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I will love you, even when you don't love me anymore.

When I picture how my love radiates out into the world, it looks somewhat like an atom; a core with zooming little rays round it (like the diagrams they make you draw in school). The core is in the center of my chest, not off the the left like the heart would be. In front of the the core is a double door that can either be opened or closed; depending on if I'm open to sharing or receiving love at the time. If the door is open, then the rays shoot out of the door and engulf the people in close proximity to me.

When I have a partner, they are always near and I'm ready to give them my love at all times; the door is ALWAYS open. Is that a good or bad thing? I don't really know, nor do I care. It's just the way it is.

Maybe they're less like rays and more like heat waves, always seering with intensity? Something like that, I guess? Or maybe it's just the energy I feel?

When partners stop loving me it hurts so much because they've been so close to that core, my true essence of being. The center of me, the good and the bad but still love nonetheless. On a random day they pull back, close their door to me, but mine is still open? The connection is severed and I won't realize it until it's too late. The door is locked and the key has been thrown away forever. Anyway, it's always too late for me to notice, to put my guard up, to lock my door too.

Even though the door is closed, it feels like they took a part of me and I'll never get it back. I love too hard and I lose myself in the other person. Every goddamn time. So, I'm the problem... But I have the choice to move on, grow, discover new and better things about myself.

So slay!

Anyway, how do other people feel their love go into the world? Do they even feel it? Do they think about it at all? Do others experience the opening and closing of this imaginary door or am I just crazy?

Also, I do believe everything is energy. Choose to be on a higher wavelength, experience life to its fullest, and never limit yourself to the growth and love you deserve!

Okay, bye!!