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Hello

You already know, that there’s some part of me

That can’t stay away from some part of you

And I can’t decide if it’s right or wrong

That’s why a simple hello disappears by design

To get your attention and to let you know

That I’m right here, I never let go.

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i just have one small question.

are you done with me yet or are you playing hard to forget?

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it’s me, not you.

It doesn’t fucking matter

Inside of my mind lives the mad hatter

All I hear is static, incoherent chatter

And we can’t agree on which of us is sadder

But I know it’s me because you don’t get it

I said goodbye and I swear that I meant it

You can do no wrong, you’ll never admit it

The truth is worse, we’ve both become addicts

Now I’m just trying to break the habit

But you like me this way, confused and defenseless

The constant tug of war has made you pretentious

If I fold, if I share what I’m thinking

And I tell you that I can’t stop drinking

To forget, to remember, to keep myself shrinking

At night, alone, to prevent me from sleeping

The smaller I am the less space you take up

If it’s just me, then I’ll take the blame

I’ll stop responding and I’ll change my name

Unplug my phone, and resign from this game

I’m tired, just knowing, you're never going to change

and we, you and I, we will never be the same.

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mulligans on repeat

and i wonder if you still think of me

or if you spend all your time haunting my dreams.

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ISFY

i still feel you

like a dull ache in my empty chest

[that i] deny deny deny

this is a testament to regret

fill my cup with misplaced pride

ego in check, better late than never

there’s no such thing as forever

our broken promises keep us tethered

[but i] deny deny deny

it never meant much to me

a tiny blip in my history

a rip in the fabric that's wrapped around your neck

we fell in and out so quick

a little less love a lot more tactic

[and you] deny deny deny

it’s a shallow game we play

when hello really means goodbye

and foundations are built on lies

but at least they’re small and white

did i dodge a bullet or give up out of spite

[so we] deny deny deny

misplaced emotion, we declared our devotion

to a fragmented reality

that was never going to be

more than it was, greater than it is

slightly more than we’ve become

[and i] deny deny deny

the silence reminds us how far we've regressed

so we sit with this mess that we've created

reflect on the time we spent debating

you kept score, and i kept waiting

full of hope, there'd be something worth saving

[try to] deny deny deny

all your feelings are invalid

your mouth lies better than your eyes ever did

a small deception, despite intention

wasted potential, we have to live with it

so we deny and pretend

assign blame at the end

so its easier to sleep but impossible to mend