autisticallyadhd

[autisticallyadhd]

question for autistic people (from a self-diagnosed autistic person)

do you find the term "autist" offensive? i saw it online a while ago and i find it funny, i've used it to refer to myself more than once, but i'm pretty sure it's origins are derogatory?? and i never see it get brought up in the "autistic person vs person with autism" debate so idrk

[autisticallyadhd]

ngl I thought the puzzle piece as an autistic symbol meant like. I am a vital puzzle piece to your society. humans would never have invented half the things they did without us. you're telling me it means I'm missing something?? buddy. listen. listen to me reeeeaal closely. no human has all the pieces to humanity. no one. no one has all the features enables no one has all the strengths weaknesses or quirks. no one has a whole puzzle. we make the freaking complete picture together. that's the freaking point.

[autisticallyadhd]

Being neurodivergent and messaging (my perspective. Please feel free to add your own in comments/reblogs)

1. Anxiety (GAD)

2. Studying what people like so I have a conversation starter

3. Not being able to start/continue conversations (hi how are you? Good, you? Good…)

4. Always starting the conversations.

5. Feeling like no one actually wants to talk to me or cares.

6. Talking about myself most of the time because there’s only so much small talk that can be done.

7. OR never talking about myself in case I’m boring/annoying and only asking the other person stuff.

8. Being ghosted (HURTS a lot, cause of RSD)

9. Or accidentally ghosting others and realising too much time has passed so now it would be embarrassing.

10. Trying hard to keep in touch and realising that the other person is uninterested.

11. Missing social cues EVEN when people aren’t there/face to face/irl.

12. Feeling like a failure

13. Realising that if you don’t message people, literally no one would message you at all.

[autisticallyadhd]

As a Neurodivergent, When I'm happy I feel the happiest I could ever feel.

When I'm sad, I feel the saddest I could ever feel.

neurodivergent_lou

[autisticallyadhd]

So one of my friends started a YouTube channel recently. And would really appreciate if people would take a look!

[autisticallyadhd]

I Need Screen Time at Night to Fall Asleep As an ADHDer

AJ’s Brain

[autisticallyadhd]

Being neurodivergent and messaging (my perspective. Please feel free to add your own in comments/reblogs)

1. Anxiety (GAD)

2. Studying what people like so I have a conversation starter

3. Not being able to start/continue conversations (hi how are you? Good, you? Good…)

4. Always starting the conversations.

5. Feeling like no one actually wants to talk to me or cares.

6. Talking about myself most of the time because there’s only so much small talk that can be done.

7. OR never talking about myself in case I’m boring/annoying and only asking the other person stuff.

8. Being ghosted (HURTS a lot, cause of RSD)

9. Or accidentally ghosting others and realising too much time has passed so now it would be embarrassing.

10. Trying hard to keep in touch and realising that the other person is uninterested.

11. Missing social cues EVEN when people aren’t there/face to face/irl.

12. Feeling like a failure

13. Realising that if you don’t message people, literally no one would message you at all.

[autisticallyadhd]

[autisticallyadhd]

For me struggling socially while autistic can often feel like this Venn Diagram:

Obviously there is more to my autism then this but sometimes this is how it feels

[autisticallyadhd]

The compulsive urge to apologise and the terrifying weight of being a burden

My anxiety is so heavy in my chest that it’s choking me

It’s like someone’s put a weight in the middle of my ribs and I can never quite reach it

[autisticallyadhd]

Anxiety is so dumb. I'll just be sitting, minding my own business, and my brain will go "sorry, you've occupied this public space too long. You must move immediately or they'll be 💥consequences💥" (nobody has any clue what these consequences are)

[autisticallyadhd]

hey google how do i uninstall my mental illnesses?

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[autisticallyadhd]

questioning ocd culture is looking up your symptoms and on the article you find it has a list of various compulsions and one is “researching.” I mock gasped out loud. Like huh? No way!

!!

[autisticallyadhd]

Questioning OCD culture is "Are my intrusive thought spirals ADHD, Anxiety or OCD?" and never getting a solid conclusion

!!

[autisticallyadhd]

moral/harm ocd culture is asking "are you sure" 100 times when someone says you're not a bad person.

[autisticallyadhd]

OCD symptom i struggle with but don't see talked about a lot: inability to trust your own memory and/or perception.

as an example: i put my headphones in my bag. i say im sure they're in my bag, but what if i imagined putting them in my bag? i have to check, so i stick my hand inside and grab them. but then i have to check *again* because what if i just so happened to have another object shaped and sized exactly like my headphones that i just forgot about? so i have to pull them out of my bag and look directly at them to fully confirm they were in my bag

this is a fairly benign example but this also happens with other worse scenarios for me and it's. not fun