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Thinking about that person who died because they ate food they had left in a container on the counter for a week... like thats natural selection

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Unforeseen consequence of getting on SSRI's is now that I don't have anxiety anymore I have nothing to push back against my lack of impulse control.

Pros: I've managed to make a quick decision and am applying to grad school.

Cons: I have been on a shopping spree all month.

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I've decided to apply for an advanced certificate program for this fall within 3 days of finding out it existed.

ADHD is really the game of "what would it be like to live life with next to no impulse control?"

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ADHD is really the game of "what would it be like to live life with next to no impulse control?"

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Breaking my shopping addiction is hard because I'm just so good at shopping

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I just had the most unbelievable night seeing Cabaret on Broadway. Bitch I was pulled on stage for the post intermission conga line. They gave me a party hat. Night to remember.

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one tells only truth the other also only truth they're really nice

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I dont know what they thought they were doing choosing that picture he looks like he's having a great time and he looks cool as hell. Putting smoking a cig while playing the kazoo on my to do list.

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A side reason I hope I'll be financially able to have a kid one day is I need someone to pass down all my cool shit to. I just bought this madomorpho bodysuit as a tax return treat for a truly horrible day and goddamn it I love the idea of passing down my small designer vintage clothes to my child for them to then be able to future party in their parent's buy-it-for-life investment pieces.

I am realizing lot of this fantasy is riding on the potential child having the same somewhat specific taste in clothing as me.

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I think I gave my tongue a chemical burn because two days later it still hurts. Dune.

I carved up my tongue eating sour candy and now I'm trying to eat noodles with hot sauce while drinking sparkling water and I feel like I've put my tongue in the bene gesserit pain box

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I think social awkwardness in movies puts me in more despair and fear than watching a real horror movie

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I had sour candy for dessert after this. I must prove I'm not an animal. Like sifting sand through a screen...

I carved up my tongue eating sour candy and now I'm trying to eat noodles with hot sauce while drinking sparkling water and I feel like I've put my tongue in the bene gesserit pain box

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I carved up my tongue eating sour candy and now I'm trying to eat noodles with hot sauce while drinking sparkling water and I feel like I've put my tongue in the bene gesserit pain box

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warm baked goods are insane. something so beautiful and almost maddening about absolutely tearing into them when they’re fresh. feeling warm all over after. I really do get vampires for real

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you can tell someone is aesthetically malnourished when they don’t like underarm hair

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Things I did today

1. Yoga for 45 minutes

2. Went to Powell's and bought a Marxist politics reader

3. Smoked weed so I could do #4 without screaming

4. Cleaned the kitchen of my parents house like I do everyday and oftentimes twice because I am functionally a second house wife to my slob father who works the least in the family but both my mother and I have 40 hour a week jobs, and she often works overtime. I've been so conditioned into a life of constant cleaning I don't know what to do with myself when I'm not cleaning. I dream of one day living somewhere where the only person I have to pick up after is myself and I can live in a clean house.

5. Churned literal butter for a banana bread I made because I needed buttermilk for the recipe.

6. Cleaned the kitchen again.

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sometimes i feel like im climing up this incline again alone but thankully sisypus and the itsy bitsy spider and here with me