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Restless Fall Night

When the evening winds blow and the bright full moon shows, the night feels endless. Waiting for dawn and dreading the nights length. As the cool winds blow, no night owls hoot, silence replaces the synohony of the wild dogs howl. In the restless fall nights, the temperature drops low. The end of evening walks and late night shows. The yearning of summer festivities grow. Memories of the…

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What is Love?

Is love blind or should our eyes be wide open? We lose track of time because love transports us to a timeless dimension of splendor. This post answers the age old question.... What is Love? And shouldn't we all know it?

Love is disagreement without resentment. Love is disdain without hate. Love is pain with a ting of sorrow. Love is seeking agreement without an argument. Love is understanding with your heart and not your mind. Love is no man left behind. Love is seeing the wrong but nurturing the right. Love is breathtaking when there’s so much air in sight. Love is chasing and being willingly…

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The Tale of Two Minds

My deepest sorrow was also my purest joy. I found the true meaning of life in the depths of life’s deepest disparities. I held on to peace when my mind ached with profound dismalness. I planned and strategized my greatest plan while feeling barely alive. This is the tale of two minds when I lost everything I thought was dear to me. Without family or close friends. Just my broken spirit, the…

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Better Than A Friend

I like your face and hands. I love the dimples in your thighs and how your waist swings from side to side. I love the strength in your stride. I like the way you hide your teeth and lick your lips from time to time. I like your dead eyes and how you don’t even try to hide your disdain for people at times. I love your energy and how you don’t just follow, but you command the tide. I like the…

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Loving In The Deep!

From Sea to sea, through time changes and earth elemental rearrangements. In spirit and in flesh, even when our energies are under pressed. Beyond our tongues virgility. A buttery Groove depicts our loves virility. As our life tectonic plates shake, we rise and then settle into our sacred place. A smooth and strong undercurrent pull, bringing us into deep waters space. We’re no longer…

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Strength & Unity

Strength & Unity

I feel Unity in the swift movements of my hands as the evening breeze kisses my chin and the sun presses up against my skin. Strength in the bending of my knees, partitioning towards the sky for my daily bread because Love Conquers All! Unity in my breath as I stretch forward across God’s green earth. Each day my life becomes more real. Tears of happiness just feels surreal. Everyday my…

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Closed Case

closed case while trembling

It’s a closed case when I examine the evidence, I see the crime and the victim is hesitant. Speak up or forever hold your peace because justice on earth is limited. with a jury or a Judge, two lawyers and a used gun. Multiple shots fired and gun powder covered hands and a leaking victims shattered heart. Respiratory system collapsing as she struggles to gather her lung power. Shots fired as…

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Dry Cry

With tears in my eyes all I could say was goodbye. I’m filled with sorrow and an ache of feeling swallowed. My poor mind is blanketed with its own sorrow. I distrust you because of how much I naturally trust you. This can’t  be love that I’m feeling but it’s definitely what I’m receiving. I dry cry because I’m leaving. Leaving the thought of the reality of you because for some reason it…

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Benefits of a God

Bless the lord O my soul, and forget not all his benefits. Are there any benefits in serving the God of the Hebrew covenant? First I want to establish that there is no such thing as unconditional love. The Hebrew covenant can be hard to digest with the expectation of receiving unconditional love from God.When I was more of a child this is the way that I too thought that God should love me…

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High or Low

There’s many places in life to go. Many things to do. Tons of people to meet. One told me not to be so set on being free. I replied “why not”? His answer, “clouds dissipate, nothing remains in the sky”. So low I am, and up high is where I strive to be. All I want is to be up as if on top of a tree. Floating in the sky with the clouds. Near the star’s as they glisten all around. Just the…

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Perfect Beauty:Kintsugi

Withered,Worn, and Torn. Open, tossed, and then sold after being bought. Perfect beauty’s hard to spot with the eye of man. Time, leverage and opportunities lost. Living with the thoughts of never being caught. Never being understood because I’m just used to being used. Do you ever see a person like an apple in a tree? Wanting to climb to the top of the tree, pluck the best apple and wrap…

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Perfect Beauty:Kintsugi

Withered,Worn, and Torn. Open, tossed, and then sold after being bought. Perfect beauty’s hard to spot with the eye of man. Time, leverage and opportunities lost. Living with the thoughts of never being caught. Never being understood because I’m just used to being used. Do you ever see a person like an apple in a tree? Wanting to climb to the top of the tree, pluck the best apple and wrap…

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Heavens Breath

Heavens breath was bottled and sent to me. Locked in a vessel only meant for thee. Assigned to carry the treasures in me. Gifted like Halloween, tricks and treats for those who out-stick their hands to thee. For those strong enough to tap into your golden canteen, it’s truly a treasure hidden in thee. Sometimes you were tossed and mishandled by lesser beings. Used as a holster for those…

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A Table For Two

So what, life’s a mystery, this I always knew. I sat down alone and I arose with you. I breath out so, you can breath my essence within. Heaven must have a scent, because I smell it all over you. Sniffing in your savory smell, has me praising the God within you. Only God knew I would be amused by every part of you. As I sit in the grass I meditate on the thought of you… feeling my hand…

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Beams Of Love

My last post Repentance awakes Justice, Justice cries for Judgement can be pointless without the foundation of the Beams of Love in our lives. I personally believe the first step is repentance, but prior to this we all need to acknowledge zero as discovering the beams of the love of our God. Upon these beams we live to create the sturdy foundation to uphold justice, judgment, and Order. Before…

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Beams Of Love

My last post Repentance awakes Justice, Justice cries for Judgement can be pointless without the foundation of the Beams of Love in our lives. I personally believe the first step is repentance, but prior to this we all need to acknowledge zero as discovering the beams of the love of our God. Upon these beams we live to create the sturdy foundation to uphold justice, judgment, and Order. Before…

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Repentance awakes Justice, Justice cries for Judgement.

Psalms 7: O Lord my God, if I have done this; if there be iniquity in my hands; if I have rewarded evil unto him that was at peace with me; (yeah, I have delivered him that without cause is mine enemy. This week I feel compelled to talk about repentance. Just about every conversation of late has provoked the thought of God’s assigned judgment. While I was running around this subject, God…