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avonmora · 5 years ago

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Dream

My heart was beating erraticly. My bare feet beating against the ground as I ran for him. Him. It all came flooding back. Every memory. Every moment. Every nerve-ending feeling I got when he looked at me. Everything that seemed impossible and unreal were possible and real. The sound of my feet hitting the ground and my uneven breathing filled my ears. I had not even realized my adrenaline had kicked in and nothing could stop me. Because I had to beg him to stay. He couldn’t leave, again. He just couldn’t. The shrubs and bushes scraped my legs as I ran through them into the woods, tearing my already torn skirt.

I came to a complete halt on the trail before me, and let my frantic eyes scan every direction that the woods would let me. My beating heart was loud in my ears. He couldn’t have possibly left without telling me. Without seeing me. He wouldn’t do that to me.

As I visually scanned the grown up shrubs and trees, outlining the trail, I saw the titanium red, silver, and blue shield shimmering through them. There, hiding behind the thicken and grown shrubs and trees, was him.

My heart sank. He was still here. I made it in enough time.

“Jake!” I yelled as I ran towards him. In that moment, He stepped out of the shrubs with a heavy look of sorrow and heartbreak written on his face.

I flew my arms around him, holding him with all of my might, and began crying into the crease of his neck and chest. “Please don’t leave! Don’t leave me!”

He wrapped his arms tightly around me as we crashed on our buckling knees to the ground. I sobbed into him soaking his neck in tears. “Please!” I begged in agony. My heart was shredding into pieces every second as I grappled for a response from him.

Nothing. “Don’t go! Please don’t leave me!” My arms wouldn’t break hold from around him as he gently, but firmly, pushed enough space between us to bring his arms above my head and around my entire body once more, holding me tightly like he never wanted to let go.

I couldn’t think of any other words. I couldn’t feel any other emotions except for pain and agony. I couldn’t look at him.

And then, in a split second, before I could even open my eyes, he was gone. Sitting on the ground, I looked up for him, but he was no where to be seen.

Bringing my hands up to wipe the tears from my face, they grazed this leather necklace cord. I didn’t wear necklaces. And I never felt him put it on. Of course I didn’t. But I knew it was his. Hanging on the necklace was his black tungsten ring. As I manipulated the ring with my fingers, I became calm. The panic attack and tears had stopped. My heart was tamed. I knew how much meaning the ring held. I knew the unbreakablw promise. It was in that meaning and promise that got me up off my knees and on my feet. I grasped the ring in my hand and began walking back to the camp, feeling emotionless and content all in one.

Because in the end, we both knew he had to leave and why he had to leave. The greater good of mankind depended on it.

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