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I’ve forgotten how to live.

In the midst of the tears and shallow, empty breaths I have become I have forgotten what it is to live.

I have forgotten how to greet the day with an empty head and a subdued heart,

With a low, deep flow of blood that neither boils nor freezes,

With eyes that will not tremble and weep at the mere promise of tomorrow

Or the day after.

Oh,

I have forgotten how to live,

But I was never taught how to die.

I was not raised with an innate,

Inane,

Fear of a god who created me, loved me, knew me and slipped into my sinner’s soul.

I was not taught who to greet at gates beyond this world,

Beyond my own mind and the human gates of my rib cage.

I was not promised a life after mine,

A world after mine,

Salvation after mine.

Yes,

I have forgotten how to live,

But to never know how to die,

To only have her decide and strangle me on terms not mine,

And to bring me to a home I won’t recognize,

Is a far more painful fate.

My life holds no faith,

But at least this misery and this burned film, a mocking documentary,

Is mine,

Of my own destructive volition.

I have ruined any memory of how to live,

But I was never, never taught how to die.

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Kaya ko pa!

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Lights will guide you home.

Fix you ♡

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I'm so inlove with you.

And I hope you knew

My love might be boring and less exciting.

But I know that it is sure, pure, and true.

Even if time passes and everything changes,

It will always be you.

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Minsan matatawa ka nalang kong paano ka paglaruan nang mundo, habang pinoprotektahan mo yong mga bagay na mahalaga sayo.

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I guess I just feel like

Nobody's honest

Nobody's true

Everyone's lying

To make it on through

I guess I just feel like

I'm the same way too

[bouyancy11]

Di okey ang laging mabalewala. Dimo alam kong may halaga ka ba. Kong may hinihintay ka ba. Kong may aasahan ka ba.

Pakiramdam mo lagi dika mahalaga. Ang hirap kaya non at di okey yon. Pero dimo nakita at naramdaman sakin na di okey yon, na di ako okey at nasasaktan ako. At siguro dimo na malalaman ang mga yon. Yon ang kaya kong dalhin kapalit nong mga konteng oras na makita ka, maikling pagkakataon na makasama ka at magkaroon lang nang panahon na nakakausap ka.

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Sana maging okey lahat nang tao na mahalaga sakin, ibigay mo na po sakin lahat nang kamalasan nila 😌

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And, I'm sad again. 🙃

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Hey, what you're feeling at the moment, don't let it go. Stay motivated.

#Aim High!

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If fate is true, does that mean I'll meet you some day? Please be true, I really need you.

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"FaceMask"

Not that you can't swim, though.

It's just that the load is heavy enough that you could drown.

And to smile is how you carry on.

Although you may not know how long it can withstand the storm.

02/15/2021

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"ATRIY"

And I thought the game was just starting, but in the blink of an eye, I can see it's ending.

Looking from either side of the four corners, I found no hope.

I've struggled so hard to keep the ball from falling.

But how come I can't quit playing?

02/13/2021

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I don't know where I'm going

Or how far I can go

But no matter what it takes

It may not lead to you

I'll still want to take this ride

[bouyancy11]

#HSdays😅#Oldpiece

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"Alaala"

Mata'y nakapikit na ngunit diwa'y gising pa

Sapagkat di man naisin kusang bumabalik siya

Pansamantalang kasayahang dala ngunit kalaunay lungkot na

Alaala pala ay gaano man kasaya

Kong ikaw nalang nakakaalala

Paano pa magiging masaya?

January 15 , 2020/ Monday

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Saan ba patungo?

Nang biglang maalimpungatan, nasa gitna na nang paglalakbay

Nagpalingon-lingon sa paligid may pinipilit matanaw

Ngunit kawalan ang nakikita walang bakas nang simula

Ni di masilayan ang dulo, kong meron man ano kaya?