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Does anyone else get like. Mad. When able bodied people complain because they got a fraction of a taste of what you deal with every day? I saw a video of a woman complaining about how hard it is on her to have to actively work to be healthy (eating right, hydrating, exercising, etc) and like. Yes. Its exhausting. Imagine having to do that 100x harder because working to be "healthy" for me is being bedridden or having to weigh important chores against my body's ability or having to skip out on things I want to do because I physically cannot do them. I'm sure having to make sure you eat enough protein every day is so so hard though.

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when the doctor says the only idea he has for treating my super wild and rare genetic disorder is trying out a ketogenic diet except the only diet you've done in the past was unhealthy caloric restriction tee hee this isn't gonna cause problems for sure

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putting my SI back into place I've learned can go a few ways

thunks back into place with very little pain

thunks back into place with a fair amount of pain that lasts for a bit

creaks and crunches back into place, doesn't hurt too much usually but an awful sound and feeling

and the last option, oh god it stuck itself somewhere horribly wrong and I'm being stabbed if I move my leg until it's correct again

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Free Cricut Sticker Guide!

This is a niche but useful tool I made. If you use a Cricut machine for stickers and print on 8.5 x 11 paper then feel free to take this guide image and upload into cricut design space. Steps below if you wanna use this!

When you add this image to your canvas set it to about 7.4 inches width by 9.9 inches height. Add whatever stickers you wanna make together into the space and make sure they are within this shape. Turn this shape invisible in the layers section of your canvas, and attach all the stickers together. If you kept everything inside the shape I made then there should be no errors and you will be using the maximum amount of space possible with cricut's print then cut setup.

I made this because I found the corners to be fickle to work within and so far having this guide instead of guessing and checking has made it a lot easier. I hope it helps you too!

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hi tumblr im back (thank u to oomf for putting me on this)

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i am so incredibly sure that texting me constantly complaining about how tired you are isn't gonna make it better for the love of god you chose to pick up those extra days no one forced you

you know the job you work you knew what you were getting into, hate to tell you 5-6 days without a break actually isnt world ending and is honestly pretty common

doesn't mean it doesn't suck but oh my god I can't make it better please stop complaining

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the problem is ive already relapsed once and now thats over with i wanna do it again but then im gonna have to tell my partners I did it again and i don't want that guilt

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Just got to do some woodworking for the first time in a long while, and I am once again reminded of why I enjoy my favorite type of word to work with: Purpleheart.

Why’s it called purpleheart?

Muthafuckin’ purple wood. How cool is that? It’s brown when you cut it, but due to oxidization, eventually turns to a beautiful purple color. (if you don’t seal it at this stage, it’ll eventually turn red, I believe, which is still pretty, but you buy purpleheart for purple, damnit!)

And everything you make with it turns out amazing.

Purple floors?

Nice.

Purple stairs?

Fancy.

Purple table?

Sweet.

Purple guitar?

Awesome.

Purple whatever the hell is going on here?

Epic.

It’s just such a cool wood to work with, and it’s sturdy enough to be used for just about anything. If I ever get a house, half of it might just end up being made out of purpleheart.

Anyway, that’s enough nerdery for one post. I will now return to reblogging stupid pictures and recipes.

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obsessive thoughts are so fun because this month my period is just a little funny and therefore I'm like halfway convinced that im absolutely definitely pregnant but the fun part is I have this gut feeling that I'm actually right about it this time and I actually am pregnant which means that even though I don't exactly wanna be pregnant right now when I take a test later and it's negative I'm probably still gonna be upset for a mystery reason

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I can't stress enough how much I miss StumbleUpon

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Information on DIY HRT, in case anyone needs it.

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would absolutely fucking love it if you stopped acting like you're the only one doing poorly when you're also the only one who can't figure out how to talk about it all

do you think it's an easy thing to talk about? it is not!!! my heart feels half broken and you're upset about a trip when it seems you hardly wanna talk to the only person other than us that's going? when every trip im forced to be the planner because or else it won't fucking happen? im exhausted and you're mad about a stupid trip that im the one who wanted to go to begin with?

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i just choke up everytime i see the mark from the engagement ring I've worn for 4 years.

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truly, what are you supposed to do when you find a soulmate that no longer feels the same?

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why let me continue to intertwine our lives (including my credit) if you knew you were losing feelings for ages now?

i want to be horrifically angry but I just don't have the ability because I don't think you wanted the feelings to leave either

I don't want to be at work

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unexpected deaths are so hard always but especially when you're a kid, it's impossible to know what to say or do. then you're in your 20s and not a kid, now a young adult, still clueless, and now still expected to go to work the next day.

when i was called I found myself parroting the things i always heard my mother say when family of someone else who is practically family passes, "im so sorry, let me know absolutely anything we can do to help, company, food, anything" and "let me know the arrangements" and it shocked me how much i sounded like her, speaking her words that my mother's mother still says every time she gets that same call. like a practiced speech.

none of the words felt like mine.

i am not a stranger to death. but this time it felt like i truly had no words to convey how sad, upset, and angry at the world i feel because whatever powers that be allowed this to happen to my family-like friend who deserves everything good and seems not to get it.

i am in my early twenties. i should not be learning how to give the condolences speech yet, not for anyone other than grandparents and other older relatives. I shouldn't have to give that speech to my family-like friend who's barely older than me about someone barely older than them. i shouldn't have had to listen to my fiancé give that speech to a mother who lost her child who we knew.

i am tired beyond words of grieving people who hardly got to live.

when i got the call there were some words that felt like they belonged to me. "i love you"s said multiple times as a reminder, as an unsaid "please don't go too", meant with every tired fiber in my body "i love you"

"shit oh my goodness im so sorry"

"if there's anything you need at all"

"let us know about the arrangements when y'all know"

"love you buddy im so sorry"

im so tired.

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far too young too learn how to deal with these things