his hands anyway. Before he starts the music, “

Weeks passed and your dance project with Astro members’ evaluation day will be held today. You’re in the waiting room together with your co-trainees and their partners. You looked at them and they seemed calm and can even laugh, while you can’t move on your own seat. You are calm when it’s your evaluations but now you weren’t.

“Hey, Y/N! Breathe!” Rocky tapped your shoulder and took his seat beside you. You let out a rather hard sigh, not realizing you were holding your breath. “I’m just nervous. What if I make a mistake? What if I just slipped, or lose my balance? What if I—“

“Hey.” Rocky held your hands and looked at you straight in the eye. “You got me. We’re partners here, right? We’ll work this performance together, after all those non-stop practices we had, you’ll stop here?”

“I’m just worried I’ll mess this up with you. I mean, you’re far greater than me and I don’t want to humiliate you or anything.” You sighed but he just squeezed your hands tighter. “We’ll not mess this up. C’mon, cheer up!”

He’s still staring right at you and you felt your heart thump. You slightly smiled at him as you nodded. “Mm, thank you.”

“Don’t stress yourself too much! You’re great and talented, okay? Remember when you covered my dance cover?” You slightly hit him as he waved goodbye to you as their leader called for them. You shook your head as you relaxed a bit.

You and Rocky will perform last so you went to the restrooms for a bit. As you get something from the pocket of your pants, a note fell on the ground. It was the first note you got that you keep with you anywhere. Upon reading it, you heard Rocky’s voice from earlier saying the exact same lines.

“But… I didn’t told him about…” Your heart started thumping nervously, not because of the evaluation, but because of the thought you made with the note.

You walked right back to the waiting room and you can’t believe what you just caught. It was Rocky, sticking a note in the usual drink you always get with the notes.

Part 3 will be found here! I cut it since it’s too long TT

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