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Must be nice being able to just hand over hundreds of thousands of not millions of dollars to Jeff Bezos in order to pretend you're a real astronaut.

It's not like people spend their lives going to school to get proper degrees in order to work with NASA to become the real thing.

F*ck Bezos.

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You never realize just how stuck up, self centered, and stuck in their ways the older generations are until you work with them and are the one stuck training them at your place if employment.

God forbid you correct them, but also how dare you not pay attention to THEIR duties on top of your own.

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I kind of just wish someone would give me a massive shot of morphine or something to knock me out.

Then to follow it up, hold my head under water to end my suffering.

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“You never seemed like someone this would happen to.” I practiced looking safe. Turns out it worked on you, too.

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Lololololololol my anger and mental instability cradling me like

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Hey. It’s late at night. At least in central time it is. If you’re looking at a sign to keep going on then consider this it if you’d like. It’s going to be ok. I promise it’s going to be ok. I’m proud of you. You’ve come so far and not the person you once were. Hell. You weren’t the person you were yesterday. You’ve come so far and you deserve to feel proud of yourself. Please, if you see this, close your eyes and just focus on breathing for two minutes straight. In slowly through your nose, and out just as slowly from your mouth. Afterwards, do stretches for a minute straight, then, go splash some water on your face, cold water. Lastly, go drink yourself a full glass of water. I love you. Give yourself a chance to love yourself too. You’re gonna get through this. I’ll reblog at noon my time in case anyone needs to see this.

You got this. I promise you do. 💚

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the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

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Ahah.

Ha.

Aha.

.....Ha.

I love seeing siblings of the person who is emotionally cut me open and bled me dry lol. 🫠

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Can't even enjoy the 3.5 Anniversary for Sekai.

Most of the content from what I've taken a look at is gate kept behind paid crystals. I have $54 that I have to save for my phone bill on the 17th.

Internet probably is going to be gone after that phone payment too. I'm behind on payments and when I pay my phone I'll be left with $4 to my name. If that, given the applicable taxes.

This just further proves I'm no longer able to enjoy the things I once did.

I'm done. My hobbies, my drawings, my covers, etc. I'm done with all of it. It's all done at other people's expense anyhow. I find joy and it causes pain and frustration for others.

I am a bank account.

Nothing more and nothing less.

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Been there... Done that... No longer works.

I'd rather be consumed by moss and never found. Finally forgotten and left alone.

This is your daily reminder:

Take some deep breaths, it's good for you and you'll feel better.

Go drink some water. Just do it. Trust me on this. It'll help.

The demon you summoned has found another swimming pool in the neighborhood and is not getting out.

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Yep.

I can't even do covers properly now, let alone draw.

Honestly I don't see why I try anymore.

I'm probably just annoying my friends with how this cycle constantly repeats. They don't need to give me sympathy anymore... it's just a waste of their time. I don't want them wasting their time if this is just going to keep happening.

Not like I've... really spoken to them in a while, anyway... They're better off prioritizing themselves, honestly. It's better for them.

My skills are gone.

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Do you have someone?

i have trauma

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