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Heal, so when somebody tries to love you – you let them.

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Sometimes you need to sleep, sleep a lot. Not to escape, but to rest your soul from your feelings. Because everything, absolutely everything devours you. Completely.

—Brain

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Okay, I had to remind myself this today but! Rest is an activity. It's a gentle activity, yes, but it is an activity. You're not "doing nothing" you are recovering from whatever taxing thing and preparing for future taxing things. Lying there cranky about having to rest will ruin the quality of your rest. As will beating yourself up or being annoyed at yourself for "doing nothing." You're not doing nothing. You're investing time into giving your body the best shot it has at getting through tomorrow unscathed. Rest is something you Actively Choose To Do in order to Feel Better or at least Not Worse. It's like when you plug in a phone. You say it's charging. As in, charging is an activity the phone is doing. Charge your body too.

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No matter what you've done in your life or what you think of yourself, you did not deserve your trauma. The universe is not punishing you. Bad things happen to people regardless of their morality. And you are no exception. You do not deserve to hurt

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turns out that being compassionate towards myself during moments of uncertainty and stress is the best thing i can do for myself

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There are moments, quiet and fleeting, when I catch myself just looking at you—so thankful that you're in my life. And in those moments, I feel my love for you expanding, as if it could reach beyond all the stars and still find new space to grow. You are my everything, and I am endlessly grateful for every second we share.

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