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[bug-report]

I’m not going to put my name here, but know that I’m part of a System with five other people. Yes, a “Dissociative Identity Disorder” System. It’s a real thing. Fuck off out of here if you think otherwise, no one here cares to hear your stupid internet hot takes.

Anyway.

I don’t get along with any of them, never have, or maybe it’s them who haven’t bothered much to get along with me. Doesn’t make a big difference in the end though I guess, the point is that I’ve always been the odd one out here - “persecutor” of the group, or so it’s been labelled. It’s rich that people who aren’t part of a System, even so-called “experts in the field”, have no goddamn clue what they’re talking about in the end and just make sad little attempts to file us and other systems away into these neat little category boxes. You people can’t don’t get it. Study the theory all you want, you’ll never understand us as a general population.

I’m getting off track.

I guess I shouldn’t say NONE of them have tried to reach out over the years. The two other guys in my system are fucking idiots, but our sort of “host” I guess has tried a number of times. She’s an “alter” herself, but she’s been running things out here for pretty much this body’s whole life, give or take a few years. I always thought she’s done a pretty piss poor job so far, but lately I've been thinking it’s a pretty fucking hard job to keep things up out here. I was telling her recently that I thought she’s really fucked things up for us because we now have a lot of health issues that we never used to have, some of them could have been prevented but weren’t, but she just phoned it in and didn’t bother? Or maybe she just didn’t care. Either way she fucked up, and I was telling her that. She snapped at me though for I think the first time I can remember, she told me that maybe part of the reason the body’s hair has thinned out so much is because of all the stress I cause her all the time. Just got me thinking I guess. I don’t know.

Anyway, she’s on to wanting to learn some coding. Simple stuff for now, she’s doing HTML and trying with Python, but she’s struggling, especially with Python. She’s an artsy craftsy type so this is something that’s pretty different from everything else she does, but I’ll give her props for sticking to it even though she’s having a hard time with it. I’ve always been good with computers though, it’s pretty much the only thing I’m good at, so I floated the idea that if she needs or wants help that maybe I could give her some suggestions or whatever here and there. Help explain some things she’s having a hard time with. I don’t think I was actually expecting her to agree to it, so that caught me off guard. She hasn’t done any work on it for maybe a good month now though, so I don’t know if she lost interest or what. Guess we’ll have to wait and see. I guess that’s all I’ve got to say for now. Just have to wait and see.