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Hi. Baek Kitten. Do you remember how we met?

17.09.12

I saw you in the playground, wandering alone, 엄마 아빠-less.

As a man with the kindest heart on earth, I took you home with me.

I fed you, I took the best care of you, gave you the best service.

But how did you repay me back my kindness when you're all grown up? You burnt my house.

JK HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Happy 1st anniversary, baby. Here's my present for youㅡ

Just kidding 2.0. You're not 20 yet, I can't show that to you. :p

This is just an opening hahahaha Scroll down juseyo.

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기억나? 우리 처음 만났을 때 기억나?

2017년 09월 12일

한 소녀가 나에게 메세지를 보냈다. 하루 하루, 모르는 채, 나는 그녀에게 빠졌어.

그녀는.. 바로 너야.

근대 나 어떻게 너한테 빠졌어? 그리고 언제부터?

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❝너와 함께 시간는 넘나 재밌었어.❞

The way you replied to me was so unpredictable. Like, there are time when you called me freak and time when you play along. That was what made me want to be with you more and more and eventually got attached. But here's a confession ㅎㅎㅎ Actually, I never thought of dating anyone again at the time. I just wanted to have Jieqiong as my very last girlfriend here for some reasons. Also, during those days, I really enjoyed flirting around with my brothers, I didn't think of getting into any relationship again. BUT, when I spent my days with you, we just, like automatically, became a couple. I may have called other girls my girlfriends and wives too but you're the only one who I want to go further with because there was always something new with you and you always got me curious about your response to my messages. You made me feel like I will never get bored talking with you and want to be with you more. Every second with you was just so enjoyable. And, you made me flutter.. here's another confession. I actually thought you liked me right on the first day we talked because you kept sending me more and more messages and asked if I was busy when I gave late replies. I felt like you really wanted to talk to me ㅎㅎ so I felt fluttering whenever I talked to you. Without knowing, I became the one who started to like you first. Just recently, I realized I was being imaginative all by myself when you told you didn't like me at all at first. Yet, that does not matter at all, I'm glad that I won you from the other Baejins that you liked.

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❝Is Heejin eonnie your girlfriend?❞ㅡ when our 썸 relationship came to an end.

As I have already told you, I thought we were already an official couple. I only realized I was the only one who thought that when you asked me that question. I was like '뭔데? Was I in the relationship all alone then?'. That was when I knew I should make it all clear to you and ask you out. I did not think much back then. I only knew I chose you because it was fun to be with you and I got a feeling that there'd be a lot of things I could do with you. You got that one thing that I can't find in other girls. Anyway, I just want to say thank you for choosing me out of all guys around you again.

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❝사랑한데이❞ was supposed to make you flutter but you felt bothered by it instead. You told me you were in class when I sent you that. And that you were doubting my words. Another confession: I really meant it when I said that. 사랑한데이 언제나. Will you believe me if I say I had a feeling for you since the first day? If you don't, you're really having no idea how attractive you are.

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❝우린 서로를 선택했고 나노 단위로 집중해❞

I like how you act different with different ports. Regardless of how distinguishable your characters are, I still love all of those equally. You're the most innocent as Baek Jiheon. The rudest when you are Son Hyeju. Sweetest and the most expressive when you are Wang Yireon. Comparing your Baek Jiheon's character from last year to today, you've changed a lot. You used be really babyish. You barely showed me your feeling and it seemed like you really enjoyed making me jealous when you kept on talking about other guys. You seemed like a total player to me. But, I still liked you because I was one too. ㅎㅎ And, you were young! You did not know how to reply to me when I said something, cringy or sweet, you describe it. I did not expect that we could come this far either. Because you didn't seem to be someone serious about this and I was not sure about myself either. I just wanted to give it a try. I never knew I could get this attached to you. The longer I stay with you, the greedier I got for you. Hm.. One word to describe you? "addictive". I really enjoyed bickering with you. I'm sorry, I can't act like my age. You know it's not fun and you might not have fallen for me if I did't always try to pick up fights with you.

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❝좋았던 날들과 슬펐던 날들 힘들었던 날들과 행복했던 날들❞

Do you wanna know what was I thinking during the month we've broken up? Nothing was special at all on those days. There were nothing for me to wait for. Nothing excited I could expect at night. Everyday, I used to wait for the night time to come faster so I could talk to you. But, after we've broken up, there were nothing to wait for. It just felt so empty without you. I told you I was doing fine, right? No, I was not. To be honest, I kept thinking and worrying about you a lot. Like, could you be crying alone somewhere? but you were really strong, I knew you wouldn't cry over me... Wanna hear another confession? Lee Luda was right. I was always around you. I actually borrowed my friend's account to check on you. And, based on your posts, it seemed like you were doing really fine without me during those days so I was quite relieved. I also keep asking Seonho on how you have been doing and his answer was like what I expected. I started to feel better since then and I only thought about the good times we've shared together. You should know that even the memories that have you within could make me smile.

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❝나를 설레게 한 너의 그 하얀 손이 또 내게 잡일까?❞

Do you know how scared I was to go back to you? I was anxious that you'd hate me and won't talk to me again. Or, even if you accepted me back, I was afraid that I might hurt you again. But, talking with you really gave me comforts.. so I decided to be selfish and tried to take you back.

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❝내가 더 노력해볼게. 내가 더 잘해볼게. 내게 건엔 희망 절대로 잊지 않을게.❞

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❝난 우리의 빛나는 기억들을 간직할게요. 그럼 넌. 우리의 모든 걸. 처음 만났던 순간들을 잊지 마요.❞

Although the first days might not be the best memories for you but those were the most thrilling and exciting days for me. .. doesn't mean I'm any less excited to talking with you now. It's just that I feel more comfortable being with you now. Also, I really love how you're keeping the screenshots of my messages. It seems like you really treasure us a lot. So, I feel really appreciated to see those from you. Thank you for never forgetting about us.

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❝예쁜 말 모두 모아서 따다 주고 싶어❞

^Me doing researches ㅎㅎㅎ To be honest, I've never found myself using my brain in the past relationship. But, with you, I used a lot.

Since the day 1 until now, there is one thing that I always want to give you every day. I want to do and say a lot of sweet words to you, although they might seem like a lie from someone like me. Even though they are cringy, that is just how relationship works. 핳핳핳 Anyway, do you know that every single lyrics of Wanna One's song (except Never) describes my feeling for you? Even after 2 or 3 three years, I will always think of you when our songs are playing. So, please listen to them and pay a lot of attention to the lyrics. #50%_confessing_50%_promoting_our_music

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❝다른 일이 생길 거야 그래서 하지마❞ ㅡ 너

Let's talk about my favourite moment of you. Remember when I first kissed your neck? hahahahaha I know your cheeks are burning so I'll stop here. Anyway, I love the feminine side of you the most, I could see that side from you when you are Wang Yireon. Each day, you opened up with me more and more and I discovered that soft and shy side of you. Actually, I never knew you would cry for me. I'm not saying I like it when you cry but I'm really thankful that you know how to express yourself to me. If you didn't, I wouldn't know how to take a better care of you, I would've always thought you'd always be fine.

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❝하루 하루 너무 소중하고 행복한 걸ㅡ 다 너라서.❞

During these previous 13 months, there were always something coming in between us. Yet, we were still able to overcome those and came this far. It all thanks to you. For trusting me. For trying to be an understanding and more matured girlfriend. Do you know how cute you are when you try to act older than your age? Anyway, I'm proud that we haven't fought, not even once if I'm not wrong, this month! I knew you've got upset a few times but you tried not to hahahaha That was pretty cool of you. I'm sorry I acted like I didn't know it.

Also,... you don't mind hearing another confession, right? hmmmm actually actually actually I always stalked your posts because I am curious on what're on your mind, what are you going through, what are you currently doing, and!! how many guys you are playing with! Anyway, I'm thankful that you are posting a lot about what's going on on your days. I got to know more about you because of that... However, I was not supposed to tell you this though... since I did not want you to feel pressured hahahaha BUT YES I ALWAYS STALKED YOU! EVEN YOUR POSTS OR COMMENTS ON PH GROUPS.

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❝ 벚꽃이 지면 우리 사랑은

여름처럼 뜨거워질 수 있나요?

우리의 시작이 조금 따뜻했다면

이젠 좀 더 뜨겁게

서로를 안아줘요. ❞

I'm wondering if I have behaved better back then, would you be loving me more by now or would I have become one of the brother-zoned victims. Still, I'm grateful that you chose to deal with me and didn't walk away regardless of my arrogant attitude.. Actually, I had no idea I was that bad to you until you said it. I only behaved like that because that's just my way of being friendly but I realized I've screwed up the whole thing when you said you didn't like me during the first days.. I just really really wished that our days and your first impression of me were better back then. It might not seem to matter but I really cherish the times we spent together a lot, especially our first meet, and I want every single second between us to always be the most precious and unforgettable times. If I knew you'd ever become this special to me, I would have treated you like a princess since that day. I wanna leave some best impression to you but it is impossible to rewind back the time so what I can do for now is to do my best to express more of myself to you. Starting from today, I'll answer all of your questions, even if it's about my exes. I promise I'll be more open with you. I won't save any words for our monthsaries or anniversary anymore. I'll treasure every single day with you and express myself to you until you become the person who's the closest to me.

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Lastly, I would like to conclude my experience on dating Baek Jena for 365 days. To be honest, I really used my head a lot; as much as I used my heart when I am dating her. I tried to think of something that's not too boring to say. Because I am dating a kid, I want to keep her entertained when she's with me so she won't get bored with me too easily... She deserves someone greater than me but I know I need to do my best for her when I have her for myself now just so I won't regret again. I want to do everything with her just so when she's dating her new boyfriend in the future, whatever they'll do together, she will always think of me... But, now, it seems like I'm the one who got under that curse instead... whatever I see, whoever I am talking with, that girl always appears on my mind. Baek Jiheon. If you are reading this. 축하해. You got Kang family's one and only son whipped for you.

For now, this is random but

let me do an acrostic poem for ❝언제나 사랑해❞. HAHAHAHAHAHA

언ㅡ 언제나 너와,

제ㅡ 제나야,

나ㅡ 나 이대로 변하지 않는 마음 하나만으로 너를

사ㅡ 사

랑ㅡ 랑할 거라 약속해

해ㅡ 헤어지지마 절대

❝기억할게 너의 이름을 시간 지나 어른이 되어도

너 하나만을 지켜줄게❞

Even if something will happen to us, even though we might not be able to be together today next year, I will never forget you,.. Jena! Hahahahaha I will always remember your name although I rarely called you by that. I love you a lot. Nobody knows how long will we be able to stay together but since I still got a chance, I'll ask you this. Would you marry me? ;) jk. Happy 1st anniversary, baby. I love you so much, seriously, more than you're thinking I do. Thank you for coming to me in the first place, always being by my side, waiting for me. You are the best, the most precious girl to me. I wouldn't be this happy if I'm not with you right now. Thanks. Sincerely. For making my life here more special.

Remember the first ever thread you've made for me? You asked me to reply to all of those and now it's your turn. ㅎㅎ You need to reply to all of my posts above.

Once again, would you marry me, Baek Jena hahahahahaha

I promise I'll feed you ramen everyday until you become 100% MSG. cr. 영준 대표님.

암튼! 선물! 👇 락스크린

근데 왜 Ivy with you?

Because it always reminds me of our first days together. And, I pretty much can relate to the lyrics since it describes how I view Baek Jiheon from day 1 until now. Also, thanks to Ivy that brings us together, I could match our photos easier hahahahaha.

Yet.. It's such a shame that we couldn't spend our time together tomorrow. I'm really really sorry for that. To take the responsibility, I am making you an extra playlist to remind you how much I truly love you:

프레리리스트

This is not a random playlist like usual. There's a hidden message in it, baby. So, look for it carefully. 사랑해. 고마워. 미안해.