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I want to kill myself

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i am so excited for winterrrr 🪞🦢🕯❄️

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I want to die.

I regret ever being born. I regret ever thinking I could have friends. Or a partner. I regret being awake. I regret everything I’ve ever done.

I regret not killing myself when I was 16 and I’m angry I’m too weak to do it now.

I want to die.

I want to kill myself.

I want to stop existing.

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protect her and keep her safe…

…worship my hips and waist

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I would kill for this body

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Feels bittersweet returning to tumblr 😕🙂😅

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ok but this >>>>>

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𝙈𝙔 𝘽𝙊𝘿𝙔'𝙎 𝙇𝙊𝙊𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙒𝙍𝙊𝙉𝙂

𝙈𝙔 𝘽𝙊𝘿𝙔'𝙎 𝙇𝙊𝙊𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙒𝙍𝙊𝙉𝙂

𝙈𝙔 𝘽𝙊𝘿𝙔'𝙎 𝙇𝙊𝙊𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙒𝙍𝙊𝙉𝙂

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i've never hated my body more than i do now

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Thigh goals 💙

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When I saw I lost a total of…

5 lbs, my wrists seemed less chunky

10 lbs, the back of my shoulders seemed less round

15 lbs, I had lost the hunch behind my back and my stomach had gotten smaller, plus my jawline started showing

20 lbs, my collarbones and the ribs above my breasts started showing, my neck had gotten smaller and my cheekbones started showing

25 lbs, my hipbones were visible when I layed on my bed, and my thighs so tinier when I sat on the shower floor

30 lbs, my arms seemed thinner. I could see bones, nerves and muscle working under layers of fat that had vanished

35 lbs, my calves seemed much more toned than before, and my stomach got even smaller, to the point where I could see my ribs instead of a roll

40 lbs, I became more confident when trying on clothes while shopping

45 lbs, my breasts started shrinking fast, I hadn’t lost in that zone yet

50 lbs, my boss noticed my weight loss and said “wow, is it me or everytime I see you, you’ve gotten smaller?”

55 lbs, I went through my clothes and sent more than half of them to thrift stores

60 lbs, I took a look in the mirror and saw no double chin, no back rolls and no round tummy

At first, you don’t notice the changes. After a year, you’ve forgotten where you even started. But once you start paying attention, you see the results of all those times you cried, starved, overworked yourself or purged. I swear, one day I’ll extend this list to 95 lbs.

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