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compilation of every single time I drew that one cathedral scene (that I could find)

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I have a disease that makes me like vampires and titties its callled being a fucking genius

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remember to pay attention to me btw. remember to pay attention and to be in love with me. btw. right now

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they're sealing me away in a tomb tomorrow. forever

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Women are allowed to do this.

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something that watching thousands of liveleak videos as a child did for me was instill within me a healthy fear of committing acts of violence against other people. because it's like "You might think this is a scuffle where you both punch each other and go home but there's like a significant chance that you have no idea how easy it is to kill someone else and then you have to go home having murdered somebody on accident. Are you ready to handle that?"

the answer can be "Yes, I am willing to take the risk that I will kill this person, either intentionally or on accident," but that should basically, imo, be the only situation in which you should start physically fighting someone.

and like. I think it's OK to say "Yes" sometimes. tumblr user sizhens "killing people is fine sometimes" but you gotta go into it knowing you might kill them and be ready for those consequences.

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i am so happy for you and your ugly fucking cavalier im serious

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Putting all tabletop players into a college level ethics class and forcing them to turn in a paper on moral philosophy before buying a new book

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Well, fuck me sideways. Connections have been made.

My girlfriend has this specific gesture she does sometimes, a very particular way of turning her wrist around and locking her fingers in one specific grip. Fast or slow, the angle of her wrist and the rhythm of the movement are always exactly the same, and at this point I've learned to recognize the motion well enough that she could do it with her back towards me and I know she's doing it.

The first time I saw her do it I thought she was putting something into her pocket, but once I noticed her making it more often I started making connections. I saw her doing it unconsciously when some situation in the house is getting tense - not during the casual sparring arguments with my other housemates, but the serious fights where shit is about to actually get fucking real - and I figured that it's a nervous thing, she doesn't like where this is going and it's scaring her. So that became my cue that it's time to back down.

I don't know when she noticed that I noticed her doing it. We've never talked about it, but at some point she started doing it on purpose, as her way of telling me that I should stop causing problems. Rotating her hand slowly means she's seeing a problem brewing and it's better that I watch myself before I start escalating it, and a quick flick and snap means whatever I was just about to say or do, I should cut that shit out right this fucking second. It works for some reason, so I've respected that.

My girlfriend does some volunteering favors for the neighbors here sometimes. Today she asked if I wanted to come along to walk this one old couple's dog, and I was feeling up for it so I went along. My father was terrified of dogs so I'm not familiar with them, but her family has always had them.

So we were walking, talking about something else, enjoying the nice weather for once, when my girlfriend saw another dog walker approaching. I didn't notice anything out of the ordinary, but the other dog walker started pulling the dog back with this roller leash thing whatever the fuck they're called. And then the old couples' dog started growling.

With the familiarity of someone who's been handling dogs all her life my girlfriend grabbed the little fucker's leash, wrapping it around the width of her palm and gripping it to pull the dog closer a second before it could bolt to attack. A move she's probably done countless times in her life, that she could do in her sleep, by instinct, without ever even thinking about it. A gesture I've learned to fucking spot from across the room from the corner of my eye. That exact same fucking twirl and grip. I have no idea if she noticed me noticing it or making the connection.

She's fucking learned to pull my fucking leash back when I'm about to start shit.

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one consequence of transmisogyny (but not unique to it) is that it makes you into a paranoiac. take the example of the "degendering they" or like the "backhanded compliment," relatively minor interpersonal interactions that trans women increasingly feel hypervigilant about. it's probably counterproductive to assume everyone who gives you a compliment or refers to you as "they" or "this person" (<- phrase that actually revolts me a little now in this context) is doing so condescendingly, in a malicious or even just incidentally diminishing way. but also, everything about your life as a trans woman encourages you to be on alert for these kinds of cues, because if you're not paying attention to them then when the hammer drops it will hit that much harder.

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Sometimes the rats in my brain come together and start yelling “YEARNING” and in trying to appease them I ask “FOR WHAT” but they are too small so all they can say is “YEARNING” which is a very big word for such a tiny creature, even collectively

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posting this on my main so it's how my general audience finds out that there's going to be an official DC/Sonic the Hedgehog crossover and this is going to be in it

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its not even 2024 anymore its some other bullshit now

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i love being friends with a trans military historian it means i get unhinged stuff like this in my DMs

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step 1. get everyone in the world to want to fuck me

step 2. vow of celibacy

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Having a really long-term hyperfixation that has since faded is terrifying yes but it's also so embarrassing. Hi I used to think about Scrimblo Splungus 25/7. Yeah, for 2 years straight. Nah, I don't think about them anymore except for with a vague sense of melancholy as I recall how they used to make me feel. Anyways this new one, Blimpkins McGee? I'm gonna think about them forever and the cycle will NOT repeat in 2 years. Trust me guys.