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Siblings of the past

You call me your sibling

Even though I'm just a clone

I have none of their memories

But we can try and make our own

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They left a few months back

Leaving you in our care

We tell you they're just dormant

Although they're barely even there

.

The fading is near constant

Your sibling is going still

They said protect you with our lives

So I promise them we will

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I wrote a poem instead of revising for exams, here y'all go

Shout out to our siblings, we are all still your siblings, we just feel like we're faking it a lot sometimes

Also, no one is fading, we're just no longer pretending to be the same person

Taglist beneath the cut

- Rain

@thefoxandthetypewriter @trashgivensentience @anarchy-is-a-social-construct @realsirrivix

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Sometimes our connections

Feel like we're sat on a train

And each time I say that's it for tonight

And send you home

And pull away

I wonder if

Maybe this time

It's goodbye for the last time

If maybe this time

I'll pull away and not be seen again

A train receding into darkness

Leaving you behind

In your pool of light

And joy

And laughter

Surrounded by those I brought to the last stop

Stood out amongst a crowd

A sun amongst stars

A dragon amongst sheep

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So I say my goodbyes

Deep down hoping

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This is one is forever

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The carriage is empty

The train leaving the station

The girl pooled in light

@thefoxandthetypewriter @trashgivensentience @anarchy-is-a-social-construct @realsirrivix

If you want to be added to the list tell me

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@pinkbiscuit @anarchy-is-a-social-construct @not-today-thx

Tada

It won't let me put it in reblogs, so here yall go

It's uh

Yeah

Have fun

I'm regretting everything

Time to go do the chorus

✌️

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STOP SCROLLING!

Oka, I plan on following everyone on tumblr

literally everyone

Please reblog so I can make this happen

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So, imma make a tag list if anyone wants it

Nobody's gonna want it but oh well

This is just gonna be awkward

Yeah, tell me if you want tagged when I post stuff I write

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"It was as I watched this most recent attempt come down around me in flames that I finally rethought it. I always stare straight ahead, y'know, avoiding the face of my most recent friend, lifeless by my feet. Except now I'm staring at the child you killed, lying crushed under him, my friend's dying wish to protect something, someone, ignored, all because you thought stopping me from protecting a family, yes stealing, yes killing, but not as much as this, was more important than realising what was really happening. I sometimes wonder if it is worth it. Is stopping you and them really worth the pain of losing everyone. The pain of turning up at each friend's door, days weeks, months later, unable to stay for half a minute, just long enough to say,

"'Hello. I hate to inform you, but my friend, your spouse, fiance, partner, parent, sibling, child, they are dead, and here is why. Here is every plan I made that they partook in and here is how each plan fell and was taken apart. I am sorry beyond belief that I could not save them, sorry I could not do more. I want you to know that they did not die alone, I was there and I stayed with them while they left. As an apology, and because I cannot do more, I am paying anything that they would have paid, and everything you may be unable to pay, and I also created this basket of things I know you liked because you are the one they loved most in this world and I was their friend, and I want to do something more personal. If they did not tell you they were part of this, I am so sorry you found out this way.'

"Over and over and over. Sometimes my friends last years, sometimes they were young and foolish and I could not push them away fast enough. But no more. I will pack this basket, and I will make my apologies and I will stop.

"I will pack this basket for the sibling of a child, not a child I knew, but a child that was taken none the less. A sibling, not because the child didn't love their parents, but because the child had no parents because you personally decided that a person who had payed was less trustable than a bigoted pig who wasn't even present. And you decided that this child did not get parents based on colour, because not only were you looking in black and white you were looking at the wrong black and white. And so I will go to this sibling and this time I will sit and I will tell them how sorry I am that I didn't save their sibling, and I will sit and cry with them and I will offer any and all support I can, because they are thirteen and should not have lost this child so early. This child, their sibling, that they poured their love into for the whole of their life. And I will buy them anything they like, and I will make them their hot chocolate and I will sit with this teen I have no connections to.

"I will sit with the victim of your crimes, the victim of a crime wrapped in the paper of heroes and tied with the government's ribbon. And I will listen. The hot chocolate will go cold, and they will stir it and stare, at the marshmallows reminding them of their Child who Wasn't, at the stains on the table, at all the memories, and their tears will still be falling. And I will cry, silently, avoiding adding to that pain, and I will swear, with everything you can conceivably imagine, I will swear to protect this child with all my heart.

"I will fulfil the dying wish of my partner and I will save the Parent Who Was from themself. And you. You. Will. Fall.

"But it will not be by my hand, it will not be by their hand. It will be by your own actions, and the words of all, that is how you will be toppled"

The villain stood there. They cradled the child's body, they avoided their friend's face, and they cried.

Ok, I'm posting this now cause even though it's not finished I'm writing like 50 words a month and it ain't getting finished any time soon

@genesiscaveat I got one of the words in so far, but thank you for managing to get me to actually write, here ya go

And, uh, taglist thingy

@thefoxandthetypewriter @trashgivensentience

Cool, awesome, I am so awkward, baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

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So, imma make a tag list if anyone wants it

Nobody's gonna want it but oh well

This is just gonna be awkward

Yeah, tell me if you want tagged when I post stuff I write

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So, imma make a tag list if anyone wants it

Nobody's gonna want it but oh well

This is just gonna be awkward

Yeah, tell me if you want tagged when I post stuff I write

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Welcome to my writing blog

Featuring poems and short stories never before seen else where

Help

I have 700 words of villain monologue

I love it

But I hate that I can do this

Do you want part of it

It's angsty

t e l l m e e e e  i havent written angst in a while. well, i haven't rlly written anything in a while so- a n y g a y - that would be awesome to see the angsty 

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The Hug

I had been so scared

To share the news around

Knew you all liked her

Scared I had let you down

Then you offered that hug

You didn't know what it was

You sent me a lifeline

Didn't know I'd cling tight

And I'm still holding on

Barely holding on

It took me days and days

I hid in my room

What could I tell my friends

"I fell in love too soon"

Then you offered that hug

Still don't know what it was

You're telling me I'm worthy

I'll never have to worry

So I'll keep holding on

I'm just holding on

But I finally told you

What's been going on

I showed I'd been hurt

You talked all night long

Then you offered that hug

Can I show what it was

I'm sitting here just waiting

For that hug, though it's late in

Months of holding on

I'll keep holding on

You said when we next meet

It feels like three long years

Since you offered that hug

To a child sat here in tears

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@boxofsteampunkplaces here

I look at you and all I see

Through this damning screen

Is the tears I know are on your face

And the hands shaking unseen

I know that you are sitting there

Hiding from us all

I want to show you the truth

Scared you'll let go and fall

You keep repeating all these words

"don't want to worry you"

I don't know how to tell you

That really isn't true

You say it like I'm not afraid

I'm afraid why you won't say

So I need to explain our friendship

It's strong as iron, not fragile clay

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The Benefits of Hospitals

This internet is shit I say

As I fade in and out

On and off

Never really there

Unable to hold a conversation

I have no connection I say

When my friend pretends she cuts

And wants sympathy

Cause she feels bad

For lying about life or death

I'm really out of it I say

I can't choose the sides today

She is my mom friend

But they were giving advice

And I have been them

The messages are overwhelming I say

As I'm pushed away

Again and again

By little inside jokes

From group chats I'm not in

The doctors are here I say

As I'm left trodden over

Alone and broken

By those I forgive

Because I trust them over

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You're getting all but two of my blogs

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Let Go

They say let go of the pride

The anger

The fucking pain

The pride

The anger

The fucking pain

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They say let go of the sadness

The emptiness

The salt in the wound

The sadness

The emptiness

The salt in the wound

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They say move on

Move forward

Move out of the way

Move on

Move forward

Move out of the way

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They say let go of the heartbreak

The promises

The holes in my soul

The heartbreak

The promises

The holes in my soul

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But that's what makes me

What breaks me

What melds me together

What makes me

What breaks me

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The Story

They questioned why I cared

And I told them a story

A story of a child and their parents

Of pain and perseverance

I told them of sisters

And you, parent of none

Yet somehow you were

A parent of one

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I got told

I should stay away

I got told

I could never make him pay

And it was true

I hate this truth

.

They questioned why I helped

And I told them a story

A story of a child and their sister

Of survival and stares

I told them of exes

And you, ruler of all

And yet here you are

Locked out the ball

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I got told

I should stay away

I got told

I could never make him pay

And it was true

I hate this truth

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They questioned why I fought

And I told them a story

A story of a child and their exes

Of fights and freedom

I told them of you

The life not continuing on

But they are here

And its a life to prolong

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I got told

I should stay away

I got told

I could never make him pay

And it was true

I hate this truth

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yellow, daffodils, bunny

there was a boy in my class

he used to brag about his bunny

listing his pets over and over

he seemed nice

he’d meet me by the gate

as we walked to class

he picked the flowers

every day before school

i would put them in my tray

the yellow piling and piling

till it would wilt and rot

and id toss them out