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LITTLE      WING ,         SHE   CALLED   HIM .       LITTLE    WING ,       SHE’D   SAID .  LIKE   YOU   WERE   A   PART   OF   IT   ALL ,        SOMETHING    WORTH    WINGS . 

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@ dw    :    release  boom  boom  shake  the  room  on  streaming  services  u  cowards 

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SEE BUT NOW I DON’T LIKE MY DESCRIPTION BC IT’S  FOR  THE  GLORY  OF  [REDACTED]    !  

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just bc i didn’t necessarily agree w/ the end of s3 doesn’t mean i’m not makin  the  most kickass playlist for that Final Battle™ aesthetic    ?  

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also whatever happened to that  dark  champion  threat,  gunmar  ?   u afraid   ?  

it was led up to for a solid two seasons   ?   all this talk of making jim go to the dark side of this story,  of everything that happened in the darklands,  ur fancy mind control sword  ?   u HAD him,  but what,  it just  defected  ?  the fact that he was different,  now,  and it should’ve really really affected him at this point,  and then some armour shit happened and.   it  broke  ?    what  ?    w/ no explanation  ?   like what happened   ??

but even before the final battle,  if not jim,  u hurt one  (1)  of the fam squad and bam,  what a plot   ?   you take down the trollhunters and who’s left to protect the world ?   we get a little bit thru possessed claire,  and even more through strickler n the demon coffee,  and how  HARDENED  jim was there,  what he’s become through everything,  how it comes together in this last season  ?  and the school fight w/ strickler,  during,  after the fact,  esp. those parting remarks  ?   talk ab knowing ur mentor’s true thoughts  ?  how all of these incredibly important people to him didn’t   . . . .   believe in him,  anymore  ?  the human part  ?  the part that makes him him,  makes him whole,  grounds him in both worlds   ?   knock knock go INTO THAT give us the good bonding moments   !!   the fam moments  !   surround us in that acceptance theme,  make it everything  !  esp. in something as core-centered to the story as this   !   you take this story ab childhood and humanity in the face of something so legendary and monumental and fantastical and you tell me heart isn’t enough  ??   heart isn’t enough my entire ass   !!!!!! 

and they hinted at it,  w/ the dark magics,  seeing hunter jim before,  how we know that the inhuman trollhunter is a part of him,  now,  and with morgana and merlin bein shifty,  and the transformation and just.  nothing happened  !  unfulfilled prophecy  !  

dark me wanted it to be jim who wielded the avalon staff for gunmar.  u kno he would’ve to protect any of them,  all of them.  he would sacrifice himself time and time AGAIN and doing it  like this,  possessed by magic sword or not,  this way it’s on him.   all of it.   the eternal night,   the ending,  the mantle he was chosen for  ?  all of the weight he holds as young atlas  ?   it’s on him.  and they could’ve laid it all out on the table through the flashbacks:  every tragedy he has had to hold alone,  beside this amulet above his heart,  from finding it, to bular, to angor rot, the ghost council not believing in him,  to even all of the humane problems  ?  hiding it all from his mother once,  and then having to do it again  !!  dealing with school,  with dating,  amongst all of this responsibility to be the hero.  to have no more casualties in this war that has outlived him for millennium over,  even at the cost of himself,  feeling like he had to do the darklands alone  !!  feeling like he failed  !!  feeling isolated like all the other trollhunters of past  !!  but then showing toby.  and claire and his mom and steve and eli and blinky and arrrrrrrg !!  and draal and steve and eli and strickler and nomura and EVERYONE !!!!  that has helped him and challenged him along the way.   everything that he’s lived through,  everything we have lived through with him as viewers. 

and the driving point of how all of it has led him,  led all of them  ( us too )  ?   right there.  right up to the Big Bad™ and everyone that has journeyed with him to end up right back here,  home,  trollmarket,  within the heartstone.  with everyone who was lost and gained along the way,  it could’ve been such a big moment  ?  about acceptance and growth and humanity over everything,  even magic  ?   the human side of jim overcoming gunmar’s control,   showing how we can overcome anything,  with the right people by our side,  the right thing to fight for?  and how jim  ?   he’s so lucky.  to have his friends,  his family,  his trollhunters.  merlin or not,  magic and gunmar and trolls or not,  he will always have them to fight for.  

and that final acceptance  ?   of himself  ?  of being the trollhunter  and  jim lake jr,  being confident in knowing himself,  and using that to stop all of it  ?   as a viewer,  being shown that  ?  imagine how powerful that would’ve been.  how beautiful of a ending that would’ve been for this story about grappling with unknowns in the world around you,  and the unknowns in yourself.  how overcoming that  ?   and accepting that  ?  is just as a powerful and spectacular and heroic as saving the world.  

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 some slightly rambly n incredibly opinionated ending thoughts under the cut    !  

so i’m uh   .  .  .    conflicted  ?   i think is a nice way to put it  ?  it had me goin,  it was SO GOOD through halfway of  for the glory of merlin  and then it just kind of.  fell apart from there ?  there were parts ab it that were really really good,  esp. in how a lot of small scenes n themes ended up to connecting together closer to the final eps that were really satisfying to see  !!  but then how so much of the important stuff came out of left field  ?  how much is still left unanswered  ?   how a lot of it,  esp. towards the end felt.  unearned   ?   and how it felt like.  mismatched throughout ?  like there were things that u could’ve cut out and been totally fine with story-wise  ?  which is interesting  ?  

i think the biggest one i’m still not over is.   merlin being thrown into the mix ?  like i was SO HERE for the morgana aspect like her and claire being the POWERFUL WOMEN that they are and being shown as such  ?  10/10,  best material from the entire season, shit  ?   but we’re not merlin stans in this home  ?  this entire season was just  :  merlin ?  how ab merDON'T ?   how much of his interaction w/ the team is just   . . . .  manipulation  ?   the way he treats them,  treats the trolls  ?   treats his own champion  ???  the fact he NEVER tells them the whole story or what he wants out of any of this until RIGHT before   ?  he was wishy-washy and untrustworthy the whole time  ?? 

specifically, how his manipulation of jim was shown visually  ?  and how it feels like a damn  tragedy  ?  which makes me feel like it’s the wrong choice to make here ?  knock knock i'm not here for OLD MEN saying u have to change yourself to save the ones u love !!!!!  how that it’s,  of course,  the only possible way  ???  and how he was so adamant about it being  jim’s choice,  but that the decision was made as soon as the  ‘ ties  ’  disappeared like.    i'm not a fan of the games he plays  ??   bc here jim is doing things ALONE AGAIN  !!!!!!!!!  feeling isolated !!  and troubled !!  there are so many better ways that merlin could've gone ABOUT THIS !!!!!!  where jim would've felt.  safer ?  less scared ?  less conflicted ?  they had a WHOLE DEDICATED EP,   a whole theme goin ab acceptance and then ur just gonna go back and disregard everything  ?  here is jim making one of the BIGGEST DECISIONS OF THIS WAR,  and he’s   –   alone   ?   giving up something that began this story  ?   that was the central piece of his unbecoming,  and becoming into who he is today  ? 

like i think the thing that gets me the most ab it is.  jim’s humanity is what makes . . . . . . this story ?  the amulet may have chosen him,  but he shouldn't have to change for it ?  esp. when his whole story so far has been about accepting him as the first human trollhunter ?  like it was something to be proud of  ?   esp. when it is a whole damn part of himself ?  idk but i’m excited 2 see other thoughts n opinions on this  !!  

i cried more at blinky’s undying acceptance of jim   (  magnificent son  ?  catch me sobbing  ?  best writing of the season right there  )    rather than anything of the final battle bc.  like it felt there were no stakes  ?  like yea daylight broke n the staff’s gone but it didn’t feel half as monumental as it should have  ?  not like before ?  like take for the glory of merlin,  the whole crystal cave battle felt like it had major stakes,  felt  heartfelt ?  even when we didn’t know that much,  but they were walkin in there with NO DEFENSES to save the world ?  their friend  ?  and draal  ?  and how it went down ?  ruined me.   nothing felt the same after that,  and it was just a midseason point ?  even the finale,  and gunmar,  it just. didn’t feel.  whole  ?   

and the ending  ?  fuck that.  ur gonna look me in the eyes and tell me mama’s boy jim is just.  content w/ bein a troll now  ?  that the fact that pretty much everyone  (  including the creator of the amulet itself which is just.  the CHERRY on top of the depressing sundae  )  told him he wasn’t good enough as just a human doesn’t.  fuck with him ?  the fact he can’t ever get out of the armour ?  the  eclipse  armour  ?  that he can’t feel sunlight,  or ride his vespa anymore ?  how he doesn’t know this new him,  how nothing is the same,  and how he made that decision alone  ?  like. when did they all grow up ?  when was ‘ gotta show these cool kids around to graduate sophomore year of high school ‘ jim turn into ‘ time to lead the trolls to better days, leaving my life, my family, and my best friend behind bc i’m the trollhunter ‘  jim  ?  like it just.  felt weird.  idk. 

overall i did enjoy it  !!  there were so many good scenes and bits and jokes and soft scores and the LIGHTING ?  i’m constantly blown away by the animation n story aspects of this show like i’m immensely impressed  !!   24/7  !!

tldr  :  merlin’s a big ol’ bag of dicks,  morgana was powerful af and i want more,  stop putting love triangles in stories that don’t need them,  the second half of the season felt like they had two to three different ways they wanted it to end but couldn’t decide and then decided to find a mix of all three justifiably,  justice for toby 2k18. 

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u can’t see it but i’m blowing kisses to the lighting in every scene in for the glory of merlin bc wow  . .  . . . .   the th team really did that for us   ?   feelin truly blessed   ?  

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HI YEA LET’S TALK AB THE FACT MERLIN EXPECTED JIM TO BE LIKE A WHOLE THIRTY YEARS OLD   ? 

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ME ?  WRITING  A  SAPPY  LITTLE  SPIEL  TO  GO  WITH  THIS ?  more  likely  than  you  think .

sooo ,  uh .  i’ve  only  had  this  blog  actually  running  for  what ,  a  little  over  a  month ?  and  already ,  i’ve  connected  with  so  many  amazing  people  and  plotted  some  amazing  things  ( which  i  am  slow  to  actually  writing  askjdf  i’M  SORRY  ILY  GUYS  YOU  KNOW  WHO  YOU  ARE  AND  THANK  YOU  FOR  BEING  SO  PATIENT  WITH  MY  SLOW  ASS ) .  but  i’ve  also  received  an  incredible  response  that  i  didn’t  ever  dream  of  getting  here .  you’ve  all  encouraged  and  inspired  me ,  whether  you  know  it  or  not ,  and  the  funny  thing  is  i  did  not  expect  this  blog  to  garner  much  attention  at  all  since  th  is  such  a  small  fandom  compared  to  others ,  and  especially  not  even  get  to  100  followers .  but  you  guys  have  made  me  feel  so  welcome ,  especially  my  fellow  jims .  it  makes  me  so  happy  that  the  th  rpc  is  so  uplifting ,  and  it  encourages  me  to  stick  around .  i  don’t  think  i’ll  be  losing  jim  muse  any  time  soon .  and  as  a  thank  you  to  everybody  for  being  here  and  spreading  the  love  and  getting  me  to  this  milestone ,  i  want  to  do  something  for  YOU .  ❤️

GIVEAWAY  DEETS :

1)  MUST  BE  FOLLOWING  ME !  being  mutuals  is  not  required ,  but  please  don’t  just  follow  just  for  the  giveaway  and  unfollow  after  it  ends — that’s  a  bit  rude . 2)  REBLOG  TO  ENTER !  likes  won’t  count ,  but  you  can  reblog  more  than  once  for  better  chances ! 3)  giveaway  ends  FEB.  10 ! 4)  THERE  WILL  BE  3  WINNERS :

FIRST  PLACE :  their  choice  of  3  of  the  following — dash  icon ,  mobile  header ,  promo ,  OR  a  sketch  of  their  character .

SECOND  PLACE :  their  choice  of  2  of  the  above  options .

THIRD  PLACE :  their  choice  of  1  of  the  above  options .

PERSONALS  DO  NOT  REBLOG !

now  onto  the  bias  list !

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how    you    domesticate    grief     :      let it fuel you.   never let up your grip.   you can’t seem to get it right so you   keep  trying.   you never stop.   look at the moon and wonder    –    is this what your life will always be like?    begging to be understood,    to live freely and have  someone be proud of you   ?

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I am the ocean; the earth; whatever dies for you.

Alice Notley, from In The Pines: Poems; “The Black Trailor (A Noir Fiction),” (via violentwavesofemotion)

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I  AM  A  CATASTROPHE   tied  together  with  feeble  bones  and  TRAGEDY ;   be  careful  coming  too  close  :   blood  on  my  teeth   &   fire  in  my  lungs   /   I  DO  NOT  WANT  TO  SET  THIS  WORLD  ON  FIRE  ,   but  i’ve  got  a  torch  song  in  my  blood .

independent  and  private  HICCUP  HADDOCK  from  how  to  train  your  dragon .   loved  by  emmie !

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do i need to do my drafts?   absolutely.   do i need to do my homework / study?   absolutely.  am i just going to make gifs and a new blog?   ab    ..    solutely. 

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me,  usually:       man i really don’t feel like    ...    actually writing more than 2 stanzas today  me,  on the morning that classes begin:   this boy  ?   i could write eight novels,  make 89 gifsets paired with poetry,  throw a sonnet in there for good measure,  i have so much muse  

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you want to name the feeling of your hands,   give it color,  a breath of hope,  a destiny,  a future.

a birthday thing for @astroliability,  one of the most spectacular and brilliant writers that i have the absolute honor to know  !     i hope this year is amazing and wonderful to you  ! 

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um     ...    blinky bein bad   ?   whether that’s mixed up through a grit-shaka,  some weird troll curse,  or otherwise horrible magic related-object just.  blinky becoming the opposite of his usual self.    unhelpful   !     uncaring   !     running his own agenda  !   revolt   ?   revenge  ?   all of this unused knowledge of everything shifty and cursed ?   the trouble that could be made   ?

jim and the team’s number one  (1)  constant and dependable resource for help in whatever situation they’ve gotten themselves into this time,  now on the opposing end?  having to deal with that?  the subtle momentary betrayal?  the father figure™ gone  (again)   ?    gets me so bad       ...     @   th pls think of the angst      !!!