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[ashieldingdrive]

It was cute how highly Lydia spoke of himself. Kyle was once the jackass, he was the guy that held this charm. He was a star player, and when he wasn’t around his friends and with Lydia or Liz he was kinda a gentleman, he listened to all the problems especially where Lydia needed to vent about how she lacked the studying for a test, or how awful her day was. I’d be looking down on my textbook and listen, or i’d be swirling a football in my hand tossing it up in the air. A means of distraction while I listened to her girl whoos. 

But as we grow up, we transform, I went to Med school clearly, and I wasn’t the same self absorbed jock I was, and Lydia wasn’t the same shy girl, who stayed silent. She was a coward for running, but I wouldn’t take the time I was getting with the blonde now for granted. “ I mean, I am a catch, I can understand why I had tow girls vining for my attention back then.” A snicker on his lips; as he eyed the blonde with a playful wink. “ But I guess the loner guy, the book reader Evans is I get why Liz ditched me..” He was purely joking, Liz and himself were better as friends, besides he was interested in finding out what may happen between Lydia and himself now. As for his issues with evans, he was mysterious, he also was the star sheriff in my mother’s eyes; and I guess that rooted on some weird jealousy feeling.. A pull of his shoulders as he glanced down to the ground. “ My mother thinks he walks on water in this town, he’s in line to take over the department when she steps down, I guess to put it what it is I’m jealous of the guy, the respect my mother has for him, I still think he’s hiding something but I am happy Liz is happy with him.” His personal feelings about Evans had nothing to do with Liz, and he personally wanted to make that clear to Lydia now. As for liz she was one of the good ones. “ I mean she’s kinda a pro, and at least we know our food will be gorment now.” A joke because it was diner food, but the best, its why the business was booming. 

As for us, I wanted us to work once Lydia was released I felt comfortable in knowing our hearts were in this; where ever we unfold.

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@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle wasn’t dwelling on the past, especially his past relationship. Yeah he’d be honest and admit at first when Liz came back to town, when she was figuring who Max was to her; the secrets and she spent a daily confiding in himself, he was her rock it was hard because he did still have a sense of love for her. But Kyle wasn’t in love with Liz; she’d be a good friend for him, she was solid, not to mention all the vaguely teasing he endured last night; the beers, the remarks oh Kyle was in for it when he attended all the wedding events as he was a major part of making Matt and Lena’s wedding beautiful, the speech was highly lining up for him. 

Despite the knots in his stomach. But that was nerves on his part. But when it came to lydia he was blinded by friendship, he was confused once why he cared so deeply for her. Why he was hurt that she left him. Why he was ghosted. But sitting here within the walls of the hospital he was safe, he was with her and yeah he purposely threaded through the topic of Liz with ease, because he didn’t want to bring up unwanted emotions. He loved Liz once, he wanted to spend his life with her once. But Kyle was happy holding Lydia’s hand, and he smiled hearing her wording of how people found their matches in a long run. “ Was I that scary to see as competition? Max Evans the damn sheriff now, we still don’t see eye to eye my mother tends to be in the room when we chat in fear one of us might throw a punch. I knew he loved Liz back then, and I was an asshole.” It was sweet how far we’ve come. And my comment wasn’t out of wanting to harm Max it was a harmless joke on my end. But I also was scared the blonde wouldn’t see it that way. “ I think we all believe in a love when we’re young, but I’m happy we’re all finding our way in the world.” Kyle felt the love she had for him, the way she smiled, the lingering stare and it made his heart speed up. 

“ She’s a solid friend, pulse she sends her prayers for you safe recovery.” He echoed out with a gentle smile; it was Liz she wanted to show up for me, but not invade any boundaries Lydia might have when it came to me.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

“ Oh the loaded fries are to die for still.” Oh Kyle was a frequent flyer when it came to tending to the crashdown, if not on his own accord during an overnight shift, Maria or Liz would bring him the freshly served loaded fries, oh the cheese and bacon melted in your mouth. His response was gentle, he didn’t want to do much discussion when it came to Liz or even his close friendship with his ex now because he didn’t know if it would be a sore subject. Thinking back now, Kyle could only imagine that Lydia probably was jealous of my love for Liz back then. 

Our hot and cold, her frustration with my jock attitude, And Lydia did tell me Liz didn’t see under the armor I wore; and I honestly didn’t believe I was the good enough one. But now I got it; why Lydia would prob me to let my high school sweetheart go, she liked me. And yeah over the years I had pride, I had owned up to my own bullshit, apologized and now we’re great friends. But I also didn’t want to put Lydia in that awkward position, so the only concept of Liz I mentioned was the crashdown, the greasy food, the burgers and fries oh and those milkshakes, no place compared. And I know I was being an ass, I was harboring old fears, of losing my best friend, of not trusting that the blonde would stay; it was my own insecurities speaking for me now. I was worried, but no I wasn’t intentionally throwing digs at Lydia, if she got the hint I was still hurt, fine because I was. Just because I had feelings, because I wanted to jump into us, and try our relationship out doesn’t make that hurt wash away. 

But she was trying; and I offered a gentle smile, one that was becoming reserved for her. “ Sounds like the perfect date.” An honest reply on my end as I lowered my head down to press a kiss to the top of her head over her blonde locks. I wanted to forgive, I wanted to trust it simply takes time. As For Liz and Max, it kinda took me off guard, but A subtle cough left my lips as I glanced at the muted tv hanging on the wall. “ Yeah they’ve been hot and heavy for a bit. And Max my mother’s right hand guy now. So I think Liz has finally met her match..” a joke on my end probably to erase any awkwardness that may be formed.

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@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

@iwannabewooed

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had matured, he had grown up from the foolishly idiot he was in high school, who he was self consumed, he was an asshole to those around him, he was far from the perfect boyfriend to Liz. And looking back now it was miracle anyone in his circle had put up with him. But Kyle also knows, he was considered the jock he was the stereo type. But now he had grown up into an incredible surgeon he saved people who couldn’t help themselves. And Lydia was the one person back in the day who supported him, respected him. And now he knows it was because he was blinded to the fact she was in love with him. And he wants to believe the timing is right, and he isn’t holding her choices against her. She left, left him without a word an explanation. And he was matured to let go. But the concerning part that hung on his tongue was more based upon what if she gets bored of the town, the small town its not enough for her? Would she up and leave? Ghost me? It was my insecurities my doubts seeping in my head. 

But right now I didn’t want to open that can of worms. I didn’t want to hurt her or upset her especially during this recovery process. I wanted to be a shoulder, a friendly face for her. “ I had the feeling that’s what you may be in the mood for.” I added with that charming expression that layered over my features. As I started to type out a message to Liz, I knew she was working at the crash down, she normally tended to close out and if she knew Maria or I was stuck at work or over excreting ourselves she tended to come in handy with reinforcements meaning a late night dinner. I placed her request for cheeseburgers on the message, adding my own shake and meal as well, plus I’d just steal her fries assuming my boss would allow me to stick around until Lydia got some rest, I wouldn’t feel comfortable leaving her on her own. Pressing send, I tilted my head up taking in her beautiful features. “ Our food will be here shortly. I know Liz she’ll personally bring it by. Besides she wants to ensure their burgers are delicious.” I added pausing before I said  “ Burgers are still to die for, I know you’ve been missing them.” Since she’s been gone. 

But we’ll make up for that lost time, plus Lydia managed to get released from the hospital with my assistance of course.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

@iwannabewooed

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle knew he probably shouldn’t be biting his tongue with Lydia. But he also didn’t want to have the same discussion. She told him why she left, told him why she ghosted him. And although he wasn’t the one to necessarily agree with her actions it didn’t change the facts. She was in love with him, and Kyle was blinded to the fact, his focus his devotion had been on Liz his high school love. Hashing out this topic further would’ve gotten us nowhere, except an unnecessary fight. And I was mad at her, and maybe a part of me always would hold some kind of resentment towards her. But my position now was to let it go, to move on. Lydia had mentioned her regret on it, at the time it was a teenage girl letting her hurt feelings get the best of her. 

Kyle had matured, he was an adult now, he was a doctor. And he had unresolved feelings for the blonde, she had nearly died. And he didn’t want to hold that resentment, that baggage on the backburner of his mind. He wanted to focus on in the moment. And yeah a part of him assumed the only reason our feelings came to light, the only reason why Lydia found herself back in our small town was due to our friends, the engagement party. He couldn’t bare to wonder, if Lydia would ever reached out? If she would’ve tried to look him up with or without this party. Matt would tell him to stop doubting himself, to get over his own insecurities. Swallowing his own pride now, he wanted to be a shoulder for Lydia. He wanted to be able to confide in each other, to develop our story in the now, as grown adults. “ Believe it or not, Liz and I are friends now, I’m good friends with all of them.” Meaning liz’s core group Alex, Maria, we hang out, we’re a tight knit group now, as we went through college, new experiences, meaning if I needed a favor all I had to do was ask. “ What kind of milkshake do you want?” I asked already having an idea, I knew her type of favor but who knows tastes can change, we evolve as they say. A small laugh left his lips as he was putting together a quick request to the group chat with Liz and our friends. Regarding the need for the milkshakes. A soft smile creased along his lips. “ I happen to be one of his best surgeons, all I have to do is use the charm.” Well and probably barring with him for an extra shift in return, but that was one bridge i’d cross if it came to it, first milkshakes, besides I had a good 40 minutes before my boss or a nurse would be requesting my attention with visiting hours.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle wasn’t holding the fact Lydia avoided coming back to Roswell because of him against her. It stung knowing she left because of him, although he was innocent in this mess. He was clueless fool who had no idea his best friend the girl he confided in about Liz, his feelings the pressure liked him. He kinda felt like a dumpy now, but Kyle also wasn’t dwelling on it. He was an idiot, but Lydia also shouldn’t of held where she lived, who she allowed into her life, saw for years regularly based on him. But that was a thought Kyle purposely kept to himself. 

One he didn’t understand Lydia in that sense, and it also made him feel guilty. Despite him believing he had no reason to be. Lydia made her own decisions and those sneaking into town were the why she landed up in the hospital. I felt guilty because I had shaped up into a decent guy. But also knew how I felt back then wasn’t my fault. I liked Lydia, I enjoyed spending time with her now, and I wanted to explore what these feelings meant for us. I didn’t want the pressure of our families, of our friends weighting in. I knew Matt and Lena they had hoped since high school we’d end up here, together. But I also didn’t want what others assumed we felt to occur through our minds. Our relationship was ours, and that felt important to me. 

“ I know, but you had your reasons.” What more could Kyle say, he felt torn in a hard spot now, because he could tell lydia how hurt he was, but we had dished it out already. Our feelings or more so hers had come to light, and I didn’t want to risk losing the blonde again, I understood as much as my mind was able to when it came to a girls mind. A low chuckle a hum to my lips now. I wanted to bask in the now, us alone to talk, to share a meal together. And I knew how I felt was confusing, I just wanted to take care of Lydia, and food, oh those turkey sandwiches, and a milkshake, A hum on my lips as I echoed out. “ I can call Liz, send her a message to make a delivery.” I was close friends with an ex, but if Lydia was uncomfortable in any way, I’d go myself to get said milkshakes for us. A soft smile creased along my lips as I stared at her genuinely now. “ I can talk to my boss about staying, I do like to follow the rules now.” I aired out as I was pulling out my phone, to send a quick message to my boss about breaking visiting hours, all the lengths I went for Lydia, my boss the chief would be far from surprised on my end. 

Leaning over to press a kiss to the side of her face, on her cheek now. Kyle would be staying, he wouldn’t feel right leaving her alone, he was devoted, loyal to a fault now a days.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle in his line of work, he was used to a hectic schedule, he was used to be ushered into rooms. Used to being the one to talk to the loved ones. He was a doctor to heart, he loved seeing the hugs, the excitement explored between a patient and family. But Kyla felt like he was on the other side of the wall today. Because he was a loved one, he was sitting in this patient room because of Lydia, a friend, a girlfriend? Honestly Kyle never needed a label simply knowing where our hearts stood. 

But he saw the draining from Lydia’s face now. She was tired from the asks of “ What happened? Are you okay darling?” The gushing of her well being. But given this had been the first time Lydia had been here in Roswell in ages, it felt justified now. Kyle stood on the sidelines, he leaned against the wall absorbing the environment, letting her parents nearly smother her, and by now both of us felt drained from the hours of visitors, but it wasn’t me I was concerned about. I was concerned about Lydia; I wanted to ensure she was okay. Offering a tender smile to my lips, I placed a loving hand against her forearm. “ I’m okay, I’m used to the hugs, the overbearing families, but yours it was earned. They hadn’t seen you in some time now.” Which was honest; and Lydia was well aware of it all, As I slowly lowered myself down to accompany her for the evening, I had already pulled out from pocket my phone where I was scrolling menus for food options. “ Are you hungry? I can order us something.” I asked as I knew lena and Matt relentless to us; and I swear they were the ones in our relationship now. “ I’m sure both will be walking in tomorrow, hoping to corner us..” Did I want our relationship out to be pulled apart on, No but it was Lena and Matt our closest friends; I wanted to share this joy with them, plus their union was shortly approaching.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

A sense of safety of blissfulness was short lived. Of course once my mother and her parents found out about the incident; about Lydia being in an accident would instantly have each of our families rushed to the hospital. And Matt was literally only one phone call away; and if anyone paid attention last night Kyle drank a lot more than he cared to. He was more of nurse a few bears while chilling at the bar with one of his friends. He never was the one to get wasted; with his career even when he was deemed not on call; he was alert and had to prepare if a surgeon called out; or if he was needed. This is why he had a case of water in the tunk of his truck for emergencies and yes he knew how wild that sounded. 

So if anyone saw him last night; would know his mind was spirling; and i’m sure Lena grilled Matt while he nursed his own hangover that morning. Given all the karaoke that boy did; on video he had quite the night. Kyle wasn’t sitting with Lydia as a doctor he was a friend? A boyfriend? Loved one? No labels of yet; nor did the male want to care to label it; the important part was the blonde and I talked and felt on the same page with each other. And for now it felt enough sharing a more intimate smile to Lydia before I had made myself scarce as I stepped over to her parents near the walk once Lydia told them I found her; and made the calls to get her to the hospital as safe as possible and ensure her recovery. And I had to feel pride in my ability of a doctor; I was leaned on; I was dependable of my own merits. “ I’m just happy I was on call to make it to the scene, I doubt someone would’ve allowed me to be clued in..” I made a dry dig at the female; knowing her plan to sneak into Roswell and hide until that engagement party which obviously didn’t go to plan. With a playful wink to her; through all the crushing embraces I was now receiving, I then started into a catch up talk with her parents; while Lena left me and my sore arm alone now. Matt I could see his eyes roll as he still felt that pain from last night. I told him how to cure a hangover; but does he listen? No never does. I had to roll my eyes now as I felt my mom place a hand on my shoulder with a squeeze. “ Don’t let her go.” She whispered in my ear and I smiled knowing she knew; the relationship had shifted. 

For the next few hours we all enjoyed the company; with small talks, Plans for us to get together once Lydia was released, and I stood up and headed to the door while the parents, Lena and Matt shed their good wishes and goodbyes. And as her mom left she smirked at me before I was able to hear the clicking of the door shut on its own. Turning to face a what felt like a long too long few hours. “ How’re you holding up after all the hugs? The chatter boxes?” I asked with a tease in my tone.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

“ It will.” a pleasant grin plastered along his lips. Kyle meant it when he said he wanted the chance to get to know each other as adults. Kyle was far from proud of the teen he was back in the day. He was cocky, an idiot, reckless just you name it. He didn’t care about who he hurt; he was a dickhead to be blunt. And Lydia was smart, clever, brave, she never hid away from calling him out on his shit. Which he appreciated but at the same time enjoyed playing innocent to his own actions. Lydia understood him, and yes he was older and supposedly wiser; but he still was blinded until she said the words. Kyle was oblivious to her feelings, and right now he felt blissful in his own mind. Because he wanted to embark on figuring out who we are and how we fit together in the now. 

Now that word had spread about Lydia being in town namely the hospital Kyle knew it would only be an hour the latest before his friends their families showed up more so barged through that door. So he rested against the edge of her hospital bed, his palm locked with hers; a tenderness to our touches. He silently listened for the movement outside; doctors roaming back and forth down the hall. His lips formed to speak to answer the pray about us having a moment alone; to hopefully start the next stages of our new found relationship of getting to know each other; our likes, dislikes, what we did for fun.. You know the whole getting to know you concept. But Of course he heard the parents before the doors embarged open, and his eyes closed in a collected sigh as he ducked his head down and moved to stand up. Knowing her parents; they’d want to enfold her in a hug, To be by her side because they found out their daughter was hurt, worried it was written all over their faces. 

And I was the one to step back as my mom came to my side; giving me that not so subtle side eye to say Lydia huh, And I laughed it off before her arm came to rest around my shoulders. It was a true reunion because I caught sight of Matt who still looked like he was recovering from last night and I had to hold a laugh under my breath but Lena once got the reply from the blonde stuck to the bed; she came over to me and hit me in the chest. “ YOU, you should’ve said something last night, I’m her best friend.” And I nodded taking the hit; I would’ve said something. 

But Lydia swore me to secretary, I wasn’t going to break that promise plus it would’ve brought up a whole can of worms I wasn’t quite prepared for.. But Matt knew the sorry, and I slowly brushed her slap off. “ She asked me not to, we hoped once she was better recovering we could clue you in.” I said in a apologetic tone; it was getting stuffy in here; was it time for visitors to leave or…

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had matured; he wasn’t the self centered Jerk he once was. He was a caregiver professional now, he worked his ass off in med school. He advocate for his patients; he even if someone told him challenged him against his ethics, against his responsibility of care; that’s when the jerk side could come peeking out. But overall Kyle had taken accountability for himself; his father’s death probably being the counterfeiter in that mess. Being there for his mom, and when Liz when her sister disappeared and ultimately died; I became a friend someone who consoled you. He matured and how no doubt he was worthy of being with Lydai now. 

He wanted to focus on the beating of his heart; how nervous he felt when it came to stepping into her room today, the fear of letting her down like he had, but right now the moment was perfect, us taking our relationship one step at a time. “ we definitely are, I won’t deny I definitely have my moments but it’s rare.” Rare to feel flared up; to get heated to turn over into old habits; yes. But he was focusing on this next stage; to form a life; a future wherever it might be. 

I knew Lydia was egging to get released but given her injuries; she’d have a few more nights here before I’d be signing off on it. Resting against the headboard; his fingers slowly combed through her blonde locks of hair. He knew his mom, and he wouldn’t be surprised when our parents came flying through the door, letting his eyes closed he hummed a response. “ Oh I’m sure Matt was counting on this, surely we’ll be having plenty of company soon.” I was positive but for now I wanted to embrace the comfort of us; laying here together; in a safety of our embrace.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

His father was a sore spot. Because it felt sudden and on the mind. His dad wasn’t perfect probably more so falling to scrambles than he was a decent dad. But he pushed me to my full potential, even if Kyle wasn’t ready at the time to hear it. Kyle was kind of a slow bloomer when it came to learning taking others advise and motivation for himself. He was never coy about who he was; the pressure he felt. Being the sheriff’s son; kyle was more of an dick and a actual human being. But Lydia saw him through thick and thin. And his dad; was a part of himself he never allowed himself to feel. 

Even if he struggled to say the words aloud now, and he knew he saw it in her eyes; the tenderness, the easy way her fingers covered his palm. He never had to utter another word; we read each other. The change of tones; how easily it was for us to connect even after all the years. Kyle wasn’t mad anymore; he was more upset at himself for not reading the signs. For not seeing how Lydia felt; it was stupid on his part now that he thought heavily on it. But we grew; Kyle could proudly admit he wasn’t the same guy he was in High School personality traits yes he was high headed; he liked to be right but he also found the care inside of himself. And he obviously enjoyed putting the needs of others first mainly his  career taught him  where his passions were. But he listened and he felt that grin play at the corners of his lips down as he leaned his head back against the higher level of the pillows, her head comfortably on his shoulder. “ We have, I know I’m not the same, and I meant it when I said i want to get to know you as you are now, and I think we’re make it, whatever future it looks like.” In A sense of where he worked, where she found comfort of living that topic was a discussion months down the road. 

At the mention of her parents he had to angle his head back with a hearty laugh escaping his own lips. “ 20 minutes tops also I wouldn’t be surprised if they told my mom, I didn’t exactly fill her in yet; on you and the accident, because you told me not to.” And he silently knew his mother would be phoning her parent best friends; it was a little annoying how close our folks were. Can we just imagine that future they’d never shut up?

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle knew the personality he gave off when he was a teen. He was probably unbearable on his end. He was cocky, selfish just you name it. He pretended to be dumb in order to allow Liz to tutor him. Because she was the brains she liked being the one in charge; and I was so completely in love with Liz that I wanted to be dumbed down. Kyle knew he was the type of guy to be too cool for school; he hated when his dad disappeared on us; it tore him up inside, but Lydia was the only person he’d be real with. Which is why she never saw his awful qualities; Kyle sat here on the edge of her bed and debated in his head; if she was validated for falling for him back then. Lydia was the constant; the standard in his mind. She was smart; beautiful she had humor she also never was afraid to call me out for my shit. 

And now years later; Kyle wasn’t the cocky bitch he was in High School. He cared about his town; he was a sworn doctor with the edge to fight for patients. He never gave up on a lost cause. And hearing lydia now; he let the crease of a grin cover his own lips, as his soften expression came to lace over his lips. “ I could always be myself with you, good and the bad Lydia. And when my dad..” He crooked up in a break of his voice as if it was fresh in his mind. “ You were there, I knew you always be. The constant for me too. I’ll always show up for you Lydia I vowed to myself I’d always trust you.” And he did; he’d find comfort; that allegiance with her always. Even now as he brought her palm to his lips to press a soft kiss to her hand, A glimmer in his eyes. “ Okay. we keep it to ourselves.” A hum on his lips, as he aired out his next words. “ I think we’ll work out; you kept up with my idiot ass this long..” He laughed to himself before his expression was serious. “ I just want to be curious with us, I care about you, I don’t want to blow us up.. Its you and me until the end.” A promise in his tone; only us now and a vow for that future.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had changed. He had once been a complete dick. The high school self of him; he wasn’t proud of. He was self centered,  he only cared about his own prospects. He only cared about himself. He was selfish he was an idiot, he only managed to score a B or A in his classes because of Lydia, and Liz who had tutored him in the end. Don’t get Kyle wrong he was smart; he just struggled to applied himself. But he wasn’t the same guy; he was smarter, he was wasier, he knew how to take care of other. He wasn’t an absentminded fool. And Lydia was changed; she knew how to take others thoughts into consideration, He smiled to himself as he leaned into her head softly resting against his shoulder. Tilting his head downward to meet her inviting gaze. 

“ I’ll be honest, I don’t know how you liked me back then, Or loved me in this case. I’m the first to admit that I wasn’t the likable kind. I picked on kids because it was fun I wanted to be the most popular. I don’t know how anyone had put up with me. But I’m relieved to know you still found a way to fall for me. But I’m not the same guy. I’m happy to be far from the guy I was in High School. I want us to discover who we are now.” I made sure Lydia knew the kind of guy  she should be expecting now, now the jackass I was in High School, as she teased her least liked tenacious in High School I narrowed a pair of eyes on her. “ Less Controlling? I care to differ, you did try to rip my head off for even trying to fluff the pillows once we got you settled in this bed.” I added with a cough more so like a laugh on my end. Point was; neither of us was the same. We had grown and matured to the best versions of ourselves. For my case I was a doctor; I was a caring physician,  I tended to the hurt; I fixed the injuries that felt impairable. And I was proud of who I was now. As I kept silent as the blonde had bolded up the courage to call her parents. I saw them weekly, I had no concerns what so ever; they were kind people, served a mean meatloaf, and man the home made bread; made your mouth water. 

But I kept that to myself as I aired out the reassurance to her parents. Lydia was in safe hands with me. A bold grin, a cocky grin might I add, I listened to her retort of the grilling from her father, I padded my shoulder with a pretend dust off. Her dad I could handle assuming this monday night dinner, we told them we’re trying the dating thing out. Or were we gonna keep on the downlow? I had no idea.  A small shrug of my shoulders. “ I can handle your dad, he thought we’d been dating for years, But are we telling them? Or wanting to keep us more to ourselves until we see if this is the real deal…?” Did I say it wrong? I bit the insides of my gums now as I prepared for the lecture on Lydia’s end. I didn’t want to hide us; but I also didn’t want to hurt our parents in case we crashed and burned. I was leaving the call up to her. 

But the sun did rise with me she pointed out; It was safe to say; we’d be getting our hands dirty; but for now I was just happy with her.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had moved on from his days of a cocky son of a bitch who liked to believe he was right at all cost. But when it came to how he felt about Lydia and how it stung when he realized she had in ghosted him. And Kyle at the time wasn’t the best of people. He was self-centered; he was cocky and arrogant. He didn’t care about other people; he would’ve never been friends with the people he was today. But Lydia had been his best friend a person he had confided in. Someone he held her hand in her moments of need; when she cried he’d be the shoulder to cry on. And suddenly she disappeared from his life. He no longer had a person to lean on and it stung. Especially not understanding why. Don’t get Kyle wrong he was a complete dick in high school; it was a miracle that Liz had put up with him at all; or remotely loved him. 

But we change; we grow out of childish behavior; and Kyle wasn’t the same stuck up kid he once was. And neither was Lydia. Was he hurt still? Yeah of course it felt natural to feel hurt by someone you deeply care for, even loved. But he wasn’t going to hold her actions against her. We were kids; kids who felt foolish now; and Kyle didn’t want to be held up on the pain; on the hurt that was caused. As his eyes found hers he held it with a sympathetic emotion. “ I’ve changed too Lydia. I wouldn’t be the man I want to be now if I held your actions against you. And I suppose its justified now seeing as you were just hiding the fact you were in love with me. Although I don’t see how, I was a such an idiot a dick back then.” I shook my own head in pure amusement. I wasn’t the same Kyle I held compassion, I cared about other patients. I cared about my friends; and I was caregiver; meaning I’d drop everything for my patients now. I wanted Lydia to get to know this version of myself; not the one that slammed Alex into lockers; not the one who only cared about a baseball career or his in love tenacity for Liz. 

Point was we change; we adapt and mature; as she mention calling her parents; I offered a supportive smile, as I leaned into her pillow, my head only inches from hers; the gesture of the kiss heavily on my mind. I wore that doleful expression as I listened to her explain to her parents about the accident about being at med; and when the phone was handed over in my direction, I lifted a finger to press a speaker button so we both could listen in. “ I’ve got this.” I mouthed to Lydia before I went on to discuss the injuries at hand. “ Hi its Kyle. I am here taking care of lydia. She’s okay truly. A broken leg, that’s in a cast and few bruises but overall in safe hands. I promise we’ll be over for the family dinner on Monday night.” I added noting her mom wanted to come see her daughter and I echoed an Okay before the call ended. As I pressed the end button I glanced to Lydia with a grin. “ See I told you, your parents love and appreciate me.”

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had dated over the years; he wasn’t hung up on Liz, or any girl for that matter; but he could admit he had never been ghosted until Lydia. And she had been his best friend, the anchor that kept him humble and grounded. Okay humble yeah right. He was still Kyle; the guy who used to rubbed other peoples failures in their faces, he was the jock that never gave. He was self centered at the time; and somehow Lydia still managed to put up with him. But when it came to the day she left his life; without a word he couldn’t help but be hurt. Was it true everyone had to be ghosted at least once? He made a mental note to ask Maria or Alex next time we decided to get drinks at the stone Pony, yeah the people who once despised him we hung out. It’s a small town. 

As he narrowed his hues down on the blonde he shook his head with a “ The jury is still out on that one Lydia, as happy as I am the ghosting the years apart brought us here. I don’t necessarily believe the ghosting was necessarily. What happened to open and honest conversation?” He asked in his total serious fashion. Because it’s Kyle he worked within the walls of the hospital. He tended to patients; he rarely ever had a day off unless it was requested on his part. All that to say did Kyle get out much? No probably not. But he did believe in fate; and the fact is he was the one who saved Lydia, he was the one that stayed with her; he’d do it all over again if it meant us landing here; together. No remorse, no resentful feelings; us being honest and wanting to discover each other again. As Adults. Because Kyle was a dick; he was the idot who believed everyone circled around him. He was the one that talked down on others; he felt because he was the star player; his mother was the sheriff that his rules were the only rules that counted. All that to say; the male had matured over the years. 

He wasn’t the same dickhead he was in High School; he was loyal, devoted a caregiver obviously especially when he was the one wearing the white coat. “ I hate to break it to you, but if anyone disliked you in High School it probably had more to do with me than you, a baggage deal kind of thing, you know..” I aired out in a conscious shrug, knowing how I was perceived back then; there’s a reason why the group I hung out with now teased me, in my old ways. But it was all in fun now, even Matt hung out with the crew; apparently everyone could tell the why Lydia had left besides me, I was the dark horse the one left out in the dark. But as we glanced at the footage from last night; I had to laugh to myself, as I nodded knowing matt was feeling it because he had texted me annoyingly earlier. “ He is, and I’ll be honest if I didn’t get the IV I did when I showed up I’d probably be sporting a headache right now.” I was honest, as surgeon I limited the outings; I stopped myself from having more than one beer. But last night; I was upset; I was lost in my thoughts and I had drank too much, luckily I knew not to step foot on that stage, as for Matt that boy never learns. As I closed the video I let my eyes rank over the blonde’s frame, she was beautiful, and I knew our parents. Nerves, hurt that she never called especially when admitted to the hospital. But I also knew she and I were in this together. As I raised my hand to her cheek I lowered my lips to brush quickly against hers. “ Deal, We’re in this together.” A caress of my thumb against her cheek.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.