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you've written a couple post-canon KimChay fics that I LOVE - cage me in and set me free was one of the first KimChay fics I read, actually, I loved Kim and Porsche's dynamic in it. And then there's Out of the Shadows, which I'd love if you got the inspo to return to at some point (all that tasty, tasty angst!). But we haven't gotten to see how you, personally, would write the actual reconciliation. It's something I struggle with; how do you forgive someone who hurt you and then doubled down? Even if Chay is generous enough to accept and understand Kim's reasoning, how does he trust him after that? What if Kim decides to do something shitty for the greater good again? I'd love to hear your thoughts on that, whether it's general speculation or a bit of insight into the Out of the Shadows arc 👀

AHHH MY FRIEND!!! You're making me feel things ;_;

I do actually plan to come back to Out of the Shadows! Once I finish Technicality, since I've rediscovered the inspo for that, OotS is next on my list!

My personal feelings towards their potential reconciliation have changed a lot in the past year. When I originally watched the show, I had just gone through a really terrible breakup, my first one ever, and I was really sympathetic towards Chay. So I leaned in a little too hard to the "Kim is the worst person ever, how could he break this poor baby's heart."

One of the reasons I stalled on OotS is actually because it was the first longfic I started for this fandom, before I had really been exposed to all the various meta and interpretations, so I didn't have a solid feel for the characters and how I wanted to write them. I reached a point where the characterizations I started with, I no longer really agreed with, and then I had to figure out how to move forward with how I interpret the characters at this point.

Nowadays, I tend to think the reconciliation would go a lot better than you might expect. From what we see in the show, Kim never actually, intentionally seduced Chay. The closest we get to it is that cheek kiss after Chay's confession, but at that point, I think it's reasonable to believe Kim has caught feelings himself. We see multiple times how Kim is actually trying to do the opposite of take advantage: he keeps trying to dismiss Chay and send him away, and Chay chases after him every time. He's a lovestruck kid that doesn't seem to have a healthy idea of boundaries.

I'm also firmly in the camp that Chay knew Kim was sus from the start. he is a terrible liar, not nearly the criminal mastermind that he pretends to be - honestly, I think Kim is a scared kid that gotten in over his head, and is trying to act more confident than he feels.

Which is the crux of my version of their reconciliation. They are both so young. Chay's in high school, Kim is either about to graduate college or just did, putting him at what. 21? 22? That's several younger than me. We have no idea about Kim's dating history, but we can assume based on Chay's... everything that this is his first attempt at a relationship, and it's clumsy. He jumps in with both feet, he confesses being in love before he even knows Kim's full name, let alone anything meaningful about him. And given how Kim is constantly surprised by Chay, I think this is probably his first attempt at a relationship, too. At least one like this.

I tend to meet any given media where it's at, and accept what it's trying to show me. In this case, I've said it before, I'll say it again: KinnPorsche were the action romance with a side of bodyguard + boss/employee, VegasPete was for the dark romance/bodice ripper girlies, and KimChay was meant to be the sweet high school/college romance. It wasn't supposed to be secretly dark and sinister. If anything, it was a coming of age story for Chay; getting his first heartbreak, being faced with the fact that the world isn't as kind as he thought it was (re: the mafia), and having a rebellious teen phase.

ALL OF THAT TO SAY.

At the end of the day, I think Chay is overwhelmed by everything going on in his life, and he can't be mad at Porsche, bc he doesn't have anyone else in his life that he can trust, so he takes all of those feelings of frustration and fear and dumps them at Kim's feet. Kim is easy to be angry at. Kim lied to him, used him, and broke his heart. So Chay is going to dye his hair, start partying with a bad crowd, and cry over the boy he thought he loved not loving him back.

But Chay also loves his brother more than anything. He would do anything for Porsche, even give up their childhood home and move to some small apartment somewhere just so he can be safe, or drop out of school to get a job so he can help with the bills. Everything Kim did, he did to keep his brother safe. And again, Kim never outright tries to make Chay fall in love with him.

Even The Scene at Kim's apartment isn't a huge betrayal to me. I think Chay went running to the one person that's been his rock since Porsche left, needing comfort and reassurance that something in his life is what he thought it was. When he didn't get hat from Kim, he fell apart. And Kim was an asshole in the way he went about it, yes, but he was just. Denying his feelings. He has the right to do that, and it's a pretty common romance trope. He was scared so he pushed Chay away, and it hit Chay so hard because he just lost what he saw as the one good/steady thing in his life, and now he's left adrift in this scary new world. Hell, maybe Chay even went to Kim, now armed with the truth, hoping that Kim could help him navigate life in the mafia, because Porsche certainly isn't doing it. He leaves Chay crying in his room to go out partying with his new family (which is the most heartbreaking scene in the whole show, for me. He did all of this for Chay, but at the very end, he leaves Chay behind)

Anyway. I think that after a little time and distance, all it would really take for Chay to forgive Kim, is just. A conversation. Once Chay realizes that yeah, he was pushy, he did come on strong, and that all the times Kim pulled away from him it wasn't because he was "playing hard to get", but because he didn't know what to do with Chay's intense feelings.

They need to examine how they approach other people (Chay by throwing his everything in at once, and Kim's habit of pulling away). They both have a lot of growing up to do. And I think, at the end of the day, that's what their story is trying to tell us. Heartbreak is just a part of growing up.

ANYWAY. Sorry to word-vomit at you like that. The tl;dr is that I don't think Kim really betrayed Chay, at least not more than any regular coming-of-age breakup story. I think they need to grow up, have some self-reflection, and come back with a better idea of who they are and what they want. After that, who knows what could happen!

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anon bc it won’t let me send asks from my sideblog ajdkdkdkd anyways it’s been 1 (one) minute since i’ve seen jeff’s outfit for spotify wrapped 2024 and my brain has been screaming KIMCHAY EDWARD SCISSORHANDS AU at top volume which i feel like you may appreciate as a brainworm even if it’s not something you want to write

WHAT A BRAINWORM!!!! I don’t remember enough of the plot to do much with it but I love love love the vibes 🤩🤩🤩🤩 thank you for sharing that 🤩🤩🤩🤩

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what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

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Hey how are you I'm new here and in love with kimchay

Hi hello welcome!!! So glad you found your way here!

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: KinnPorsche: The Series (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Porchay Pichaya Kittisawat/Kim Khimhant Theerapanyakun Characters: Porchay Pichaya Kittisawat, Kim Khimhant Theerapanyakun Additional Tags: First Time, Loss of Virginity, Oral Sex, Cuddling & Snuggling, Fluff and Smut, Bottom Kim Khimhant Theerapanyakun, Top Porchay Pichaya Kittisawat Summary:

Chay is about to lose his virginity to his boyfriend of two months, and he wants to make sure it’s a perfect first time for both of them. He gets some advice.

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It should feel ridiculous. They’re both standing half-naked beside his bed, just looking at each other, barely touching. Chay has his hands on the back of Kim’s neck, fiddling with his still-damp hair as it slowly dries. Kim keeps running his hands up and down Chay’s sides while a blush gradually spreads down his chest. But it’s… nice. Warm.

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Apparently a lot of people get dialogue punctuation wrong despite having an otherwise solid grasp of grammar, possibly because they’re used to writing essays rather than prose. I don’t wanna be the asshole who complains about writing errors and then doesn’t offer to help, so here are the basics summarized as simply as I could manage on my phone (“dialogue tag” just refers to phrases like “he said,” “she whispered,” “they asked”):

“For most dialogue, use a comma after the sentence and don’t capitalize the next word after the quotation mark,” she said.

“But what if you’re using a question mark rather than a period?” they asked.

“When using a dialogue tag, you never capitalize the word after the quotation mark unless it’s a proper noun!” she snapped.

“When breaking up a single sentence with a dialogue tag,” she said, “use commas.”

“This is a single sentence,” she said. “Now, this is a second stand-alone sentence, so there’s no comma after ‘she said.’”

“There’s no dialogue tag after this sentence, so end it with a period rather than a comma.” She frowned, suddenly concerned that the entire post was as unasked for as it was sanctimonious.

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Cam boy Chay AU where he wears a mask but hes well know for his happy personality and even if he covers his face he talks about himself a lot.

Cue Kim who had been stressed from working everyday, his schedule usually left him with only 1 to 2 free days where he really got to relax. He doesn't want to use Kinns escort service so he uses the internet and finds a cute cam boy who was so endearing and earnest when he spoke about himself that kim felt enamored by him

Anyway one day Chay does an unscheduled stream and kim is losing his mind cause his favourtie cam boy is wearing WIK merch and keeps talking about how he saw WIK live

and how had Kim not recognized him??? He had had to sign the shirt!

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a need to abide 'til the end of time

A Ghost, Lucid, and Rain God inspired Jeffcest fanfiction by bisexualbard @bisexualbard for mortimerlatrice @mortimerlatrice

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smash or pass a gentle summer rainstorm

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Chay goes with Kim to a show to support him, but bangs his head (/reads Kim’s cursed fanmail, the details are not important 🤣) right after Kim goes on stage and ends up with memory loss. From his perspective he woke up backstage of a wik concert so he’s convinced he’s having a weird dream

Kim finishes the show and high off of stage energy ravishes Chay backstage, confused yet delighted by Chay role playing a fan

Then after Kim is like “good times, ready to head back to our apartment?”

And Chay goes “what”

Is it silly? Is it angsty? Probably both! The possibilities are endless!

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Chay had to make himself smaller so that Porsche didn't spread himself too thin to protect him

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should i reread "the miserable art of finding your words and learning to use them" by bisexualbard and cry over "you were my brother first" for the next 8-10 business days yes or yes

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Okay so I can definitely make out

I M N O T A D … and then maybe another A?

I’m not a Damon????

wait is there braille on jeff’s neck in that promo picture

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wait is there braille on jeff’s neck in that promo picture

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Hey guys! I've recently noticed that I'm at almost 100 fics on AO3! (Again...) As such, I thought it would be fun to do a little fic giveaway. Idk where I would be right now if not for KimChay, but I can honestly say getting into KinnPorsche and meeting the people I have since then has changed and probably saved my life.

9 months ago I got out of a long-term relationship that I was only recently able to admit was abusive. I was socially isolated, depressed, and in real danger of failing out of college. Now I feel better than I have in years, I have a wonderful new circle of friends, including my other cookie @snickerdoodlles that I'm lucky enough to see IRL, I'm 5 months away from graduation at the top of my class, and I'm writing more than I thought possible. And it's all thanks to these angsty boys that never got their own happy ending.

So! I'll leave the details to the form itself, but this is the tl;dr. I'm going to be accepting prompts for the rest of this month; at the end I'll pick my favorites, then let you guys vote on the winner! My goal is to hit 10k words, but knowing me... we'll see if I can limit myself, lol.

Anyone and everyone is welcome to submit a prompt or three. We don't need to be mutuals, we don't even need to have spoken before. All I ask is that you have, at some point, read and enjoyed my fics!

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FIC REC!! This amazing piece by cellphonecharm_au ( @obscurecurse ) has been rattling around my head all day

“To be honest,” Chay mused, crossing his arms as he considered his wording, “I thought I wanted to study music. But now I… don’t want to. I don’t have any passions, other than finding a new passion. I’m looking for something else to fall in love with. I feel like I won’t know it until I see it.

“Ah, youth,” the man gushed, “That’s a wonderful answer, Khun.”

“It is?” Chay asked.

The man nodded.

“Do I detect heartbreak, too?” the interviewer asked.

“Uhhhh,” Chay faltered.

Not waiting for Chay to answer, the man spun his office chair around to the second desk behind him. He reached for a folder and pulled out a sheet of paper.

When he turned back to Chay his grin was huge.

“I may have a cure for your heartbreak. Have you ever considered that you were meant to love the sea?” the interviewer asked.