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I probably won't return to tumblr but I just wanted to say I miss you guys so much! Life is good rn, chaotic... but good. I hope my friends on here are doing well. If anyone wants to contact me plz comment or dm and I can give you some way to text me!

I'm so in love with my girlfriend and I just wanted to say that being a lover is entirely worth everything. My life has changed completely for the better, and I have so much reason for everything now. She's the most perfect, understanding, caring, and loving person I've ever met, and I'm so lucky to call her mine :'-) It's been a rollercoaster in my life lately, but she is my moving force, she's everything, she is a true miracle. I could go on forever about her but I don't even have enough words. We are perfectly compatible, and every hardship makes us stronger, together. I'm truly growing into myself for the first time, and growing into each other is a goddamn blessing. I love her so much and my life is beginning. She understands me and she supports everything I do, as long as it's not harmful. I wish this sort of love and communication would find everyone, and I hope you all receive this as well. Love is everything!

I got off track here but I thought I'd give a lil(not lil) update for no real reason. Oh but I did release a new song! I have a few covers planned too ;-) here's a link

Love ya guys, please take care of yourselves and find your happiness. I won't be returning to social media, I feel so much different and BETTER without it. My OCD still sucks ass, but at least I'm not actively harming my mental health by seeing bullshit and news every moment on my phone. Instead I've been enjoying music lots and playing games! Much art as well! I hope you all keep your sights on the positive. Don't let social media spin you out of control. You don't deserve that. Listen to your hope and optimism. You are worth everything. Thank you all for everything, but I must retire from tumblr ;-0

Have a safe and wonderful 2025!

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I'm gonna take a break from tumblr. Idk for how long but I can't keep sacrificing my mental health for the sake of potential interaction. It's only hurting me more, and I need to prioritize my health and my relationship with my girlfriend much more. If anyone wants to stay in contact or anything, I'll be on Pinterest, but otherwise I'm mostly staying away from Tumblr. Thank you all, and best wishes❤️‍🩹 stay safe, stay sane, and take care of yourself and your loved ones. You are all deserving of love and support.

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Untitled II, 2000 David Lynch

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Twiggy photographed by Douglas Kirkland in 1970

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2003

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Trying To Not Feel Doomed Tuesday

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we have got to start putting gargoyles on buildings again

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I love you trans people I love you so much I'm so glad you're alive I'm so glad you're here I'm so glad you exist

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Garth Hudson just died. Whatthefuck. I literally just finished watching the Last Waltz THIS morning and I was thinking so much about the Band and Garth and how it's so sad that he's the last remaining besides Bob. And much more thinking. Fucking fuck this week just keeps getting worse. I could go on forever about this but ohmygod the timing of everything is killing me I wanna tear everything apart

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I can't fucking think about this shit anymore. I'm clinging onto my hope but it's dwindling ngl and I just feel like a scared kitten left out in the cold. I hate everything. I honestly don't know how much I can stay on any sort of social media rn. I can't do this

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Real ones cry at the end of the Last Waltz holy FUCK :-((( the way they convinced Bob to stay and you can see his insecurities on his face and his doubt in himself, but then everyone comes out and its such a beautiful farewell and then Robbie's face at the end :-( goddamn :-(( I'm so glad they could tell their stories in their time and find their expression. I'm so thankful for these musicians, they've taught me everything ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 mmm goddamn

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Seeing Scorsese go fanboy mode when talking to the Band is so goddamn funny and cute and also so so sad cuz that was the end of it all </3 thank god he could capture it nonetheless

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well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

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and you better believe I'm stirring occasionally

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Emily Dickinson, in a letter to Louise and Frances Norcross (Letter 225), September 1860