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me after finding out her old home addresses, current home address, middle name and maiden name, her sibling’s names along with their instagram, her socials, her husband’s full name, list of family members and their ages, her kid’s social medias, the church she attends every Sunday, the location, where she works at (because i went there, her sign and rising, her marriage certificate, what political party she’s involved with, her mother’s day poem, a picture of her when she was in her late teens - early adulthood, her dog

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･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. i don't even want you. not really.

i don't want you to be my boyfriend. and i don't want to be your girlfriend.

i don't want to marry you. and i don't want to uproot your white-picket life with your wife and children.

i don't want you to whisper me sweet nothings and tell me im your one and only.

i just want us to have something.

i want us to share knowing looks. i want you to think im pretty.

i want you to take advantage of my naivety. tell me im being stupid.

i want you to place your hand on my back when you squeeze past me. pat my head affectionately. hold my face and call me dear. tell me im lovely.

i know you can never be mine.

so please at least let me be yours.

.·:*¨¨* ≈☆≈ *¨¨*:·..·:*¨¨* ≈☆≈ *¨¨*:·..·:*¨¨* ≈☆≈ *¨¨*:·.

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I LOVE DOING THIS!!!!

Girls even if we can't be with our teachers in real life, in the Sims we can still create a happy marriage with them and have 10 children and 6 cats and 2 dogs....just saying!

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i really wish we could’ve met under different circumstances.

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I WANT П SO BADLY I JUST WANT TO SIT AND STRADDLE HER LAP AND MAKE OUT WITH HER. I WANT TO PULL HER HAIR AND HEAR HER BREATHE AND MOAN I WANT HER SO BAD UGDHDBSH

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Theres just something about middle aged authority figures who give me even the smallest amount of attention

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just met my councilor for the first time and she’s so cute. her legs are so scrumptious looking.

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i try to find you in every person i meet but no one comes close

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wipe her tears , cup her face and put your lips on hers while they’re still swelling

it’s what my mom’s daughter would want

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i want her to mother me and tell me everything will turn out to be okay but then tell me everything will be okay as long as i’m by her side and make out

having a tc be like she is simultaneously my mother, my girlfriend, my wife and my best friend. i want her to hug me and take care of me but also to kiss me etc etc like no wonder i’m emotionally unstable dam

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if only she’d hold me while i cry over my past wounds & mommy issues

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i feel like a fish princess who’s fallen for someone who’s out of reach

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i wonder what she’s up to

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i wish i was next to her when waking up but just a bunch of pillows pressed against all over my body to pretend it’s her warmth.

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universe make her dream about me

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i wonder if she thinks of me at all. i highly doubted it there’s nothing to look back on. she most likely forgot about me by the time i had left the school. it’s been years and on top of that she has a husband!!!! this obsession is genuinely unhealthy because of how fucking pathetic i feel.

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i often think about what side of the bed she sleeps on, if she brushes her teeth before getting into bed, if she tells her husband goodnight and kiss him with her pink lips to then sleep close together while i grip my pillow because the thought of not being able to have someone find something in me is like trying finding a needle in a haystack. i’ll grip my pillow even harder when sobbing while she’s putting her head in the crook of his neck taking in his scent as her body falls into a slumber state.

how i wish that was me.