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When nobody are real, end everything seems vague. Scream your lungs out it's least I can do. Even when you are now someone else.

Another stranger, Friends, Lover, and Forgotten One.

We are all have our own things, that set us apart. From each other and one.

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Jadi ini rasanya memudar kepadamu.

aku hanya tak tahu lagi dan untuk siapa semua ini.

maafkan aku. Ini sangat menyedihkan.

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Its okay to be lonely.

its okay if you’re not here.

its okay when everything’s fade.

its okay even when you don’t care.

its okay, i am just going to sleep.

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When Derek Chauvin was found guilty on all three charges surrounding his murder of George Floyd, the conversation found on Tumblr (and elsewhere online) reflected two major points:

This is not justice being served. There is no justice in the face of murder, and if there were, it certainly would not be found within the American carceral system. The verdict stemming from this trial will not stop the violence and oppression Black people face at the hands of an over-policed country.

“Black people don’t need reminders that Chauvin’s guilty verdict doesn’t mean the fight is over. It’s okay to celebrate small victories.”

These truths are not at odds with each other. They can, and will, co-exist.

Take a moment today to celebrate George Floyd and his beautiful family. Keep his little daughter in your mind and hearts. If you want to feel a bit of relief that at least one person was found guilty for their hateful, heinous crime—please do so. And then remember that it was just one person. Remember that if you are an ally and an accomplice, you must not stop learning. You must not stop fighting for real justice.

Accountability for police killings is rare:

Since 2005, 140 law enforcement officers have been arrested for on-duty manslaughter and murder. Only 8—5%—have been convicted.

And that doesn’t account for the 98% of police killings where there were no arrests for murder or manslaughter.

Black people are three times more likely to be killed by police

And then yesterday, roughly one hour after Nancy Pelosi thanked George Floyd for “sacrificing” his “life for justice,” police in Columbus, Ohio shot and killed 16-year-old Ma'Khia Bryant.

That is not what justice looks like.

Rest in power, George Floyd.

Rest in power, Ma’Khia Bryant.

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When Derek Chauvin was found guilty on all three charges surrounding his murder of George Floyd, the conversation found on Tumblr (and elsewhere online) reflected two major points:

This is not justice being served. There is no justice in the face of murder, and if there were, it certainly would not be found within the American carceral system. The verdict stemming from this trial will not stop the violence and oppression Black people face at the hands of an over-policed country.

“Black people don’t need reminders that Chauvin’s guilty verdict doesn’t mean the fight is over. It’s okay to celebrate small victories.”

These truths are not at odds with each other. They can, and will, co-exist.

Take a moment today to celebrate George Floyd and his beautiful family. Keep his little daughter in your mind and hearts. If you want to feel a bit of relief that at least one person was found guilty for their hateful, heinous crime—please do so. And then remember that it was just one person. Remember that if you are an ally and an accomplice, you must not stop learning. You must not stop fighting for real justice.

Accountability for police killings is rare:

Since 2005, 140 law enforcement officers have been arrested for on-duty manslaughter and murder. Only 8—5%—have been convicted.

And that doesn’t account for the 98% of police killings where there were no arrests for murder or manslaughter.

Black people are three times more likely to be killed by police

And then yesterday, roughly one hour after Nancy Pelosi thanked George Floyd for “sacrificing” his “life for justice,” police in Columbus, Ohio shot and killed 16-year-old Ma'Khia Bryant.

That is not what justice looks like.

Rest in power, George Floyd.

Rest in power, Ma’Khia Bryant.

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Unbloom

You know you really shouldn’t do it,

if you don’t wanna know.

you know the apple of an eye,

started to rotten out somehow.

diamonds in the sun, stars beneath yours.

fractured of surreal feelings, what are we look upon?

sitting in the comfort zone while it plays comforting sounds, reeling.

hand me yours, juxtaposed and i am sinking.

i know it would be empty,

but i keep filling it sorely.

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Suhr wiring looks.

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Some People

Some people loves to watch the world burn,

Some people sets the fire.

Some people likes to hurt the other,

Some people selling guns.

Some people bury some people,

Some people digging the grave.

But

Some people leaving with a scars,

Some people come and heal them.

Some people demolished a feelings,

Some people try to build them.

Some people getting an attention,

Some people giving the attention.

Some people not meant to be there,

while Some people grace to be here.

people are people.

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Bang Malih in any different kind of style.

Inspiring man for inspiring sub-genre.

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Look at her hairs! Its quit metal-headbanging right? Dave mustaine must be proud

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Dearest Drug

Dear heroine, my pitiful hero

thank you for being there when i was torn apart.

i couldnt put myself from puzzles into the one ‘me’ if its not because of your help, unfortunately.

Dear cocaine, my kin

i am grateful to have you slide into my veins and all that swirling feeling about being strong in no time.

it helps me a lot when i was down and broken, immediately.

Dear cannabis, my lovely abyss

its nothing compared to that brings me to whole another places like i have never been before.

when i was completely dark and surrounded by walls, you took me to places somewhere i shouldve belong long time ago, shamelessly.

and

Dear you, My Dearest Drug

i dont even remember when it was the last time we talked about our life together, and always forger to say goodnight back then.

its always been a cheerful journey and kind of stringing to each other just to held you and me together in different times and spaces that we lived among the reality we have thrown to be.

is it me or its just sad how we ended like this?

i dont even know.

i am writing this because deep down i believe you will read this, sooner or later.

i just can be myself and cherish the laughter and joy that we used to have on each other. Faces, faves, and warm places. You remind me of every little thing you did that i have missed so much. sometimes it leds me into tears.

i guess i just light my smoke and going away like a puff after slowly burning you from the inside.

i guess, i didnt meant to. how does it sound?

i am just a whispering sound beside your ears that ringing before you sleeps.

i am the pierceful thoughts that keeps you awake at the midnight.

i cant help but haunting you from the shadows, relying to you to be completely drown into my darkest hour,

I wish.

Bu somewhere, you belong to somewhere.

to another.

i wish i could be your another.

from now on, i declare that i miss you so bad so this haunting thoughts will live forever, so do you.

sincerely,

someone that you used to know.

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Rakit Ini Dihatimu

Rakit ini dihatimu Tuhan mendengar setiap air mata yang tidak kau tangiskan Belum selesai ambisimu, kau relakan Hingga fajar tahu bahwa esok segera menyongsong Mengisi kembali ruang hampa yang sudah lama kosong Rakit ini dihatimu Kata kata tidak membuahkan hasil Bahwasannya gerakanmu yang menulis takdir Bangkitlah dan suarakanlah, anak muda Aksimu takkan padam Rakyat silau dengan gemerlap lampu LED Dipelataran senayan menimbulkan riuh tak beralasan Untuk apa semua bangunan metropolis ini Kalau mimpi sudah tidak ada pada anak cucu kita nanti

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Sorority Noise - No Halo

This last week I slept 8 hours total, I barely sleep Maybe that's why I've been weak The same things that plague you still plaguing me God called you to fulfill a vacancy I tried to see why it wasn't me So I didn't show up to your funeral But I showed up to your house And I didn't move a muscle I was quiet as a mouse And I swore I saw you in there But I was looking at myself I'm placing bets against myself And honestly I'm a mess With the car engulfed in flames I am a wreck Things I should have said through call or text Just really been so busy and I regret Cause if there's no rest for the wicked I'm as evil as it gets Thing I should have said So I didn't show up to your funeral But I showed up to your house And I didn't move a muscle I was quiet as a mouse And I swore I saw you in there But I was looking at myself So when you show up to my funeral Will you be wearing white or black And I know the voice is in you It's the energy I lack So if there's a race to heaven I will surely come in last And if there's a race to heaven I will always come in last

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You sure ?

I have been broken.

And also, healed.

But, what already broken is never gonna broken again

Right?

Like, Metallica '93

It will never stop, it won't be gone.

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Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from hell Blue skies from pain Can you tell a green field From a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell?Did they get you to trade Your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change? Did you exchange A walk on part in the war For a lead role in a cage?How I wish, how I wish you were here We're just two lost souls Swimming in a fish bowl Year after year Running over the same old ground And how we found The same old fears Wish you were here

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Karena, selalu ada kata ‘sial’ didalam ‘finansial’

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Hey there, I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all. Where you are and how you feel. Put these lights off as these wheels Keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...) Slow things down or speed them up. Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...) Are you and I gone?