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happy lottery day girlies!

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You ever get a craving for a certain art medium and have to scramble for something to do with it? Yeah same. ANYWAY this took a week and it kicked my ass and when my dad walked in he said “Is that perspective collage? Do you hate yourself???” And tbh yeah I was a little insane for that but it was funnnnn and I think I nailed the vibe I was going for!

(Also I spent so long picking out the products on the shelves and I put a lot of thought into it yet you can’t see 80% of them but at least I know)

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Y'know that post about how the person is struggling with their executive dysfunction and the "Tiny little OSHA man" in their head is like "it's the fascism, boss"?

Pretty much just had that exact interaction with my therapist.

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daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

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thinking about creatures.

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The other night husband and I were watching a documentary about the yeti where they were doing DNA analysis of samples of supposed yeti fur, and every one of them came back as bears.

Anyway, the next night we watched a thing about some pig man who is supposed to live in Vermont. People said it had claws and a pig nose but walked upright like a man. Now, I happen to know that sideshows used to shave bears and present them as pig men. So every piece of evidence they gave of this monster sounds to me like a bear with mange.

So now the running joke in our house is that everything is bears. Aliens? Bears. Loch Ness monster? Bear. Every cryptozoological mystery is just a very crafty bear.

Bears. They’re everywhere. Be wary. Anyone or anything could be a bear.

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Happy Summer Solstice ! Here's a bunny buddy for my round little radish mouse. I'm apparently starting a series of critters with vegetables, and I love it😄

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Miss Juneteenth, Houston (1983)

For three decades, Daniel S. Williams documented Juneteenth and Emancipation Day celebrations across the country — which included parades, cookouts, and other gatherings.

Photos in “Daniel S. Williams and the Art of Bearing Witness” (2023)

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Joy Sullivan, from “Culpable”, Instructions for Traveling West

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Joy Sullivan, from “Culpable”, Instructions for Traveling West

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And the second baby quilt is complete! Now my coworkers need to stop having kids for a minute while I catch up on the wedding quilt I'm making :p

I love how this one looks and the sunburst effect. It was also nice to make something completely from my stash! The binding fabric in particular was exactly what I wanted to finish it off.

Now I'm taking the evening (and maybe tomorrow) off to rest my aching fingers, because rushing to put on binding is a hell of a thing. I'm excited to send this one off home tomorrow!

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I am happy because everyone loves me

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The closest experience I've ever had to discovering "the vitamin" was buying a 100% wool outfit and wearing it in the winter.

Not only was I not freezing anymore, I was not sweating and overheating either. The horrible sensory nightmare of winter clothes disappeared.

In particular, I bought a pair of wool pants. They were a thrifted pair of fancy dress pants like you would wear at an important office job, and they were easily the most comfortable pair of winter-appropriate pants i'd ever worn. I wore them Every Single Day.

From that point on I realized a lot of my clothes were making me feel bad, and the common thread was polyester. Especially polyester blends.

It's a trap because the polyester clothes are the ones that always feel sooooo silky soft when they are in the store, whereas cotton, linen and wool can feel comparatively rough and scratchy. But when actually wearing them for hours throughout the day, it's the natural fibers that feel more comfortable.

Maybe the secret to sensory comfort is not about the presence of softness, but the absence of overloading sensations. Or maybe the sensory stress and agony is not triggered by texture of the fabric, but by how it breathes and regulates temperature.

Then there's the problem of clothing life span: polyester blends, no matter how soft they seem at first, become rough and scratchy and covered in hard, itchy pills after wearing them 10 or 20 times, whether or not they have been tumble-dried or even washed at all. (I tested it!) Linen and cotton become softer and more comfy the more you wear them, polyester but ESPECIALLY polyester blends become a constant stressor. Polyester blend t-shirts I used to love for their softness now feel bristly and irritating.

So now I'm trying to change my wardrobe to as many natural fibers as possible, and the more natural fiber clothes i have the more I realize that the plastic fibers stress me out. It's so easy to overheat or freeze in them and they're always degrading and becoming less comfortable and it sucks.

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everyone's like ooo merrycat overreacted so bad, oooo merrycat has an unexplained sudden aversion towards charles, oooo merrycat is crazy, but they never had to put up with a flatmate's fuckass boyfriend coming over and immediately viewing himself as lord and ruler of the house like all i'm saying is we're all one unrinsed bathtub covered in beard shavings and being asked to smile at 7am in our own kitchen away from nailing a book to a tree

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World Population : 7,810,521,683 

just in case somebody start feelin too important