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i hate that it dosent matter how huch i heal ill never get to be a completely functional human being, there will always be this inherently broken part of me

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im tired of being disgusting and fat, last year at this time i was roughly 45kg now i dont even have the courage to weigh my self im nearly the 80kgs zone if im not there im disgusting i need to stop binging

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I hate hate HATE what the internet has done to mental health language. You don’t have intrusive thoughts about fucking McDonald’s for four hours Bethany, they’re about incest, rape, murder and all other kinds of disgusting things you don’t want. That’s why they’re called INTRUSIVE. They’re rapid and scary and horrible. You’re not “triggered” cause a moron on tiktok said something you don’t like, it’s when your PTSD recognised something that could be dangerous to you that’s similar to a traumatic event and shuts down to try and help you. It’s panic inducing and the worst feeling. Disassociation isn’t “zoning out.” For a bit in class, it’s walking around like an emotionless zombie because you can’t feel anything as a symptom of severe mental illness or trauma. Shut the fuck up!!!

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i dont have one

Isn’t home supposed to feel safe ??

I guess this isn’t my home ….. where is my home??

Where is my home ?

Where is my home ?

Where is my home ?

where is my home ? ..NOWHERE

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Lizzy Grant AKA Lana Rey Del Mar AKA Sparkle Jump Rope Queen AKA May Jailer AKA Lana Del Rey

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today*

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going to a model cast and seeing all those girls thinner than me, just like i used to be 6 months ago is the MOST TRIGGERING SHIT EVER

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dont mind me i'm just relapsing

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I know I’m at my breaking point when I’m saying “please just stop”

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reblog if ur a disgusting piece of shit

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so true

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Reblog to put one of these in your mutuals’ pocket when they’re not looking

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thinking bout changing my layout

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im back biches