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they say ch 3 is gonna be a real

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sharing gay germs

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fanart of this dess design

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Phantom of the Paradise poster design based on a poster for the 1925 Phantom of the Opera

Original poster (sourced from this tumblr post).

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i couldn't say everything i have to say about undertale in that little box, so here are my feelings.

i joined the undertale community when the demo came out, in 2013. i've been there since the beginning. i was seven. that fandom was the first time i looked forward to waking up. i wanted to see the new art, the new theories, listen to the songs again. my mom says she knew i'd be different when she heard me listening to my playlists in the shower. it was never songs from the radio, it was the undertale OST. undertale taught me about leitmotifs and composition and how sounds could be played with. it taught me how powerful a melody can be, even if it's simple. it gave me my love and passion for all things music. now i'm in school for music education. i want to give other kids the excitement of understanding and enjoying instrumental music the way undertale did for me. undertale was the first time i had seen a lesbian relationship develop, and before then, i had no idea what my life could look like. i had no idea love could be so tender, even queer love. it showed me that angry people are deserving of love and affection. i was an angry kid, like really angry. i didn't have any close friends. i saw myself as a villain. i saw flowey as a reflection of myself, that scared, sweet kid, trapped in an unfeeling cage. a kid who took on the role of the bad guy because it felt like what everyone wanted him to be. hugging asriel felt like hugging myself. telling myself it was going to be okay. despite everything, it's still me, right? i can still love and be loved, right? and yeah, i was right. undertale is so deeply intertwined with every aspect of my life. my passions, my identity, my morals, the way i love, my music taste, the art i engage with, the people i spend time with.. at the end of it all, for me, there is undertale. so thanks, for everything.

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cassandra :^) ref under the cut

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amigas

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someone tried to insult me by comparing my appearance to hers but little did you know this diva is my new idol

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extremely rare traditional art rip my drawing tablet for real she is confirmed dead as hell and I can't rlly get a new one rn 😭 I actually think drawing sm digital art made me more heavy handed than I used to be esp because my traditional art is like. the tiniest pen I can get my hands on and no sketch at all

in the meantime I'll get around to answering more asks sorey it takes me actually forever

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raja......... nnhghhhh

AS7 is impossible to watch because every queen there is so fuckin sexy

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Thinking about 💭 cat

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The Drowned Halls

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Trying out csp, have them in a summer heat.

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i'm also sobbing every five seconds because i'm so proud of these girls . i feel like they're my older sisters

AS7 is impossible to watch because every queen there is so fuckin sexy

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AS7 is impossible to watch because every queen there is so fuckin sexy

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lyrics that make me evil for personal reasons

"the saddest part of n2n is how hard they grieve gabe" "no it's diana's struggle with mental health" "no it's how natalie is neglected" "it's dan putting on a brave face" "it's gabe begging to be acknowledged"

THE ACT OF LEAVING SOMEONE YOU LOVE BECAUSE IT'S BETTER FOR THE BOTH OF YOU🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵