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i like the sound of mourning doves, cicadas, trains in the distance

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oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad

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“I taste her and realize I have been starving.”

— Jodi Picoult 

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i have this unrealistic fantasy in my head where if you calmly and logically explain something to someone perfectly they will understand your position and gain knowledge from the exchange. unfortunately in the real world this does not happen often

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It turns out that you can become the person you’ve always envisioned but you’ll still have the person you were before inside of you and you have to treat them with as much forgiveness and love as possible

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It's like idk man, I still wash my paint brushes the way my art teacher taught me how a decade ago. I eat tortillas the same way as the ex I haven't seen in years. You can fly to the other side of the world and the shop will play the song your dad played in the car when you were a kid and it still sounds exactly the same. My hair grows funny in one spot because I got a scar on my scalp when I was six.

Sometimes I reach for light switches that aren't there, that have never been there, because I used to live someplace that had a light switch in that spot. And I think maybe life is about repeatedly reaching for light switches that aren't there. In a few years you'll be somewhere else, and you'll reach for the light switches you have now.

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i really like this thing where websites will have separate "log in" & "sign up" buttons and if you click "log in" it takes you to a sign-up screen anyway so you have to click "i already have an account" and then it will ask if you want to sign in with your facebook account or with instagram or linkedin or deviantart or whatever, and if you choose "username & password" it asks if you want to put in your username or use your thumbprint, and once you put your username & password it emails you a confirmation code, and once you put in the code it says "do you want to give us your phone number for future sign-ins? do you want to sign up for facial recognition? do you want to give us your bones? give us your fucking bones?

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love saying "question mark?" out loud when I'm talking about something i'm unsure of

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it was nice seeing you at the devil's sacrament

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i hope my future home has a basement. where else am i supposed to keep the Boy

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To Vérochka And do you recall the thunderstorms of our childhood? Frightful thunder over the verandah—and at once The most azure aftermath and on everything —diamonds? VN 14—VII—75 Davos

14 July 1975 Letters to Véra by Vladimir Nabokov

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a drink with ice in it. never kill yourself

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turning the knife inside yourself tonight queen?

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Get in the heart shaped locket, boy.

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I have to say, I'm so deeply proud of Contrapoints . I've looked up to her and loved her videos since I was 15, and I was so worried one day I'd wake up and see a "Death to Israel" post from her. Instead, she approached the subject with so much care and nuance. She called out Israel's actions while acknowledging the rampant antisemitism on the left. She did this knowing what blind outrage she'll face from hoardes of illiterate hateful goons on Twitter. I can't describe how grateful and safe I feel now.