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I've always loved jewelry. Every since I started working, I would buy jewlery. In my younger years, it was mostly costume peices that looked interesting to me. As I got older, I started buying smaller fine jewlery peices. When I was getting married, my parents purchased a lot of heavier bridal pieces. The Ex's family gave me some jewlery too as that was custom and to not give it would have blown their manipulative, greedy cover.

Post marriage, the Ex and his mother constantly reminded me of the jewlery they gave me. Constantly. It was so bad that I considered giving everything back to them just to shut them up. Out of despair, I told my mother and she told me to not hand over anything, including the jewlery my parents had given me. My ex mil also asked regularly about that jewlery. Thankfully, I had placed everything in a safety deposit box that was just in my name. I had already handed back my mahr (which is haram, but I didn't know better at the time). The Ex had convinced me that holding onto my mahr was greedy so I literally handed it right back to him as soon as he placed it in my hand.

Over the course of 15 years, he refused to buy me any gifts. Sometimes he would give my $100 out of paycheck for my birthday. That sucked. When I think about it now, I feel so embarrassed I allowed that punk to snatch my entire salary.

Post divorce, money was tight so I couldn't even think about jewlery. But Alhammdulillah, my financial situation has improved significantly and I have started adding to my collection. A friend told me she buys a piece of gold with every paycheck. That's a bit much for me financially, but occasionally I do get a peice here and there.

I especially love estate sales and unique finds. But recently have been purchasing small everyday pieces. I just recently purchased the most darling bracelet. It's dainty, but so elegant. As soon as the salesperson put on my wrist, I got this brief, but overwhelming sense the Ex would have never gotten me something like this and I would never have been able to purchase anything like for myself since he controlled (stole) all my money.

Buying this bracelet reminded me that even if he didn't think I was worth it, I know I am worth all the beautiful things.

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Update: The new car is awesome. I hate having a payment again, but it's a small price to pay for reliability and safety.

And as always forever and ever...Free 🇵🇸

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Michael Halak (Palestinian, b. 1975)

Terra Sancta (Figs), 2022

Oil on wood

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I finally got a new car. My current vehicle is pretty much on it's last wheels and I needed something. It's the last remnant of the Ex. He stuck me with this lease, which I ended up having to buy because I was thousands of miles over. Thousands (punk was driving it everywhere so he could save gas and his car's mileage). I bought it and paid it off. Alhammdulillah. But the car was a lower end American brand and sucked. Tons of recalls on anything from the engine to the windshield wipers. I was pouring too much into a vehicle that was just bad vibes.

Alhammdulillah I finally got over my fear (yes...buying a new car was a scary experience for me) and pulled the plug. I got a higher end foreign car with a lot of bells and whistles. But the main thing is that it is totally reliable. It's hybrid so I'll save money on gas. It's comfortable and all mine. Now to focus on paying it off ASAP.

All things the Ex said I couldn't do...I did, smarter and with a clear heart. I took my time and made lots of duas to Allah to guide me in the right direction.

Alhammdulillah. I'm getting the vehicle next week and I can't wait. ❤️

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Irani zios

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Living his best life

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She’s like Sonic

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My youngest turned 18. I deleted the Our Family Wizard app. I'm free from the asshole ex and the shitty and corrupt parenting time coordinator.

I'm starting to step out a bit and hoping to meet someone nice. Told a friend to introduce me to a few people. Let's see if anything comes up. I'm ok with not being partnered, but it would be nice to have someone.

Alhammdulillah for all the lovely people (family, friends) in my life and my fulfilling work. 💕

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i think we should start having episodes which are direct sequels to first/second doctor era serials, but only the missing ones, so that ncuti gatwa can look beautiful and deliver a fantastic monologue as he realises with horror where he is... and then we cut to a single poor-quality frame of william hartnell grimacing

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I just like the idea of a gold potat.

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Ya Allah give them Jannat and their their murderers Jahannam.