arsusuforever

[arsusuforever]

0.1: bernadette.

summary: when you downloaded a visual novel about yanderes and breaking the fourth wall, you didn't expect to transmigrate to her. but if you're already here, you should enjoy it, right?

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you love visual novels, they're so sweet and funny to you. they didn't need to see you or talk to you (they didn't need to know how pathetic are you). and they love you no matter what! that's amazing to you, that's fine, that's nice...

that's perfect, al least for you.

you've recently been a little (a lot) obsessed with a specific game. «to eat a god» was so pretty interesting, the history, the characters and the art... everything is so good! you love it, you need it.

you were thinking of downloading the new update and spending the whole day as usual (how lazy you were with that routine).

you ignored the messages on your phone. they were probably about the weather. no one texted you unless you did.

pathetic, pathetic and pathetic, that's you are.

and you hate and love it.

and you ignored your feelings. there is no case, there is no cure, there is no salvation for you.

"tsk..." your head always starts to hurt when you think about these things, you sighed and decided to continue with your boring and straight routine, play at least that makes you get out of your bed, where you are always rotting.

but the longer you stay there, the more you overthink it. sometimes you wonder how you ended up like this, looking for love in impossible things, when you started this cycle where rotting and crying was your little distraction from your miserable life.

to tell you the truth, you were never a good person. you were bad, you were poisonous, you were fake, you were... you were just you, someone so disgusting and ugly, rotten and broken.

you were selfish but kind, you were envious but supportive, you were ambitious but mediocre, you were a dreamer but conformist.

maybe that's why it was, maybe that's why you're dying now, you're losing yourself, maybe? maybe? could it be?

"oh" you realize something "it's already six in the afternoon..."

did you spend half your day like an idiot thinking stupid things?

pathetic, that's what you are and will be.

you laugh bitterly as you get up and think of something productive to do other than stay up all night playing.

you look around, everything tidy here and there, but there's nothing really to do. you always clean out of necessity, you do it like a robot, and only when you feel your room doesn't look pretty.

how superficial.

maybe you should eat something, you had lunch hours ago and a snack before your game wouldn't be bad.

but there's something that makes you remember why exactly you're not eating: you're going to gain weight.

and even though you didn't go out or have real friends who visited you or you took pictures and posted them, you still wanted to look the way everyone wanted, thin and pretty.

you look in the mirror, your hair a bit disheveled and you still had your pajamas on.

you took your comb, fixed yourself up a bit, and changed your clothes for something lighter. it's hot these days, and the sleepover only makes you sweat.

you looked good, not pretty or gorgeous but good.

you sighed as you turned on your computer, tired of looking for other things to do, trying to fool yourself into thinking you have a productive life.

you looked at the download screen after browsing here and there, eventually you installed it.

you leaned your head on your hand and waited calmly (not that you could do more).

you notice that the download is ready and you install it, open the game and press "start"

in a moment the screen went black and you saw your reflection, your dirty and ugly reflection, your horrible face and your hateful hair.

you shuddered at the sight of yourself, noticing all your imperfections, all your flaws and mistakes. you swallowed and trembled with anger.

why did you have to be like this? why couldn't you improve? do you need to try harder? what do you need to do to move forward?

everyone moves on, but you're here, waiting for a stupid game to make you feel loved.

because no one dares to love you, no one dares to look at you, no one smiles at you honestly, no one chooses you, no one desires you, no one wants you. absolutely no one.

you must say that many around you spread their wings and flew; they achieved the impossible. And you, who have always loved the little things, noticed details that were added unintentionally, saw mistakes where perfection raised your hackles, you stayed there.

you laughed at yourself, maybe you are doomed, born to fail in love and obsessive observation, to look for beauty where broken glass was stepped on, in inanimate objects and in people you knew didn't love you.

"what a loser" your mind said.

you shook your head and looked back at the screen, hoping to distract yourself from this nonsense.

you noticed that your computer screen was still off, you checked your pc and tried to figure out what was wrong with this thing.

you had finished the route you wanted and were waiting to play this update to see your favorite character.

you clicked your tongue and felt like hitting the screen.

you looked at your computer again, and now it was unusually bright. you shifted uncomfortably and touched the screen with your finger.

and then your hand was abruptly pulled towards the screen.

soon that force dragged your whole body forward.

and before you were fully immersed you saw some text on the screen out of the corner of your eye.

"choose well and enjoy this experience."

shit, you're fucked.

hey, I'm so glad I updated quickly. i'm sorry this chapter is so mean to you guys (ToT), but I don't like that the reader never has any real problems, since there's no depth to the character. the reader's gender is going to be neutral. but if I miss anything, don't hesitate to let me know!

i hope you enjoy my writing. sometimes there may be some occ since i'm somewhat new to this, but I'm doing my best! see you with act 1: nulla's route.

the acts are separate stories, since I wanted to have separate routes and experiences. each act will focus on its own character, and, as I said, their stories are separate, so their beginnings and all that will be different.

see you in the next time!

[arsusuforever]

puppet [yan! to eat a god x transmigrated reader]

tw: yandere, obsession, sadism, bdsm, bad reader (inspired in Kokoa Yoshizaki), lowercase on purpose, bad english, violence, transmigration, work in progress (wip), short story, etc.

« bernadette, you're my liberty. 》

PROLOGUE:

0.1 : bernadette.

ACT 1: NULLA.

1.1 : eternally.

1.2 : dreams.

1.3 : sweet.

1.4 : obsessed.

1.5 : forever & ever.

ACT 2: SEPTEM.

2.1 : scary.

2.2: two hearts.

2.3: pain.

2.4: toxic love.

2.5: and beautiful hate.

ACT 3: UNUM.

3.1 : the sun.

3.2 : bright.

3.3 : silent.

3.4 : so shine.

3.5 : burns.

WAHH, this is a wip, i am so excited to write this. My mother language isn't english so i use translator, sorry 4 that. i love to eat a god, is so gooddddd i love Septem. heh the acts means what rute do you choose yk. i see you in next time!! ♡♡♡