birdmanohno

[birdmanohno]

I'm better as a concept, aren't I?

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Did you guys know that the most recent version of sharks have fins that are kinda leg like and they like to walk up onto land?

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do it scared do it stupid do it badly whatever it is that's worth doing, that's worth anything at all, we do it. be it scared be it stupid be it badly. the sincerity remains the same.

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i think an uncomfortable truth is that there is an inherent arrogance one has to overcome after spending too much time alone, which is not so obvious when it's forced (i.e. through ostracism) because the assumption is that someone who has been ostracized is more likely to lack confidence and thinks poorly of themselves. but then there's this dance between victimhood and low self-esteem yet also subconsciously believing that your own view or daily decisions are "correct" or "better" because you've never had anyone tell you otherwise, because you've been alone. and in addition have gotten used to being extremely independent and considering others' input doesn't even occur to you. so when others DO provide feedback, it's almost jarring, like you don't have a behavioral pathway with which to respond or receive the feedback so you just respond with irritation because your system is confused

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i'm like a stray dog in a lot of ways but i will not elaborate on that

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physically i’m here but mentally i’m floating face down in a river

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they call m,e guy who gets guilty & scared a normal amount about normal things

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it's always "you gnawed off your own leg to escape like an animal caught in a trap" and never "why didn't anyone try to help you out of the trap" or "why weren't you provided with any other resources to escape the trap with except for your own teeth"

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me in my head at the supermarket: nobody is ever going to fucking love me. omg 25% off

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“jesus died for you” well i didn’t ask him to do that and my therapist says i am not responsible for other peoples actions

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i admit i want to be loved religiously and i don’t know what to do with my hands

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ive been wanting to get into living what do you guys recommend for a beginner

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dream job is to be that one rotted hand that bursts out of the grave to snatch some stupid idiot by the ankles and pull them under the earth

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no talking stage I pull u towards me by our red string of fate and then we kiss on the mouth

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you guys know how they sell vitamins and bandaids in little themed containers with spongbob or whatever. can we please do that for hrt i want to take halo reach testosterone