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Summer (The Sun Can Bend an Orange Sky) // Stardew Valley

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241030 © rock music

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sua side eyes jordan in thought, sincerely doubting it, but shrugs. "whatever you say," a laugh leaves in a huff, her hair moving around as she shakes her head at him. "maybe i just have an artist's touch," she says dramatically, the corners of her mouth quirking into a small smirk. "you would? should i take a purposefully really bad one then? i'm kinda interested in what you have to say."

nodding her head as he explains, sua fiddles with the camera as she thinks of something to say. "they say those kind of photos are the best ones. really capturing memories in a single snap." sua says quietly, sifting through some of the menu options on the camera. her brows furrow as she chooses some of them, then shrugging to herself. "flowers i feel like you can't mess up in a photo. they always look pretty."

"should we take a selfie to remember this moment?" sua asks, mouth quirking up into a small grin.

JORDAN chuckled again at SUA insinuating that he was lying to her

about her photography skills. “no no, trust me. it’s a ten outta ten.”

he didn’t think he was all that great of a photographer himself, but

he had an eye for talent and was always honest when it came to

something he liked. “now if it was bad, i would’ve had to give you a

couple of real photography lessons.” he jokingly stated.

JORDAN had plenty of ideas brainstormed in his head as to what he

wanted to take pictures of next. but, he just didn’t know where to

begin. he’s always used to taking pictures of nature or anything that’s

around him, but wanted to try something somewhat different. in the

middle of his thoughts, he took a glance back over at SUA to answer

her question, “i think it all depends on my mood. whenever i’m

around family, i have tons of baby cousins just running around. so i

love to take pictures of them just being children and having fun. it’s

usually nice to capture childhood moments like that as it’s

something to come back to when you get older. but, when i’m alone, i

do love taking pictures of any flowers or plants that i’m nearby.”

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feat. @behyejin everlasting melody.

sua would readily say she's been vastly improving. sure, it's nothing crazy or notable. it's steady-- a gentle rise as sua gains her footing in an industry she knew very little about. she's still nowhere near ready, but she will admit she's done a lot since her audition all those months ago.

it still doesn't mean she doesn't see the obvious disparities between her and other trainees sometimes. sua excels at some things and struggles at others-- as does most people do. it still grates on her nerves a little bit. knowing that all that awaits her is a constant stream of practice, improve, practice, improve.

"how do you get your voice to stay...in tune so well?" sua asks, listening to hyejin do vocal warm ups. sua doesn't know what goes on at studio delta, but hyejin's voice sounds clear and nice, even if she's not doing anything strenuous. "you sound really good."

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"it's like...i don't know. i've never been super into photography as an art form, so i'm not sure how angles work. sometimes lighting is something to consider too-- but also..." sua takes a careful glance around. "you think they took that into consideration? it's a workshop after all..." sua frowns. "maybe you can take a couple and i'll rate them? pick out your best ones. if you trust me to, that is."

sua keeps her expression focused, even as seira makes her poses and faces next to her. there's a few times where she's sure it looks like she's holding back a laugh-- but if sua keeps those for herself and not as proof of the workshop, who's going to stop her?

the artist hums in response to seira's question, flipping through the selfies thoughtfully before turning her phone towards the other trainee. "pretty good. i like this one," it's one where seira's pouting, head tilted just to the side. "this is a good pose. hm. maybe try this angle but a liiittle higher? and keep it centered. what do you think?" sua flips through the other ones she took, glancing over at seira. "is there one you like, too? don't just listen to me. this is your face, after all."

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"you're cute." sua says simply, after giving a quick scan of her features with her eyes. "i don't...know if there's a way to teach you." her words are slow, almost exasperated as she thinks about it. she scratches at her chin in thought, eyes narrowing at the screen when she glances at it. "maybe you need, i don't know. an angle or something. a style of photo? a selfie shtick?" she rambles off. "who knows. once you find it, you could start like...a trend or something." "i'll try not to." the artist snorts, shaking her head at the other girl. "if you want, i can take a photo of us just the normal way i do? and then you can take the way that feels right for you. maybe you'll bring out a side of me i haven't seen before. or vice versa." sua shrugs. lifting her phone back up, she tests the angle she wants to do, and steps a bit to the side so sua can get a better visual of the backdrop. "i'll take it with us in the center, first. i'll try a different angle later. you ready? one, two, three!" she snaps a few of the two of them, keeping her expression relaxed in them until the corners of her mouth quirk up at the last few.

there’s a pout on seira’s lips as the other talks, unsure if she can teach seira how to take better selfies. “maybe i just have to practice… figure out what kind of pose and angle would fit for me?” she tilts her head to the side as the pout on her mouth remains there. “i could do some research maybe? figure out how other people take their selfies?” the pout finally vanishes “man… it feels weird, studying selfie-taking… investigating how to take good selfies, it’s just… it feels weird”.

seira nods at the other’s words “let’s try that, like you said, maybe we’ll bring out a new side of each other or something…”. seira takes a step closer to the other, tightening the pigtails in her hair, it’s almost become her signature hairstyle, she rarely leaves her apartment without a pair of pigtails in her head.

seira is still unsure what poses to do as sua starts taking pictures, landing on cupping her own face with one hand, tilting her head slightly to the side. there’s a slight pout on her lips, but her eyes are wide and bright, and seira smiles for the last picture. “so? how did they turn out?” seira looks at sua, excitedly waiting for an answer and hoping for the best”.

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"i feel like they're the...starter pack pet. like, if you can take care of a fish, then you're ready for the next level. honestly, they can be really pretty, but they belong in the water. not trapped in glass the size of a small tv." sua laughs at the idea of seira becoming a chinchilla lady. "if you ever get a bunch of chinchillas, you have to let me know. i'll come help you take care of them."

sua frowns. "...yeah, you could say that." she mumbles. "they're just...ugh. unpredictable. one moment they're just soaring through the sky and the next, their trying to peck my nose off." unable to help herself, she chances a look around-- as if speaking about them will somehow make a bird appear to prove sua's point.

"you're so brave," sua bemoans, frowning as she wraps her arms around herself at the thought. "i might even speedwalk. sometimes they just...have them out and about and i can't deal with that." she shakes her head sharply.

sua makes a beeline for the alpacas, reaching out to grab seira's sleeve so she doesn't lose the other girl. she takes charge in getting them the food cups for it, bringing one over to seira before she glances over at the alpacas. "they look soft. i want to pet one so bad..." she mumbles to the other girl, edging closer to one as she tries to get their attention.

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as sua keeps her eyes out for somewhere for them to feed an animal, she frowns at the question. "i'm not scared," she says, on the edge of defensive. seira doesn't mean anything bad by it, and probably at her core, sua is a little frightened. "they're just-- annoying. i got attacked my seagulls once when i was a kid." her face scrunches up as she thinks about it, remembering how close they had gotten to her and the nips with their beaks trying to get the fish out of her hands. "we can go see them, it's okay," sua rushes out to assure, a strained smile on her face. "as long as i don't get too close it should be okay. if they start flying at me though, i'm running for my life. if i leave you there, i'm sorry in advance." glancing around them, sua points vaguely in t

“me as well, i prefer animals i can hold and interact with, fish are basically just… existing? like what do they even use their day on… is all they do swim and eat? i don’t know… don’t think it’s a pet i’d like for myself” she shakes her head. “i always wanted a pet growing up, but we sadly couldn’t afford one… i probably still can’t afford one right now either, both money and time are the problems for me… but maybe someday i’ll be retired and instead of being an old cat lady i’ll be an old chinchilla lady” a laugh escapes her lips.

“i’m happy about that, glad to be your friend” seira gives sua a wide smile. when seira’s group disbanded, and she realized her members were her only friends, she feared she wouldn’t be able to make new friends, now look at her, enjoying the company of a friend who enjoys her company back.

“not afraid just… traumatized? uh, is that the word?” she tilts her head to the side “but i also wouldn’t be a fan of birds if i got attacked by them once… it’s okay if you run away” she nods “i can handle being alone with the birds, they don’t bother me” she shrugs “i find them rather fascinating, i still don’t understand how they’re able to fly, even when reading about it… just doesn’t make sense in my head”.

“let’s feed some alpacas!”.

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"could be fun. who knows, maybe someone likes you enough and offers you another gig." sua offers, head cocking to the side as she imagines it. "would fit you? ah...makeup would probably be fine." sua turns her head to give ria an appraising look, humming in thought. "or alcohol." she tacks on, mouth quirking up in the corner in amusement.

sua takes in that information, thinking about it. "you dated to...what, give them a try? see if they could? or did you end up liking them back after they...what, courted you?" sua asks, mostly aiming to get clarification. she's not a love guru or anything, wouldn't even attempt to offer unsolicted advice sua's never once followed in her life. "i think it's fun. i like being wanted." she's a girl with abandonment issues high of an ego trip-- sue her!

"competition," sua laughs, shaking her head at ria's words. "hey, what is this? rejection?" there's mock outrage in her voice, but her teeth are bared in a wide smile. "even when you're turning me down, you're flirting with me. it's giving mixed signals, ria~"

unable to help herself at ria's last comment, sua knocks her head back with a loud laugh. "wah..." she returns her gaze back to ria, considering. "too difficult for a relationship, but you still would kiss me?" sua's smile is slowly shifting to more of a smirk, more wolfish than amused. "well. can't complain about that." the artist eyes the other girl for a moment, tongue poking at the inside of her cheek. "thanks for the blanket permission." sua shakes her head at the other. "but if you want to kiss me, all you have to do is ask~" she sings.

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"that could be something. you get the reap the benefits of acting without having to spend your time with something like shows or movies. commercials seems like the easier choice, no?" sua shrugs. she doesn't know a damn thing about it-- maybe it's more difficult. oh well. not like she has any plans of doing that anytime soon. the artist is unable to help the pfft that leaves her, her smile widening with a flare of teeth. "it's okay~ you just have a lot of feelings is all." she cooes, playfully and mischievous and she knocks her shoulder into ria. her smile turns crooked, exhaling out a laugh with her breath as she raises a brow towards the other woman. "you mean you haven't tried to chase at all? what, don't like doing the work?" sua's brow raises challengingly, though her smile still stays curved, almost a smirk in the shape. sua lets out a long hum of thought, turning her gaze away from ria to stare forward. being called special has smirk widening, teeth pulling at her lip. "maybe." to fall for someone...has sua even done it? sua's been in relationships, she's had hookups, she's flirted to hell and back. she's not too sure ria can do it, but who is she to knock the girl down when she's pledging something like that. "i put up a good chase, so if you do...you better lock in."

“commercials seems much easier, there’s not as many lines to remember, and i honestly think if i tried acting i wouldn’t be very good at remembering lines” she shrugs “it’d be a nice way to make some money, and i really need to get a job, who knows… maybe i should give acting in some commercials a try” she hums. “which kind of commercial would fit me? make up, something food, something completely else?” she cups her own face as she tilts her head to the side.

“i’m usually not the first to like” ria shrugs “the three times i’ve dated, they always liked me first and had to work to make me fall for them” she shrugs. “i’ve had crushes before, but, i’m usually not one to act on my feelings, if i have a crush on someone i’ll just think about them all the time and hope they’ll eventually fall for me and confess their feelings” a short laugh escapes her lips. “but maybe it’d be fun chasing, i don’t know” she shrugs again.

“ah, even if i liked you, i think it would be too difficult… there’s probably a lot of competition out there, you are extremely beautiful after all” she hums “maybe if i’m lucky you’d fall for me without me having to try… don’t think it would happen though… maybe we’re not destined to be together”, “we can still kiss when i drink too much though” a laugh escapes her lips” sorry~”.

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"it was audie," sua says, voice scandalized like she couldn't believe what she was saying. "she's been on my island since day one. it felt like i hurt her feelings." the artist will not admit to the pout that's building on her face the more she talks about the game. "i've let some go before...i let hamphrey go because i had someone else just like them. but audie? it felt like betrayal."

sua scoffs. "that's annoying," she mumbles, frowning. it makes sense in the grand scheme of things. sua might not have been a trainee for very long, nor has she cared about the inner workings (much less general workings) of the idol industry-- but that line of thought makes sense. doesn't make it any less aggravating of an idea. "how long have you been a trainee anyway?" sua asks, tilting her head. "longer than...some of the vybe guys right? should i complain about seniority?" she's joking, tacked on be the crook of her lips to form a bit of a smile.

chaerin nods because sua's words are true. after becoming a trainee, she's found it difficult to enjoy singing on its own as she's constantly thinking about how to improve instead. "was it a villager you really loved? usually, i just let them leave because i like the idea of seeing new faces on my island, but i understand people who keep a tight roster as well."

while chaerin wasn't much of a gamer, her younger sister had introduced her to animal crossing, and she found the game relaxing enough to grab her attention. it didn't require any extra skills or whatnot and was just a great way to spend her time.

the thought of her debut always lingered at the back of chaerin's head, but with vybe's debut, it seemed quite unlikely for lime to debut another rookie so soon. "maybe? i'm not too sure," she admits with a slight shrug. "they just debuted a boy group, so i feel like a girl group won't be debuting in a while. you know how fans can get when a rookie debuts so close to another rookie." with a scrunch of her nose, she let out a quiet sigh.

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yuwol flounders in a way sua takes a sense of satisfaction out of, keeping her wonky smile on her face and her gaze firm on him as he sputters. she almost feels bad, because yuwol's been arguable quite nice to her, all things considered. she huffs out a laugh, smile twisting as she shakes her head.

"you said that. not me." sua points out, her teeth peeking out in her playful grin. she tilts her head at yuwol. "i don't think ghosting is that awful of a thing, but..." she shrugs. "...it's fine. i just wanted to give you some shit for it. thanks for reacting," moving closer, sua reaches out to pat the other roughly on the shoulder, her crooked smile back in place as she steps back in place.

her tongue clicks. she wants to say right back at ya but she bites her tongue. her jaw tenses, and sua's left eye brow raises just slightly. she takes a moment to respond.

"it's not." she chooses to admit instead, relaxing a bit as she reaches up to scratch at her neck absentmindedly. "i couldn't name one idol group from lime when i signed. they just offered me an audition and i figured i'd see how it goes. and...well," she gives a vague gesture around them in a here we are manner. "i don't really know what i'm doing, half the time. but it's not sitting around doing nothing, i guess."

sua takes a moment to assess yuwol again, staring at him in thought. and because she can't really help it, because she's also been bitey at her core, sua's voice takes on an innocent tone. "doesn't training here break your curfew or whatever?"

waiting around feels… well, weird.

yuwol is fresh off of the drama auditions, unsure how he has done, mulling over the results that have yet to be announced. it’s strange to wander like this, but he has tasted failure before on a rather large scale, consequences piling up until he eventually finds his way to sr media again. his bundle of nerves haven’t exactly left, only increasing tenfold the longer he has to wait. he knows the staff would have to deliberate, he can’t help feeling antsy still though.

doomthinking is what he has been doing in the middle of the practice room, on top of practicing whatever routine he was meant to this week—it’s a little distracting, having his own brain cave in and get in the way, but that’s just how his brain works. there’s never a day where it doesn’t attack him, even over something like an audition. his mind elsewhere, it’s no wonder he wasn’t alerted to someone else entering the room, even moreso that it’s sua.

hello, traitor. the words made his heart leap into his throat, his usually dead and monotone eyes laced with a sense of guilt—he has been feeling that way whenever he thinks of sua. after all, it’s not everyday that everyone in your band up and left to go on a survival show. and then, upon return, end up being even more difficult to contact.

“oh, sua… i didn’t think—no, wait… first of all, i’m sorry.” whether sua’s jab is meant to be lighthearted or not, yuwol still offers a sincere apology. “i’ve been an awful… bandmate and friend.” then again, they aren’t bandmates anymore—that’s precisely the problem though. in sua’s point of view, he probably just disappeared suddenly, what with his limited curfew at the age of twenty-something.

“truthfully, i… wasn’t expecting to see you here.” he blinks, realizing that the shadow of sua he thought he imagined during christmas concert preparations was just that—but sua is actually here, somehow. “i didn’t think this was… your scene. especially… lime, right?” he always considered sua to be more of a freeform rockstar, not tied by anything, including a company.

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a hum leaves her, sua eyeing hyeran in thought. she supposes that's a given-- in an industry that builds and is fueled off of people's perception of what you portray on stage, that is important to consider. sua's just...never cared too much about getting everyone's approval. she'd get burn out that way.

"probably not in the most literal sense, but..." one shoulder shrugs. close enough. it stems from the same place to sua, anyway. blinking at the other girl, a breathless laugh leaves her, and sua shakes her head. part of her wants to scold hyeran, say something like if you're this nervous about it then how am i going to do it? but sua's been on a new leaf lately. biting her tongue and picking her battles. "you're charming when you speak. and you're pretty, so i think you'll be set. even if you do get nervous." glancing away, sua scuffs her shoe against the ground idly.

"i'm not...bad at it." sua starts, frowning. "if you give me enough time, sure. but here? my strat has been to pick out the important stuff and fill in the rest if i can't remember it." it's probably not the best method to work with-- but sua hasn't been struggling that much. she knows it's not an actual hosting gig, so maybe that has something to do with it. "i've got all workshop to get better, i guess." a tired sigh leaves her, a hand reaching up to rub at the corner of her eye tiredly. "they usually have notecards too, don't they? and the...teleprompts."

"i don't think stage fright is the right word for it," hyeran lets out a small chuckle, feeling a sense of relief wash over her as she does. "i think i'm mostly worried about people's perception of me. i want to do well," she shakes her head. suddenly, the trainee feels less tense. perhaps speaking her thoughts out loud have something to do with that.

"maybe you're right, though, that it's a form of stage fright. i never really considered it, but i think you're right," she admits, her eyes drifting down to the floor. "i'm glad you believe in me," hyeran's eyes come back up to lock with sua's, and she gives the other girl a smile. "sometimes i think i'm too hard on myself."

"improvising is a bit more intimidating. at least with this we have to follow a script," she agrees with sua. "do you find it hard to memorize your lines?" hyeran asks, tilting her head.

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"oh." sua blinks, shock briefly overcoming her features. it's broken by her laughter, stilted and embarrassed. "okay, honestly i just thought you were going to play it safe and pick truth again. you were really going to pick dare? damn it." the artist should have taken into consideration that alcohol makes ria bold. "i'll get ya next time i guess."

truthfully, she didn't have a question in mind. sua takes a moment to let them both bask in the silence for a second, sipping her drink as she eyes the other girl critically. slowly, a small smile crosses her face. sua downs the rest of her drink, letting out a sigh as she sets the empty bottle aside before reaching for her next one. "okay-- i got one. what are you thinking about right now?" leaning back, sua cracks open the next bottle easily, eyes finding ria as her smile sharpens just a tad.

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"i don't think so," sua settles for, shrugging one shoulder dismissively. "there might have been. once upon a time--but it feels like most times are the wrong time for me, so..." she says it so casually, like it's more fact than anything else. "i'm bad at relationships, if i'm being honest." sua snorts, cracking a dry smile before she takes another hefty swig. "i get bored." sua tilts her head towards ria again, blinking slowly at her as she shifts her hair over one shoulder. her cheek nuzzles against the fabric of her bed comfortably. "truth or dare. should i ask my question ahead of time to save you the trouble?" she says, voice teasing and goading as her lips form a smirk.

cw: mentions of alcohol

as a child ria feared she’d never get to date, that no one would ever like her back. and though she struggled quite a bit with dating back in canada, never finding someone who liked her back, she didn’t struggle with that here in korea. actually, she’s had to turn down multiple people, something she never saw herself doing. and she’s gotten to date a few times now, and she’s actively looking for her next target, her next crush. ria’s relationships usually don’t last that long, her longest being half a year, and ria still can’t figure out the reasoning behind it.

“eh? you’ve already come up with a question?” she leans back, takes a sip of her drink before continuing “i was gonna pick dare but… now you’re making me want to pick truth”. she hums for a bit, takes another sip and then finally continues “i’ll pick truth again then, i’m too curious which question that brain of yours have come up with. ria finds a smile sitting on her lips as she looks at sua, wondering what’s going on in the other’s brain.

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sua blinks at the compliments, before she huffs in disbelief. turning the camera back to her, she mumbles a "yeah, right," in response, but there's the beginnings of a smile pulling at the corners of her mouth. if that's a ten out of ten, then photography must not be as hard as it seems. "you're just being nice."

"i can't help my face." she sighs, shaking her head to herself as she peeks through the viewfinder and looks around. she snaps another picture, more scenery this time, before her gaze moves back over to jordan again. "but i guess...yeah. capturing the moment is the point of it." at least sua's pretty; no one can say she looks ugly in her photos. she can take looking mean or rude or a bitch anyday.

"did you ever have a preference in the type of photos you took?" sua asks curiously. "like...people as the subject, or more landscape? i think landscape and scenery shots would be easier than photographing people."

JORDAN couldn’t help but to chuckle at sua’s playful face expression after taking his picture. leaning over to see how the picture came out, he nodded his head — indicating that he liked how it turned out. “oh that’s a 10/10! look at you about to become a professional in no time.”

“candid photos are exactly what they are, yep yep.” when SUA

mentioned rbf, he knew exactly where she was coming from.

he’s heard of the term plenty of times before — even sometimes

people would mention it about his own facial expressions; in which

he too would rarely notice about himself.

“i think i get kinda terrible in hiding my facial expressions too. there

are plenty of times where im unable to hide my face especially at the

wrong times and it be so embarrassing.” he shook his head while

softly laughing. “but i do think photos could capture great angles of

anything especially if you have a rbf. it lives for the moment.”

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weirdly enough, sua isn't that intimidated by this workshop. it isn't the dance one-- where she feels like she's dragging everyone behind by visibly struggling in comparison to her peers. hosting still seems way more of a nervewracking and stress inducing situation than some other things-- but sua's at least familiar with the livestreaming space. it's kind of like hosting, even though the audiences and vibes are entirely different. sua has some idea of what to expect, at least.

it's nice that hyeran confides her thoughts to her. sua's quiet as she listens, humming when needed. her mouth quirking up at the sound of hyeran's laughter, she lets out a soft huff of her own amusement. it is similar, but sua could bet that messing up on one of those is more dentrimental than the other. "i wouldn't have pegged you as the type to get stage fright." sua says with a raised brow. "you seem like a natural on camera. you're good at talking."

sua's never been. but people who watched her liked that about her. she was blunt, surefire with her words and honest. kinda. she's sharp with her quips and eager to fight back.

"a little bit," the artist admits, a half smile on her face. the workshops tend to put some sort of pressure on her-- the formar of intensive in a short period of time a weight on her shoulders. "it's all about charisma, isn't it?" sua crosses her arms, shifting her balance to her other foot. "and memorizing your lines. at least there's a script to work with most of the time. improv would be a little more intimidating i think."

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“i think the hardest thing to grasp is that we’re going to be doing this live,” hyeran tells sua, letting out a breath. “no time for mistakes, you know? no do-overs.” it’s not long before she laughs, though. “but i guess it’s the same as when we’re on stage, right?”

“i feel like i have all the confidence in the world here, though. i’m not blubbering or messing up my lines, but i worry about what will happen once, or really if, i get in front of a camera,” hyeran frowns. “a real camera,” she clarifies, knowing that the camera they’re using to record the trainees now is different than what they’ll be in front of when it comes to music shows.

“there’s also just so much to be aware of as an mc - the fans are watching your every move! especially how you interact with other idols,” she shakes her head. “are you feeling the pressure yet?” hyeran says knowing full-well that she herself was, despite none of this having any real bearing since they were both just trainees.

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