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I ate today which really put me in a funk but i also lost a pound. But the food is most likely gonna put it back on

Discipline

I will discipline myself

I will restrict my eating

I will curb my hunger

I will count my calories

I will mind my carbs

I will keep myself hydrated

I will take my medications/vitamins

I will get proper sleep

I will commit to my fasts

I will lose weight

I will be skinny

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Discipline

I will discipline myself

I will restrict my eating

I will curb my hunger

I will count my calories

I will mind my carbs

I will keep myself hydrated

I will take my medications/vitamins

I will get proper sleep

I will commit to my fasts

I will lose weight

I will be skinny

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Y'all ever want to weigh yourself all the time but are also terrified of doing it because you’re afraid you might’ve gained bc yea same

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When you’re losing weight and no one is noticing and you’re relieved because you don’t want them to know you have an eating disorder but also upset because  you’re working so hard and they don’t even notice

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Nothing is that simple

My friends say “just eat”

And my response is always “it’s not that simple”

My parents ask “why do you do this to yourself do you not like your body”

And again my response is “it’s not that simple”

Eating disorders are never simple they don’t just form out of the blue they gradually form after hating yourself for such a long time that you would do anything to change just one thing about yourself so that you can like yourself just a little bit more it’s not only about wanting to be thin it’s about wanting to be noticed or to be in control but soon it becomes out of your control and becomes a addiction, the only thing you think about “how many hours can I fast before getting sick” “what is my calorie limit for the day” and more and more thoughts rush through your head so you can’t tell me “just eat” because it is definitely not that fucking simple.

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adulthood really does hit you like a fucking truck when you spent all of your teenage years thinking you were gonna kill yourself eventually,

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Reblog if you’re...

I’ll follow everyone that reblogs, just know that my main is a fandom account!

> 16+

> Pro recovery

> Live with your parents

> Are still in high school

> Currently have an ED

> Are a fan of Marvel

*Don’t have to meet all requirements! Just looking for some people to follow, or maybe chat with!*

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I'm getting my shit together

I'm gonna do it. I'm going to at LEAST reach my 2nd goal weight before school. I'm going to start realllyyy restricting and fasting. I'm going to say no to food when it's offered. I'm going to start exercising multiple times a day. I'm going to get skinny.

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TODAY IS THE DAY

today is the day i stop eating so much.

today is the day i eat healthy.

today is the day i start to lose weight.

i will be at least 125lbs by school time.

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here’s the thing

about body disphoria, you get these little flashes of clarity i guess. where you can see yourself for what you actually look like. and your disgusted with the deathly thin hardly human looking back at you and your disgusted with what you’ve become and you understand what everyone sees and why your family cries and begs you to eat. or tells you you aren’t fat and people would kill to look like you. you can see and you understand it all.

but the other 99% of the time you don’t see it. your in the mirror and you look disgustingly huge and sick and you absolutely cannot eat. you can touch and grab at fat that hardly exists on your body. and there are no words to describe the fear, disgust and hatred you have for yourself.

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Can 👏 I 👏 Just 👏 Be 👏 Skinny 👏 Already 👏

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Anon/Bulimic Buddy

Would anyone want to be anon or bulimia buddies? ♡ Please ; I've gained so much weight and i really need a friend who understands

#anorexia #anobuddy #bulimicbuddy #edblog #ed #eatingdisorder #fat #bulimia

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are you really doing it right if you don't get dizzy whenever you try to do anything

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Kinda face reveal I guess,,,

I have the black hair. Hi I’m Ria I’m ana and I’m 17 and bi, love twenty one pilots and a whole wide ass range of music (except country,, ew)

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