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guess what Tumblr, I'm going on vacation in 2 days and it's a road trip with my family to Washington DC and Philadelphia, two places I've never been in my life. And I'm pretty excited about it.

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It's my 16 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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This was in Detroit and it's kinda badass

Chaotic good

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Imagine if every time you walked into a room you were that cowboy in a new town and the entire room went dead silent as the door flaps squeaked back and forth and drunks in the corner looked up from their cards and the guy jangling on the piano stopped playing and stared at you like you had three heads and a tumbleweed blows by even though they don't belong indoors and anyway that's what social anxiety feels like

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Thats not what I wanted + crass

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I feel like there might be something truly wrong with me. My depression and apathy kind of goes beyond typical stuff. I'm so unwilling to apply myself, and I'm so huge into avoiding any tasks possible, that I feel like I truly have a lack of empathy for people I love. I mean, if it seems like I can get out of having to do something or think about something hard by having someone else do it, I will do it at all costs. No matter how much it inconveniences them. Which is fucked up, right? How can I be a loving person to anyone if I end up being so indifferent? I coast through things so often. I'll even take advantage of people when they're already fed up with me. I wonder if it's some sort of personality disorder.

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Can’t wait for, like, 2025 when we look back on the 2018/2019 era and say “hey, remember when we were all really freaking depressed? That was a crazy time! Glad we aren’t like that anymore”

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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i love when baby rats look exactly like their parents ......like yes

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