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a haunted aura only the eldest sister can carry

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The best advice i can give any creator is do it before you're good at it, do it BEFORE you're happy, do it while you suck, do it while you're doubting yourself and get stuck the fuck in, because waiting around to be "good enough" is a motherfucking trap of the highest degree. You'll get good along the way and better after ever project is complete. Remember, this is the greatest thing you've ever created, and then you'll do something else. You're only ever gonna get better, but not if you stand still.

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Our old house had wood paneled walls

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— Frank Bidart, from “Half-light: Collected Poems 1965-2016; ‘The Third Hour of the Night’", published c. 2017.

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[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame

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the way they did not play around with these posters

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"Stuck in the timeloop as a punishment" is cool and all, but stuck in the timeloop voluntarily though? Oh, brother. Stuck in the timeloop cause you just can't move on. Stuck in the timeloop even if you know that it's not real and whatever should've happen already did. Stuck in the timeloop even if doesn't makes you happy. You just can't bear the thought of not being able to see them ever again. Stuck in the timeloop even if you know you should move on. Stuck in the timeloop even if you know they would want you to move on.

But maybe just a little while longer.

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this obliterated me

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Jean Rhys, Smile Please: An Unfinished Autobiography

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Jennifer Chang, from "Dialogues (Against Literature)"

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Dropping this here for anyone who may not already know about it. paywallreader.com

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my instagram explore page loves showing me those like erotic dark romance novel tiktoks and i really have to wonder: why do all these straight women desperately want to fuck a mafia boss

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John Brosio - Dinosaurs Eating CEO (2013)

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Aironn, tiktok/ Practical Magic, Alice Hoffman/ Electra, Sophocles/The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket/ Peace, Diane Leonard/ The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge, Rainer Maria Rilke/ The Replacement, Brenna Yovanoff/ Anxiousmaya, tiktok

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Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma