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This was the first time ever in my life that I was having my first sleepover. Yes, me and Nalla live in the same place. But to have someone over that was more like a sister to me. Is something that I’ve been looking forward to since  we talked about it with each other. Finally I was doing all the things that teenagers do. Go over to each other houses, do make overs, talk about boys and a bunch of other wonderful things. And I know that mom and dad had to be excited that I was opening up, enjoying life.

 Bitty: Rushing around my room, making sure that I had everything ready for when Nalla got here. It had been hard to sit still all day knowing that she was coming over. Snacks would be coming soon, not wanting them to go bad before the night had gotten on the way. Dad had brought in the tv so they could play her Xbox. I put a sign on my door, ‘party here no boy’s allowed’. Letting everyone know that it was just for me and Nalla tonight. Double checking everything once again. I turned on some music so not to count the time until it was time for the fun. And it was going to be so much fun! @Nalla_BDBRW

 Nalla: I was so excited having my first sleepover, and spending it with my “Sister bitty”.  I made sure I packed some games and my Xbox. I put my make up and loads of glitter into my bag that I had packed. Papa, do you think I have everything? He smiled, I looked up and gave him a kiss on the cheek, thank you for this. -Grinning wide- Have a safe rotation Papa. “I Love you” See you tomorrow. I got my things and rushed out the door, heading towards “Bitty’s room” Moving quickly through the mansion. @Bitty_BDBRW

 Bitty: Looking at the time once again. Oh this was getting silly, sister would get here as fast as she could. There was no reason to rush. They had the whole night together to have fun. Maybe I should just check and see if she was coming. Nodding my head I walk over to my door, opening it and peeking out. There down the hall I could see my sister. I couldn’t wait any longer. Rushing out the door with a big grin on my face. “Sister!!” I squealed as ran down the hall to her. “I’ve been looking for you!” Getting her as fast as I could. “Do you need help with your bags?” Seeing all that she carried in her arms. @Nalla_BDBRW

 Nalla: I was walking to my sister’s room all I could hear was her squealing “Laughing loud” I am coming grinning wide as she was running towards me. Looking for me? You knew I was coming I had to say goodnight to papa first, he is going out on rotation. You can help with the bags if you like, papa helped me pack. I have the Xbox and loads of games, guess what also I brought loads of glitter to loads of make up. I am so excited, Sister. We are going to have so much fun! @Bitty_BDBRW

 Bitty:Grinning wide as I laugh, “Yeah I was getting excited about you coming over.” Blushing, “I understand I’m just glad that you’re here sister!” Taking some of her bags from her hands. Squealing, “Did you raid Lass’s stash?” Giggling. “He seems to have a lot of glitter on hand.” Leading her down yo my room. “I’m excited too. Will have to take pictures of how we look when we’re all made up!” Getting to my room, opening the door and walking inside. “Come on inside sister!” Putting her bags down in my room. @Nalla_BDBRW

 Nalla: Steal Lass’s stash? “Laughing loud, no” I have my own, auntie Layla gave me some, I just love it! Pictures, sounds great. I bet we will get told of though, papa doesn’t like me wearing it, but a girls night hopefully he will be cool with it. I also have the Xbox and some games to play. What music have we got? “I can see it now if we put on Justin Beiber, everyone will come running or Yell!” -Laughs hard- Places myself on your bed, so what shall we do first, Sister? @Bitty_BDBRW

 Bitty: Laughing, “That is nice of her to give that to you. I never tried glitter on my face before. Only on dad.” Falling on the bed, “Oh yeah they would but they can’t come in here no boy’s allowed.” Nods curtly. Standing up from my bed to look at through the music. “We have Justin Beiber, One Direction, Backstreet Boys and NSYNC! I found them and liked them. THought you might too!” Looking around the room, trying to figure out what to do first. There was so much I wanted to do tonight. “Let’s listen to music and play on your Xbox!” Turning on some One Direction first. And working on getting the Xbox set up on the tv. “Want to pick the game sister?” Smiling at her. @Nalla_BDBRW

 Nalla: -Sure smiling, just need to decide what game to play. Singing along to the music, while we look for a game. Ohh, maybe this one? “Mortal Kombat” We can change if we get bored with it. Places the console’s on the floor, sits near the tv and passes a console to you, let’s play! -Shouting as I want to win.-  But I am nice let’s my sister win, as I think it’s only fair, grinning as I look over at you. Having fun, Sister? As we continue to play the game. @Bitty_BDBRW

 Bitty: Beams a smile at her, dancing along to the music. “That sounds like a great game!” Nodding and sitting on the floor beside her. Laughing not knowing what in the world I’m doing with this game. But I’m loving it all the same. Eyes going wide, “I actually won!” Dancing some on the floor. But I would let my sister win too. Grinning back at her, “Oh yes so much fun, Sister. I always wanted something like this and now I have it with you.” Reaching over to her and pulling her into a hug. “Thank you for being my sister and best friend.” Not meaning to stop the game. But I wanted my sister to know how much I cared and how much this meant to me. @Nalla_BDBRW

 Nalla: No, it’s totally fine Sister, awe you are going to make me cry, hugs you more. I was actually getting bored with the game. -Laughs softly- Do you have the song “Girls just wanna have fun”? We could put makeup on and have a dance around. I always wanted a sister to, being a teenager and alone it’s not a good thing, I am so glad you decided to come and live with us, you are special Bitty and you are not only my sister, but my best friend also. -Beams big- So let’s get some glitter and have fun! Can I put glitter on your face? @Bitty_BDBRW

 Bitty: Eyes going wide, “Oh no please sister don’t cry You’ll always have a sister. I’ll always be there for you no matter what.” .* Hugging her a little tighter. Letting her go and beaming a smile, “Yes I have that song!!” Jumping up off the floor and going over and putting on the song pretty loud. Turning and smiling at my sister. Bouncing back over to her sitting down on the floor facing her. “Yes please!! We’re going to look so pretty sister!” @Nalla_BDBRW

 Nalla: -Smiling wide- Thanks Sister as you will always have me! -Hugging you back tighter. I watch you get up and put on the song, grinning lots- I dance around singing loud, smiling wide as we both move. I smile as you come back over to me, we both sit and I lean into you.  I have these 3 little silver stars.  -I am going to put glitter on them, and then I place them under your beautiful left eye in a line under each other. I put some silver glitter on your eyes to match the stars, see so lovely, grinning lots- You can have a go at mine now, Sister. @Bitty_BDBRW

 Bitty: “You’re very welcome Sister.” Her words meant the world to me to hear. Giggling as I watch her dance. Dancing right along with her. My hands going up in the air. Feeling so loved and happy right now. I knew that I would always have Nalla in my life no matter what. Grinning wide as I watch her put the glitter on the stars. “Those are so pretty.” Closing my eyes as I lean to her and let her put the stars and glitter on me. Blinking my eyes when she got done. A wide grin spreads across my lips. Peeking at what I look like, “I love it sister!!” Nodding and looking through her things. Finding pink and gold stars, putting the glitter on the star’s. Placing them under her right eye. Then putting the pink and gold glitter on her eyes. “You look amazing Sister!” Grabbing my phone, I snap pictures of us together. Dancing around the room even more and just enjoying being with each other.

 The night was amazing, we become closer as sisters and best friends. A life long bond never to broken.

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New Family, New Home

This is the day that I had wait for. To come home to my new and wonderful family. After Mary, my mom and  my dad, Rhage asked me to come and stay with them. No words could express how excited that I was. To have a home that I didn’t have to live in fear, it was something that I never knew in my whole life. It was scary for me, yes. Because I didn’t know what it would be like to have that. To have a mom and dad that didn’t fight. A dad that didn’t hit me or my mom. I never knew that something like was real. Mom and dad had opened that world up to me. Now I had this whole family around me. That loved me and would protect me at all costs. I would be forever thankful for the life that I’m gifted.

 A life that I never thought that I would have. For so long I thought that I wouldn’t make it 18 years old. The life that I had lived before my mom and dad brought me into their lives. It was filled with fear, fear that I would be hurt worse then I was the day before. But I would take that for her, the woman that brought me into this world. And tried to give me a good life. Even though that was never possible for her. I was graced with two loving people. That treated in better in some many ways. That showed me it was not love to to hit, it was not love to live in fear for your life. They opened a new world for me. Even when I have my bad moments, where it gets to be to be to much for me. They are there for me. To help me through that moment. They are the answer to my prayers long ago forgotten.

 Now I have a home, that is filled with love. There is laughter and smiling faces. Ones that I have come know. At first it was hard for me. Many times I stayed close to my mom or even my dad. Because it was to much for me. Everyone wanted to meet me and get know me. That is something that I wasn’t use to. Who wanted to know about me? I wasn’t anything special. At the moment I’m just a human girl. That lives with the scars of my past. That most never see, because I don’t want them to see. But I know that mom and dad see. I don’t want them or anyone in my new family to see that. They are my scars to carry. No one ever should see what I have seen or go through what I went through in my past. And it is my goal to rise above my past.

 The first time that I met the brothers, that were all my uncles. I will admit here and now. They kind of scared me. They were so huge, but what made them softer to me. Were their smiles, they welcomed me into their home and their lives. Little ol me, Bitty. Always thinking that I had been forgotten. That I would never be found. They changed that for me. They loved me like I was part of their family. A family that would lay down their lives for one another. They would fight for one another and never leave one another behind. They are a true family. One that I’m thankful for each and every day of my new life. I wasn’t just some human girl, no I’m the daughter of their brother. One that would protect just as much as my mom or dad would.

 Now I have my good friend, my sister Nalla. The same age as I am. At first I was a little taken aback by her. She is a young carefree teenager. A way that I always wanted to be. To not have a worry in the world. She made see that it's ok to be teenage not to be so serious. To actually be who I am. And that is a very freeing feeling, all be it a scary one for me. But I’m slowly learning to be a kid. I have time to be an adult later on. I’m going to take my time and be carefree.

 The one thing that was hard for me. Was when my eyes fell upon Little Wrath. The son of King Wrath and Queen Beth. It was hard to see him. It brought back memories of the little brother that would never know nothing of this life. My birth mother, having lost him before he was born. I was scared when she lost him. And even though I never got to meet him. I still miss him just as much as miss my mother. I would have loved to have a little brother to play with. But that was never meant to be. He meant just for the time that he was given by the Scribe. And that time was precious even if it was a short little life. That will forever be missed.

 I got to meet the mates of my uncles, they are all just a sweet and lovely as they look. They are strong women that stand beside their hellren’s. That treat them in the ways that they should be treated, with such great love and respect. Just like my dad treats my mom. I don’t know if I’ll be able to get used to that. I never in my short life seen anything like it. It’s wonderful to see. I hope to get to know them better. Still I kind of shy away from people that I really don’t know. I’m learning to trust the others in the house. But it’s all a learning process for me. One I hope that will be easy for  all of us. I know that I’ll have my moments but as long as I have mom, dad and new family I know that I’ll be alright.

 One thing that really threw me was the doggen. Fritz, treated me in ways I never knew. For a older man he is very sweet. He let’s me picks flowers for my mom. Which I gave her on mother’s day. Seeing the smile on her face made my heart soar. He let’s me watch him cook. Which that makes me feel special. And I have to say he is one wonderful cook. The smells always make my tummy rumble. Which makes me giggle. He is always happy to feed me when I’m hungry. I can’t wait to learn more from him. I kind of followed him around a few days. Just to see what his job was like. He is a very busy man. I lost him a few times, but wherever there was something that needed to be done. That is where you would find him.

 Lass made me feel so very welcome in the home. And what can I say, he is one awesome angel. He maybe loud and out there, and love to give the brothers hell. He can always bring a smile to my face and make me laugh. When it seems that nothing else would work. Just like when my dad taught me how to drive his GTO. He let’s me sit with him and watch tv. Which is beyond fun for me. The way that he reacts is the best to watch. He pop’s up and my day is better for it. Even when he might be running from the brother’s for doing one thing or another.

 The men and women that train to become part of the brotherhood. I don’t know much about them. But from just seeing them. Some of them are very good looking. Not that I would ever tell that to anyone. Dad, I know wouldn’t like it. I don’t even think my uncle’s would like it either. That little nugget of info will only be shared with my sister, Nalla. And maybe one day my mom.

 The first night in my new home was very different for me. I was scared, when the metal shutter’s came down. Having been used to sleeping in a dark basement. At first it felt like a prison to me. That at any moment my father, the bastard. Would bust through the door, her my mother’s screams would fill the house. I laid awake for the longest time. My heart beating out of my chest with fear.As time went on, I saw that there was nothing to fear here. There was nothing that would come to hurt me. Not with my dad and uncles in the house. Now I can sleep through the night in knowing I’m safe and very much loved. Nothing will ever talk me away from this loveing and big family. That I have learned to love as my own. Because in the end they are my family. They were meant to be my family. The day that I took my first breath. This was the ending for my life. To end in the arms of a family that was made for me. That was made out of honor, love and respect. Long ago made by a hand of men.

 I don’t know what my future holds . But the one thing that I do know. Is that it will be filled with love. Love that will forever grow and become a strong and unbreakable bond. That will span the test of time.

 And as I once more close my door on the sounds of my home. After wishing my parents a good night. The laughter that fills every part of the home. The voices of all my family teasing each other. The sounds that once scared me, now bring a smile to my face. As I lift up my pray in thanks for the family that is now mine. I know that my future is a bright as I am. Because I have my family behind me. And that is what was always the path my life was and is to take.