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Te conocí un día de enero

Con la luna en mi nariz

Y como vi que eras sincero

En tus ojos me perdí

Qué torpe distracción

Y qué dulce sensación

Y ahora que andamos por el mundo

Como Eneas y Benitín

Ya me encontré varios rasguños

Que me hicieron por ahí

Pero tu loco amor

Es mi mejor doctor

Voy a curarme el alma en duelo

Voy a dejarme como nueva

Y todo va a pasar

Pronto vere el sol brillar

Yo más que nadie, merezco ser feliz

Ya vas a ver

Cómo van sanando poco a poco mis heridas

Ya vas a ver cómo va la misma vida

A decantar la sal que sobra en el mar

Y aunque hayas sido una extranjera hasta en mi propio país

Si yo te digo, "¿cómo dices?"

Tú aún dices, "what are you saying”?

Y lloro de emoción

Oyendo un bandoneón

Y aunque parezca despistada

Con ese caminar pausado

Conozco la razón que hace doler mi corazón

Por eso quise hacer esta canción

Ya vas a ver

Cómo van sanando poco a poco mis heridas

Ya vas a ver cómo va la misma vida

A decantar la sal que sobra en el mar

Ya vas a ver

Cómo van sanando poco a poco mis heridas

Ya vas a ver cómo va la misma vida

A decantar la sal que sobra en el mar

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I miss you.

God, I miss you like breath in the lungs of the drowning.

Like silence in a room that used to echo with us.

I am clawing at the walls of what we used to be,

and I don’t even know if I’m making a sound.

I don’t know how to act.

I don’t know what to say.

Every word I try to form

feels like another nail in something I’m still trying to revive.

I’ll take the blame.

All of it.

Even if it crushes me,

even if it wasn’t all mine to carry—

if carrying it brings you back,

I’ll do it with my bare hands and a broken spine.

I want to fix it.

I want to fix me.

Even if I don’t know where to start,

even if I’m walking blind into a storm that I helped create.

This pain?

It’s in places I never knew existed.

It doesn’t just ache—it begs.

It begs for a chance, for forgiveness, for time to rewind.

I am desperate.

Not in a way that’s pitiful—

but in a way that’s real,

the kind that makes your soul scream quietly at night

while you pretend you’re fine to the world.

I didn’t know I was losing.

I didn’t know I had the power to lose something so sacred.

But now that I do,

I will fight—even if I don’t know how.

Even if all I have left are shaky hands and a tired heart.

Please just don’t let this be the end.

Please don’t let this be the last chapter.

I don’t want to write a story without you in it.

I miss you.

And I’m still here.

Even if all that’s left of me is a whisper

and a desperate hope

that love might still be enough.

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May you have auspiciousness and causes of success May you have the confidence to always do your best May you take no effort in your being generous Sharing what you can, nothing more nothing less May you know the meaning of the word happiness May you always lead from the beating in your chest May you be treated like an esteemed guest May you get to rest, may you catch your breath

And may the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows And may the road less paved be the road that you follow

Well here's to the hearts that you're gonna break Here's to the lives that you're gonna change Here's to the infinite possible ways to love you I want you to have it Here's to the good times we're gonna have You don't need money, you got a free pass Here's to the fact that I'll be sad without you I want you to have it all

Oh! I want you to have it all I want you to have it I want you to have it all

May you be as fascinating as a slap bracelet May you keep the chaos and the clutter off your desk May you have unquestionable health and less stress Having no possessions though immeasurable wealth May you get a gold star on your next test May your educated guesses always be correct And may you win prizes shining like diamonds May you really own it each moment to the next

And may the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows And may the road less paved be the road that you follow

Well here's to the hearts that you're gonna break Here's to the lives that you're gonna change Here's to the infinite possible ways to love you I want you to have it Here's to the good times we're gonna have You don't need money, you got a free pass Here's to the fact that I'll be sad without you I want you to have it all

Oh, I want you to have it all I want you to have it I want you to have it all

Oh, I want you to have it all All you can imagine All, no matter what your path is If you believe it then anything can happen Go, go, go raise your glasses Go, go, go you can have it all I toast you

Here's to the hearts that you're gonna break Here's to the lives that you're gonna change Here's to the infinite possible ways to love you I want you to have it Here's to the good times we're gonna have You don't need money, you got a free pass Here's to the fact that I'll be sad without you I want you to have it all

Oh, I want you to have it all I want you to have it I want you to have it all

Here's to the good times we're gonna have Here's to you always making me laugh Here's to the fact that I'll be sad without you I want you to have it all

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I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay I just want to be okay today I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay I just want to be okay today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today I just want to feel something today (I just want to feel something today) I just want to know today, know today, know today Know that maybe I will be okay (know that maybe I will be okay) Know that maybe I will be okay (know that maybe I will be) Know that maybe I will be okay

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When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I could offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one there to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet But I will never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue I'd go crawling down the avenue No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea And on the highway of regret The winds of change are blowing wild and free You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true Nothing that I wouldn't do Go to the ends of the Earth for you To make you feel my love To make you feel my love

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When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I could offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one there to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet But I will never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue I'd go crawling down the avenue No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea And on the highway of regret The winds of change are blowing wild and free You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true Nothing that I wouldn't do Go to the ends of the Earth for you To make you feel my love To make you feel my love

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When I look into your eyes It's like watching the night sky Or a beautiful sunrise Well there's so much they hold And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts We got yeah we got a lot at stake And in the end you're still my friend at least we did intend For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not And who I am

I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up I'm still looking up

Well, I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up) God knows I'm tough (I am tough) he knows (I am loved) We got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved) God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up

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Tomorrow morning if you wake up, And the sun does not appear I, I will be here

If in the dark we lose sight of love, Hold my hand, and have no fear Cause I, I will be here

I will be here when you feel like being quiet When you need to speak your mind, I will listen and I will be here when the laughter turns to cryin' Through the winning, losing and tryin' We'll be together 'cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up, And the future is unclear I I will be here As sure as seasons are made for change, Our lifetime's are made for years So, I I will be here

I will be here and you can cry on my shoulder, When the mirror tells us we're older, I will hold you and I will be here to watch you grow in beauty And tell you all the things you are to me I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made To you and to the One who gave you to me

I I will be here

And just as sure as seasons are made for change Our lifetime's are made for years So, I I will be here we'll be together

I will be here

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as a clean the day off, a familiar place, so far away and yet here I am… so much laughter so much love, shared so many hopes and dreams. Drop by drop scrub by scrub… I would give anything to be the woman you fell in love with, where did I go? who was I and how come I’m not her anymore? What happened to me?

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I’m losing her, she’s not a lot but she used to be mine

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I’m learning that I don’t deserve anything, good or bad I don’t deserve it, it’s just is, and a lot of it got nothing to do with me and everything to do with their values and their view of themselves.

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Beknar…taking care of all my own needs since 1993!

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shhhhh I tell myself everyday, silence, be quiet and stay still… whatever it is, it doesn’t matter, nobody cares, broken legs? Keep walking… drowning? Keep swimming… nightmare? Keep dreaming…

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“keep going” I tell myself everyday “keep trying”

but… what for? all efforts are misunderstood, every detail is twisted, every joke is a blank stare. Another day another horrible story in my head, is it me? Of course is me, it’s always me… me me me all about me always. I can’t clear my head without getting IN my head. I was, I am and forever be my worse enemy… Confusion sinks in, eyes wide shut and senseless I travel the maze that is my life…

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skin burning, hair thinning, hips widening, feet crippling, dreams dying, soul leaving… hurt, hurt, hurt, with every step with every breath.

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ríndete, ríndete,ríndete deja de pelear contra ti misma, lo que es, es y no hay lección que aprender no hay pasos a tomar no queda más por crecer, estás sola… sola. No estás bien y tal vez nunca lo estés, tal vez nunca lo estuviste.

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the truth in my mind is not

what I want for life is not

what I thought is not

how I am is not

who I am is not

anymore

One more word one more mistake, another day another problem, love, hate, hope, despair, light, dark, darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness. How can one life can be so beautiful so cruel so mistaken, making the rules? Failed… following the rules? Failed… breaking the rules? Failed…

dust myself up one more time, desperately grasping what’s left… crumbs, scraps, dirt. What’s that? Oh yes rain, good it matches me. Letting it be, bleeding until dry, disgusted by my own mind, not recognizing the image on the mirror and not listening to the voice in my head. Pieces of a puzzle that don’t belong… “put them together” I cry out loud. How can one life be so beautiful so cruel so mistaken.