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i want the sadness fucked out of me, i want him to wipe my tears away as he’s balls deep inside me, squishing me with his weight as he goes “shh, shh, it’s okay, pretty girl. it’s okay.”

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i have a sprained rib and every single movement hurts so damn bad

the universe cockblocked me basically

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:)

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“ooh, i care, i care, i care”

- olivia rodrigo, lacy

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feeling like revitalising this blog maybe … might even make it aesthetic

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being in yr 20s is like every day is a Try Not To Spend 40$ Challenge and i keep losing

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update im dating another guy now calling him purple

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i’m so painfully human.

i just read some lore in a video game and i started feeling bad for some made up people

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just remembered the whole joke i did on sunday about u going for an egirl next. one with dyed hair. red.

i didn’t even think about her.

it makes so much sense.

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things i wish i could tell u rn

7/12/22

the christmas tree i bought monday was put out today

every single thing reminds me of u

especially the colour brown. how could u ruin the colour brown for me

i just finished work,,, managed to distract myself for a while but now it hurts again

the weird things i did at work today

- brought 10 bags of cardboard to the recycling

- wrapped some empty boxes to put underneath the tree, very neatly

- made a new friend i think

- couldn’t stop thinking about u

found the red haired girl on tiktok. fuck you

i miss u. i miss what we were before the spotify fight.

saw the changes u made to ur bumble account. i hate knowing i was right. why do you keep proving my worst thoughts right.

i hope ur missing me too

i want to talk to u so bad

seriously having second thoughts abt the no contact thing today was really hard.

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he was doing so good but now im crying again.

im so upset its like,,, every time i share smth he just fuckinh tunes out. its like im talking to a wall or something.

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our relationship has been doing so good recently i’m so confused but i am very happy with this development

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ALSO?!?!? HES DRAWIBG ME RN AND IDK HOW TO FEEL

IM VERY VERY GRATEFUL RHAT HES DOING IT AND IM LIKE FUCK YESSS BC ITS AN HONOR

i’m also kinda scared to see how he views me what if the drawing is bad 🥲

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IM SO CONFUSED WHY IS HE BEING ALL GOOD BOYFRIEND NOW I DIDNT EVEN LET HIM KNOW I WAS GONNA GIVE BIM A DEADLINE OR ANYTHING

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HE SAID HE WOUKD MAYBE CALL ME TOMORROW

BARE MINIMUM BUT WE BALL

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i’m giving him till december.

if he makes me more sad than happy then i’m not going to stay in this situationship

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you make me feel so small sometimes

how do you manage to make me feel so unimportant to u every single day it’s insane

“i care so much about u”

i don’t believe it. u don’t care as much as you would like to.