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"this character wouldn't-" i had sex with him in my mind palace. come back with a warrant.

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I'm so sick of being misgendered. I want a deeper more masculine voice. Voice training is so fucking slow

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My dysphoria is so fucking bad today oh my g*d

Hitting it with hammers. GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY. KNIFE HANDS KNIFE HANDS KNIFE HANDS.

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(affirming myself in the mirror) if that fictional man was real he would fuck you. He would fuck you. You're his exact type. If he saw you he'd get a boner instantly. He would fuck you he would fu

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good morning to all robotfuckers and mecha kissers and people who think lovingly about maintenance in cramped spaces

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Puttig this on this blog becuz idk how ppl on main will feel abt this but. My friend keeps trying to make me gay for AM and it is. Quastionable.

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having weird kinks and being horny a lot of the time but having sexual trauma is insane. At least I don't feel guilty for having sexual thoughts anymore but the idea that people are attracted to me sexually makes me want to vomit. I'd let fictional characters fuck me, sure, but I don't know if I can ever enjoy sexual intimacy with another person ever again

I've always felt like people just saw me as a sex object, someone to thrust their frustrations and unsafe thoughts onto. I don't know what makes me so sexually attractive to others, I'm literally just a nice fucking person? As if me being a nice person is some sort of new kink. Ugh I don't know anymore

Maybe one day I'll fall in love with someone who wants me for me, loves me for more than just for what I do for them sexually.

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yearning for my robot boyfriends and at the same time wanting little to do with them. augh

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the craziest shit almost happened to me today btw. almost got a boyfriend but his mom didn't like me, sooooooo

guess I can keep the streak going 🙃

Fuck my luck with love is fucking terrible. I want a boyfriend who will love and care for me like I will for him, and I don't wanna have to worry about shit keeping us apart.

Worst part is I tried to check in on him later, but he really didn't seem happy to see me so I feel really bad now!!

Motherfucker unlimited Istg. I'm not gonna date anyone again if this shit keeps happening to me

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i made some signs..hehehe

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man I feel like shit, for plenty of reasons but mainly:

bad pain night. my legs hurt really bad, and im stuffy and have a migraine

im burnt out severely from everything. i want to drop everything, walk into the woods and never be seen again tbh.

lamenting over the fact that i dont have a partner, even though i also know that i dont think i should be dating anyone right now. like, idk. i simultaneously wish i had a partner that cares about me, and at the same time i never want to date anyone ever again because im sick of being mistreated

too damn hot in my fucking room

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Another reason I don't really date people anymore: Whenever I am I a romantic/ sexual partnership with someone, and I express my boundaries.., 🙃 they always freak out and guilt trip me with sui/sh bait.

It pisses me off and makes me feel like I'm not allowed to have boundaries.

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I am aboutta be so fucking done istg

I tell this guy "Hey please tone it down with the sexual stuff with me, I have a lot of sexual trauma and this is starting to trigger it"

And instead of keeping his stuff to himself he ignores my wishes and still yaps :X

I am sick of my wishes being disrespected. I'm going to have to toughen up and tell him to flat out Stop. He's a friend so I don't like having to be assertive and bossy, and he came to me for help w his problems... But man I tried to be nice and explain myself, but clearly that isn't working.

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See, real people being creeps towards me freaks me out. But if it was, like, Sun or Moon flirting with me?? Or any of my other f/os??

I don't care if they're being creepy towards me, I'm letting them manhandle me to the goddamn panhandle.

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I know i dont NEED to post every time i get flirted with but. 😭 Is what I just experienced even real?

I was hanging out with some folks I just met tonight in my usual game. We decided to let our inner demons out, so to speak, and I'm very afraid I accidentally came off as a manic pixie dream femboy. Because when we decided to play We Listen But We Don't Judge, one of them kept flirting with me but in an extremely overt sexual manner. And its like. Umm hmmm ...

I have to mention this person was like. 16? And I kept telling them to not say that kinda stuff towards me but uhhh. Yeah. They did get banned from the room I was in, but like. Wow... Okay then...

Really not helping my streak of bad luck with how many ppl are weird or creeps towards me :( Man I just wanna find someone who I can actually date who isn't a huge creep towards me ...

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I dont exactly have a personal slight against the whole daddy kink thing, cuz I can personally separate it from Other Stuff, and i dont have a father myself so for me it wouldnt really link up to a perceived sexualization of incest (which. Yknow. I heavily dislike incest fetishization in general. I find it gross and unhealthy.)

But also like. I'm kinda bored of all these guys I have / had a sex thing with wanting me to call them daddy. You are not built like a daddy you built like a high school flunky dropout

Again. I dont mind it. But it bores me a little bit

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I hate admitting this but I'm kinda jealous with how many of my friends are dating, especially dating each other. Like, I'm also proud of them for finding genuine connections they love and cherish on such a deep level. But also all I get are creeps or people I'm not interested in dating... And all the people I AM interested in are already dating someone else, and I'm not polyamorous so I wouldn't do a poly thing with them.

Like .. at the end of the day, its not their fault for finding love, and I know it's a personal problem with myself. I feel like a vindictive bitch when I admit that I'm kinda upset at seeing how many people around me are so happy, and all I get is shit...

Its kinda funny saying I'm jealous of them and yet, I'm both arospec and acespec, and not exactly interested in most people outside of fictional characters. Idk, I'm just a walking talking contradiction.

And I'm not normally this bitchy but I've flummoxed myself into a bad mood. So yeah I'm gonna be bitchy for a while.