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07/29/17 — 7:14 p.m.

so here is my spread for a week in july! i had blank spaces and i had no idea what to put there, so you see the oranges? yeah, that’s what i used to cover them. merp. any who enjoy this really orange spread. (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

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a quick tutorial on how i set up my one note bullet journal !! 

one note has recently released a new update so my version might look a little different, but it’s still reasonably similar so hopefully this is easy to follow (-:

obviously you can customise this as much as you like, but this is the base which i tend to follow lately. here are some of my older spreads as well:

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a quick tutorial on how i set up my one note bullet journal !! 

one note has recently released a new update so my version might look a little different, but it’s still reasonably similar so hopefully this is easy to follow (-:

obviously you can customise this as much as you like, but this is the base which i tend to follow lately. here are some of my older spreads as well:

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Unusual Asks

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

is your room messy or clean?

what color are your eyes?

do you like your name? why?

what is your relationship status? 

describe your personality in 3 words or less

what color hair do you have?

what kind of car do you drive? color?

where do you shop?

how would you describe your style?

favorite social media account

what size bed do you have? 

any siblings?

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

favorite snapchat filter? 

favorite makeup brand(s)

how many times a week do you shower?

favorite tv show?

shoe size?

how tall are you?

sandals or sneakers? 

do you go to the gym? 

describe your dream date

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

what color socks are you wearing? 

how many pillows do you sleep with?

do you have a job? what do you do? 

how many friends do you have? 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

whats your favorite candle scent? 

3 favorite boy names

3 favorite girl names

favorite actor? 

favorite actress? 

who is your celebrity crush?

favorite movie? 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

money or brains? 

do you have a nickname? what is it? 

how many times have you been to the hospital?

top 10 favorite songs

do you take any medications daily? 

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

what is your biggest fear? 

how many kids do you want? 

whats your go to hair style?

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

who is your role model? 

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent?

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

what is your dream car? 

opinion on smoking?

do you go to college? 

what is your dream job? 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

do you have freckles? 

do you smile for pictures?

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

have you ever peed in the woods? 

do you still watch cartoons? 

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Favorite dipping sauce? 

what do you wear to bed? 

have you ever won a spelling bee?

 what are your hobbies?

can you draw? 

do you play an instrument?

what was the last concert you saw? 

tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

do you want to get married?

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

what color looks best on you? 

do you miss anyone right now? 

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

do you believe in ghosts?

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

last person you called`

favorite ice cream flavor? 

regular oreos or golden oreos? 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

what shirt are you wearing? 

what is your phone background?

are you outgoing or shy?

do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you like your neighbors? 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

have you ever been high? 

have you ever been drunk? 

last thing you ate? 

favorite lyrics right now

summer or winter? 

day or night? 

dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

favorite month? 

what is your zodiac sign

 who was the last person you cried in front of? 

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It’s that dreaded time of the year again! I probably should’ve done this way earlier but here’s a masterpost to help you guys study for all the AP exams there are. The subjects are listed in order of the schedule and I combined the similar ones together. If any of the links is not working please kindly inform me. Good luck to everyone taking the AP exams!!

AP Chemistry Chemistry Resources by @study-well AP Chemistry by @etudiance The Ultimate List of AP Chemistry Tips SparkNotes Chemistry AP Chemistry Notes

AP Environmental Science AP Environmental Science by @apbymichelle The Ultimate List of AP Environmental Science Tips APES Review Sheet APES Math Tips APES Exam Tips

AP Psychology Masterpost of Psych Notes by @fuckyeapsychology AP Psychology by @studyign AP Psychology Vocab Flashcards The Ultimate List of AP Psychology Tips AP Psychology Test Tips

AP Computer Science AP Computer Science Masterpost by @theapresource AP Computer Science by @studyblu Computer Science/Engineering Masterpost by @algorhythmn The Ultimate List of AP Computer Science Tips Be Prepared for the AP Computer Science Exam

AP Spanish AP Spanish Resources by @intellectus AP Spanish Language & Culture by @howtopolyglot AP Spanish Tips by @rocketeercody The Ultimate List of AP Spanish Tips Ultimate Guide to the AP Spanish Literature and Culture Exam

AP Art History @aparthistoryreview-blog AP Art History Tips by @cavetocanvas How to Study for AP Art History Writing Tips and Strategies Khan Academy AP Art History

AP Physics How to Study for AP Physics by @365text AP Physics Tips by @sootudying Tips and Strategies for the AP Physics I Exam The Ultimate List of AP Physics 1 & 2 Tips How to Study for AP Physics C: Mechanics

AP English Essays Basics for AP English Lang & Lit by @novanovelist AP English Rhetorical Analysis Strong & Weak Verbs by @gryfhindor AP Literature Analysis, Terms, and Tips by @ap-madness   The Ultimate List of AP English Language Tips AP English Language and Composition

AP Japanese @japanese-tips-and-lessons Japanese Resources by @somestudy Japanese Masterpost by @elkstudies Japanese Resources by @mujistudies Guide to AP Japanese Language

AP US Government AP US Government and Politics Review Masterpost by @scholasticwhimsy AP US Gov Advice & Resources by @intellectus The Ultimate List of AP US Government Tips AP US Government Concepts The Ultimate Student’s Guide to AP US Government

AP Chinese Mandarin Chinese Resource Masterpost by @floernce Tips on Learning Chinese by @tiantianxuexi Mandarin Resources by @languageoclock Guide to the AP Chinese Exam AP Chinese Language and Culture Course and Exam

AP Seminar AP Capstone by @pixelated-dong How to Craft a Strong Research Question AP Seminar Presentation Tips AP Seminar Last Minute Tips AP Seminar Links

AP Studio Art How to Survive AP Studio Art by @shadowtravel Samples of AP Studio Art Successful Concentration Ideas AP Studio Art Tips from a Student Who Got a Six Ultimate Guide to the AP Studio Arts Portfolio

AP German German Resources by @athenastudying Learning: German by @languageramblings How to Study for AP German Langauge AP German Flashcards How to Score a Five on the AP German Exam

AP US History @apushresources AP US History Masterpost by @theapresource APUSH DBQ Tips by @abelstudies AP History Multiple Choice Strategy The Ultimate List of AP US History Tips

AP Biology AP Bio Masterpost by @studnt Biology Resources by @study-well Biology Resources The Ultimate List of AP Biology Tips AP Biology Free Response Writing Tips

AP Music Theory AP Music Theory Exam Strategies AP Music Theory CourseNotes AP Music Theory Online Resources AP Music Theory Flashcards AP Music Theory Resources

AP Calculus Study Tips for Calculus by @studyforyourself Remember for the AB Calc FRQs by @octanakin How to Study Calculus The Ultimate List of AP Calculus Tips Study Guide for Calculus AB

AP French French Verb Masterpost by @studypuddles French Masterpost by @areistotle A French Masterpost by @organisaticns The Ultimate List of AP French Language Tips AP French Study Tips

AP Italian Italian Masterpost by @studybowie Italian Essay Transition Words & Phrases by @langsandlit Italian Masterpost by @shelbys-advice-blog Italian Resources Masterpost by @graphis AP Italian Flashcards

AP Macro + Microeconomics AP Economics by @apbymichelle Macroeconomics Cram Packet Microeconomics Exam Study Guide The Ultimate List of AP Macroeconomics Tips The Ultimate List of AP Microeconomics Tips

AP Comparative Government and Politics The Ultimate List of AP Comparative Government Tips AP Comparative Government Exam Strategies Review for the AP Comparative Exam AP Comparative Government Flashcards AP Comparative Wikispaces

AP World History AP World History by @studyign AP World History Review by @scholasticwhimsy AP World History Essay Tips by @ohbrilliant-notes AP World History Cram Packets and Review Sheets The Ultimate List of AP World History Tips

AP Statistics AP Statistics Tips  by @sootudying AP Statistics by @apbymichelle AP Statistics Cram Packet AP Statistics CourseNotes The Ultimate List of AP Statistics Tips

AP Human Geography AP Human Geography Notes by @ohbrilliant-notes AP Human Geography Masterpost by @academla The Ultimate List of AP Human Geography Tips AP Human Geography CourseNotes The Complete Guide to AP Human Geography FRQs

AP European History AP European History Masterpost by @theapresource AP European History Resources by @fuckyeahapeuro AP European History Masterpost by @easyeuro The Ultimate List of AP European History Tips AP European History Essay Writing Guide

AP Latin Learning Latin by @learnal Latin Resources by @wonderful-language-sounds Learning Latin by @studyplants   How to Study Latin AP Latin Flashcards

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31/100 days of productivity - idk i just love my study space!

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It’s already middle of April and I’m soooo not organize. All the works are piling up and due date almost choking me out. I really hope that I go through this semester. 

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14 november 2015 // cozy and organized saturday morning studies, preparing for big project work so it’ll all go smoothly. love the lightning in the morning so I made sure to wake up early since I don’t get to study like this throughout the week when I’m at college. 

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April 3, 2017 - so I haven’t really uploaded and am so sorry but I wanted to show you guys my April monthly layout and cover page in my bullet journal. I got inspiration for my cover page from a Pinterest post (sorry I couldn’t find the owner :/ ) but I’m really happy with how it turned out! I have so many exams coming up and it’s been very stressful but I’m slowly moving along.

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3 things you DON’T HAVE TO KNOW about me.

➸  IF I MAKE A PROMISE TO YOU, IT’S ACTUALLY A LIE  ➸

I hate making promises because I know I will not going to fulfill it. So most of the time you'll hear me say "I'll think about it" or “probably, I don’t know” and basically if you said "Let's hang out" and if I said YES! actually 90% of it, is a LIE. I hate hanging out, like really hate it. What's the point of hanging out? If I made an appointment, I pray that the people cancel it. I pray hard for that and s if they don't do that then I'll do it. So you will get a text message from me like, "I'm so sorry, sometime came up, I can't go" or "My dad won't let me out, sorry"  Yes! BEAR WITH ME PEOPLE

➸  IF I HATE YOU NOW THEN I WILL LIKE YOU LATER, IF I LIKE YOU NOW, EVENTUALLY I’LL HATE YOU LATER.  ➸

I found it weird as well, it's a kamaryy thingy which I have no idea why it happens to me but it happens. Most of the time I'm not very lucky in making friends and I always have this distorted perception of people the first time I met them. This thing happens if you did something bad to me and I was like.. DUDE!! WHY?? AND I HATE THEM. But then later that I know I cling to them so slowly I started to see them in a new perspective and eventually I will like them. Not just like them.. like really like them. 

What makes it more weird is that if I like people and she's kind of be good to me eventually or sooner or later... I'll hate them. Maybe because they cling to me very often since I like them and they like me but it's mendoi. Here's a quick tips if you want to be friends with me don't text, call or meet me everyday! even my mom didn't do that. But you can do that sometimes, sometimes is amazing, I would love to hang out or talk to you but once in a while, I'm not a very sociable person. I'll get tired easily from socializing. Like seriously  I have no idea how you can go out from dawn to dusk and socialize. It's unfathomable for me. 

➸  I HAVE FINGER FETISH  ➸

Okay, this is like the weirdest or the weirdest and I don't think I should say this, but I have finger fetish. My best friend knows about this and I have no idea why I told him that. He’s the only person who knows I have this fetish. I like fingers but I'm not into every types of fingers, there's only certain types that I like which are japanese and chinese well mostly chinese fingers. I’ve always stare at chinese fingers. When I'm riding a metro and if there's chinese in front of me or near me I was like keeping an eye on his fingers the entire time. (super saiyan stalker detected!) I know it's weird and it's really is because it just so weird. Up to the point where my bf met a stranger who is chinese and he will texted me said there's a killing hot chinese in front of me. Automatically I would sent back to him "take a picture of his fingers!" I don't care about his looks, all I care about is his fingers. It's weird, and I'm very thankful that my bf didn't said much about that he was like, that's cool you like fingers huh! well you're weird anyway so it doesn't change anything.

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I TALKED TO  A JAPANESE GUY TODAY!! OMG!

Have it ever occurred to you that you get to do something you’ve always wanted. Everyday you’re back from class eating your lunch and watching videos on youtube and you was like. “If only I get the chance to do that”, “It would be awesome”. Well it happens to me, in some ways I was given chance to do so, like the opportunity was in front my eyes but I somehow scared to do so and when I went back it feels like a total loser. 

It happens today, I went back from class and really hungry because I couldn’t eat my lunch on time so while I was eating I opened up youtube and watch Joey and then Rachel and Jun and basically all of their videos are about Japan. Recently I’m really into Japan like really into it. I’m not talking about anime, I’m more into it’s language (That’s why I’m watching Joey’s Japan 101), it’s people, how beautiful the country is... and Rachel and Jun basically talks about all sorts of things about Japan.. I also have one friend who just traveled to Japan and she said that it was a very nice place to live. Well.. obviously.  

Later that evening, my friends asked me if we could go out for dinner together and I was like... uhmmmm maybe not today, but they insisted they have something that they wanted to talk to me so I was like .. okay then. When we’re on our way, my friend said that there are few japanese hanging out near her car, and I was like, how come there’s japanese people here and she said you know exchange student and stuff.... and I was like ! I HAVE TO FLIRT THEM WHILE THE’;RE HERE! I LITERALLY SAID THAT. 

After we’re back, my friend said that why not we hang out there. It was like a communal space where most of the students would hang out there basically for free wifi and that communal space is like in front of their rooms (japanese exchange student’s room). There’re a few japanese hang out there like 3 to 4 people. So me and my friends we literally sit there for like 30 minutes just stare at them, Well I’m the one who stare at them and then there’s one japanese guy walked in front of us and said “good night” and I said “oyasumi”  and he said “oyasuminasai”. I’m so sorry for being rude to you random japanese stranger. BUT NICE TALKING TO YOU ANYWAY! MY SEROTONIN LEVEL HAS SPIKED! After that I was so determine to talk to them but I was so shy, and none of them makes the first move and even I didn’t make one T^T . I was so sad.. my friend was like if you didn’t want to talk to them then LET’S GO! It was so saddddddd that I didn’t even get the chance to ! I am really disappointed with myself. Like seriously the feeling is like I have been dumped by someone I didn’t even know. 

Well they’re will not be here for long, They’ll be back like this weekend if only I knew it sooner then I guess I’ll try to flirt them everyday until I get one. or maybe someday with different Japanese guy. Let’s just hope so for that to happen. Basically I don’t have any problem speaking english with strangers at the airport but Japanese is a different level of language but yeahh... I really hope one day I could speak fluently in Japanese or maybe marry one. Well who knows, pray for me!. Well as always stay evergreen. 

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Let’s talk about anime studios and NORAGAMI SEASON 3 !!!

Basically you guys know what anime studios are all about,.. they produced animes and that’s it. But ! they work in a very weird way. and Why is that? Well, here is why, on a very beautiful day the found a pretty good manga they decided to adapt it into anime. They gather their teams and make a very good one, aired it on television, and they crowd went crazy about the anime, we watched till the end of the season and we all make this one statement.. “ahhhhh, I wish there’s another season for this anime” the seconds you said that mantra the anime studios somehow decided not to continue the anime and that’s the end of it. Well basically, this thing happens to most of the animes. There are several reasons contributing to this like, piracy and stuff also the international fans are more psyched than the nihonjin itself and then basically anime didn’t make much profits well another factor is the anime catches up manga really quick so they decided for a hiatus or a total break. 

Because of that, we do a raincheck and come back to reality either some of us continue reading the manga till the end, or we just forget about it. But then, a few years later, the decided to continue the anime. Well this is both $^#! and thumbs up for you. This is what happen to Durarara!!. This anime was released in 2010 and then it kind of just stopped there. All of the fans was like,.. “Ahhh , this is a good one, hope for another season” and... nothing. We didn’t hear anything about Durarara!! for like years. and this is where the anime studio works it’s madness. 4 years later they decided to continue Durarara!! 

Well yeahh.. and why is this madness? they didn’t just produced the secundo season but they finished the whole series so we have Durarara!! x2 Shou, Durarara!! x2 Ketsu and Durarara!! x2 Ten. Yesss!! I have no idea why but I’m not going to complain, okay?  Same thing happens to Gintama, they did a hiatus for 4 years too then the opening of season 4 is THE BEST ! But the thing about Gintama is... we always think this anime wouldn’t have another season because of it’s bad jokes and there’s no plot to this anime also the low budget and they talk about it everytime in the anime. But in the end it did survive for like 7 to 8 years which is SPLENDID and I watched every episodes of it, it’s the only anime with hundreds of episodes that I watch. 

The non madness about anime studio is BONES already confirmed that Noragami will have a another season but the released date is nowhere to be found. Just be patient about it,. But one thing for sure we know that season 3 will be about Ebisu and Yato’s father. I’ve read the manga and it’s really amazing, a lot of twist happening, a lot of betrayal and unbetrayal. I hope BONES didn’t ruin it, PLEASE MAKE IS AS AWESOME AS THE MANGA! ...and until then I’m out !

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Goodbye SafePLACE

I wanted to write something because I’m going back tomorrow which means it’s the end of HOLAAYYYYDAYYYYYHHH, and it hurts me so much to leave my sanctuary where this is the only place I felt safe, I could sleep and ... do other stuff. The thing that disturb me the most is that whether I could sleep if I go back because here I know my mom is downstairs and my dad’s room is right besides me it feels safe in a way. 

Anyway, I’m commemorating my so called holiday with a few movies, I think I watched 3 movies all together which were Moana, Dr Strange and Assassin’s Creed. I know for some people like whattt... those are outdated, you should have watch it like centuries ago. Well I’m waiting for it’s BLUray and WEB-DL so I can watch it in high definition, what’s your excuse? anyway.... 

I love the soundtrack from Moana, and I like the CG from Dr Strange, since I’m a reductionist so I’m very particular about small details and I love if the movies emphasizes about the scenery and the details that people tend to forget and some of it can be found in Assassin’s Creed. But,. I can’t say that I enjoyed it,.. sitting and watching for 115 minutes was not the same as playing for 31 hours , it just not how you enjoy Assassin’s Creed. Still, good job for producing that piece of watever it is... 

So, pray for me, my trip, my sleep. I hope it gets better in a way it should. Oh yeahh... It’s pi day today, It’s not in my calendar but I wish all the nerds Happy pi Day! and treat yourself some pies. 

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You don’t need a lot of friends, “ONE IS ENOUGH”.

The past two days I’ve been not so productive and since I can’t sleep at night so I dug up my storage to see what’s in store and I found one anime that’s pretty much in there for quite a long time and I haven’t got the time to watch it. So I watched it yesterday and it’s really good, I know that it got high ratings on myanimelist and also the nets pretty much talks about it a lot. But I don’t really trust ratings until I watch it myself. That anime is NORAGAMI or STRAY GOD. (I translate it myself, be proud of me for a second)

What makes Noragami caught my attention? Well it did make a strong impression on their first episode so I have that feeling wanted to see more of it and kept on watching it until the end of season 1. But it doesn’t stop there because I watched the second season the next day. Also it has a similar vibe to Gintama but.... this anime has a clear plot so it’s not going to be like Gintama. The protagonist, Yato or Yaboku reminds me of Gintoki but the only different is that Gintoki was raised by a demon who taught the goods and bads but Yato on the other hand was created to be the god of calamity and eventually he’s trying to change for the better but still stuck in his past. Gintoki is different he has no clear goal of his future, just live the moment and pretty much didn’t really care about his dark past. 

Above all, this two has it’s own charm and it does produce a very good quotes. Some of the quotes from Gintama does makes me cry and laugh but one quotes from Noragami hit me real hard to my deepest off shore heart. That quote is.... 

I couldn’t agree more,. Friends is the least topic that I’m interested with. I’m always afraid of be friends with someone or make friends or talk about it. When you befriended with someone it feels like you’re committed  to it. When I love something or someone I love it with all my heart and if I gave my full commitment to something I’ll do it without any conditions. But this is what frightens me because not everyone feels the same way, there will always be betrayal and so on. I’ve gone through it for so many times until I somehow lost my trust towards people who wanted to be friends with me.

I used to have one bestfriend and it was okay, it was amazing until one day I hurt her. I’m completely aware that it was my fault and it’s actually because of my jealousy, we fought, she’s actually a bit lost not knowing exactly what happen. She didn’t came to school, I think I called her and she didn’t want to talk to me, I asked her sister what happens to her and she said that her sister was crying everyday like every single day. I decided to visit her with my friends and she did came to us and say hello but the she left and I saw her crying on her bed. I still remember the scene, the smell, the guilt... and I bear it everyday. 

After that fight, our relationship hasn’t been the same, I asked for apology I texted her and went to her house just to beg for forgiveness. I remember I wrote her a letter but I never sent it to her but instead I wrote it in my essay. A year after that big fight I found that letter and I sent to it her. She cried hard while reading it and she asked, “Why Gee? Why ?”. It doesn't matter how many time I apologize that scar still remains. I don’t know about her but it does hurt and torment my everyday I went to class or a new place that requires me to socalize and make friends. 

People have this perception that I’m snob, doesn’t social much, live in a cave. I’m not like that before, I love to make friends before, I’m very competitive, I love to talk to all my friends in class, a big talker I have to say but it all changed in a very short time. Honestly, I can’t change that, there will always be someone who held their hands towards me, someone who said “hi” despite how snob I look someone who want to be friends with me but I can’t do that. I really can’t. I’m always scared of that, it’s not because I’m afraid of you but I’m scared of myself,. sooner or later I will hurt you with my actions or my words. So I’m sorry. 

I never wanted to have a lot of friends but enough one that can see through me, that can say “it’s okay, you have me” that can still held out her hands towards me no matter how much I push it away that can hug me and lend her shoulders and the most important thing is she didn’t waste my love for nothing. 

*I have that before, but I’m the one who waste it. I’m sorry*  

Well there you have it, how anime could actually hit your deepest wound that you kept it in a box and seal it with chains and threw it in the depth of tartarus but it still managed to find it’s way back. But I really hope that I could actually go through this and change for the better, people do forgive me but I just can’t forgive myself. 

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Banff National Park by Stevin Tuchiwsky

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Photographer Akhil Suhas Travels 6 Months Across New Zealand With Gandalf Costume & His Photographs Are Amazing

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DO NOT READ IF YOU’RE UNMOTIVATED !!!

I think, I just think, just a tiny bit of thinking about 2017 is not my year. It’s not because of I’m starting this year with one sad moment-unrequited-love-confession. Also, a few other things that happen which kind of sucks BUT I never let it gets me.... until last night.

It happens around 8 pm something I was in my class, it was an art class and we were talking about all sort of things. After that, the instructor analyze our potential like which medium are we good at and when it comes to my turn he said that I can only do acrylic painting. I CAN ONLY DO ACRYLIC PAINTING. That’s what he said, and he said that my friend who just finished ONE painting the last semester can do BOTH. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS ACRYLIC AND I DON’T EVEN LIKE IT AND YOU CAN’T JUDGE ME WHEN MY PAINTINGS BEFORE WERE DONE BY MY TEAM ALSO! YOU JUST CAN’T. I’M HURT ! Since I didn’t really want to argue with him I just said that “yeahhh,, I think so too since I like to paint with bright colors”.... and THAT’S THE MOST HYPOCRITE SENTENCE I’VE EVER MADE IN MY LIFE. 

I really love watercolor, and really like soft colors, I really like to draw something that is there but it wasn’t really there. I like how my paintings have this overlay or soft light effects, I don’t really like strong and bright colors. I know it’s a bit different from my digital artworks because most of them really have strong colors and impression but when I’m drawing it myself especially watercolor I like it to be very soft and calm. 

Back to that situation, well yeahh it hurts me. I know my technique flawed but that is because this is something new, and judging from how long does I leave drawing you can’t compared me with those people who draw everyday. The way I look at my paintings they’ve improved everytime I did a new one. When things like this happen it makes me lose faith a bit. It just that you have the feelings that you love doing that thing and you feel satisfied everytime you did it but and then some one said that you’re not very good at it.... you just not... 

It made me realize that there’s no true passion, people said that if you like it you’ll mostly good at it, it just not and this is the prime example of it. People said that I’m very good at this and I’m very good at that but actually I’m not. I’m just a kid who’s ahead of her time and now she kind of stuck it that fantasy which means she never really grow up. She just a 10 years old kids who’s good at painting but not anymore. 

I think I want to withdraw myself from that class, well it’s not because I’m offended (maybe a bit) but I think I already went astray from the real reason I took that class. Maybe it’s for the better this way.

#stayevergreen 

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