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i will focus alll the things (fic, art, ramblings) i do re games over on @solsgaming bc the sideblogs are not helping

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The combination of 'unnervingly flawless self-control' with 'occasional tendency to engage in reckless, dangerous, and borderline self-destructive or death-seeking behaviour' in a character is SUCH catnip to me

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how much strength did it take to find softness?

post-canon mshenko

ko-fi

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forever and always laughing at the illusive man using kaidan as bait for shep in me2, then once shepard thoroughly severs ties with cerberus in me3, the illusive man is just like okay. well. guess we don't need him anymore.

EVA? DISPOSE OF SHEPARD'S BOYTOY

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About the Ship

Here's some prompts about your ship, or getting to know them better.

What were their first impressions of each other?

What was the first inkling of a crush like?

Who fell in love first?

How did they admit to having feelings for each other?

Who said I love you first?

What tropes does your ship fall under?

What would they consider the worst act of betrayal?

What would be the greatest day ever to them?

Who is responsible for the relationship starting? 

What are their nicknames for each other?

What is the most ridiculous thing that they have admitted to each other?

Who is more likely to propose?

Who is more likely to get a pet?

Who is more likely to get them into trouble?

Who is more likely to get them out of trouble?

Who is more sentimental?

Do they have any gifts that they hold onto?

What is their love language?

What was their first kiss like?

What do they consider their first date?

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"came back wrong" sure yeah that's cool i guess "came back suicidal" now you're talking

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I've been consumed by bg3 these days so my brain has been on override thinking of paladin cal (oath of the ancients) and paladin/sorcerer kaidan (oath of devotion maybee/though that second part isn't something he shares but he has an innate ability for magic) and they meet and fall in love as soldiers but once they start venturing out of the military and start adventuring together with a group cal gets killed (in a brutal/can't get to her body type way so they can't use a scroll of resurrection or maybe they don't have one)

and cue a couple of years later them running into each other again, after cal has been brought back to life by a necromancer (against her will, cerberus style), but she’s been brought back Wrong and she’s an oathbreaker by simply existing as she is (going against nature and all that) and kaidan thinks she faked it while following the wrong path. i thought your oath meant as much to you as mine does to me. and how could he have been such a fool to not see that coming? while cal is struggling with even recognising her own face in the mirror, stark white hair and eyes more vibrant green. alone without a purpose and a pact she cannot escape. and she wants to tell him to feel the magic that’s been woven in her new psyche, because she knows he can as much as he denies it, but how could she ask him to take back a ghost when even herself rejects what she’s become

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sleeping situations

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me3 calkaidan wip

“She going to be okay?” she asked with a tilt of her head.

“Hmm? Oh, yeah! She hurt herself running around the Citadel.”

She hummed in acknowledgment, and her gaze drifted back to the girl who’d now jumped off the bed and began playing with two kids and a makeshift ball. A disbelieving breath escaped her as a smile pulled the corners of her lips.

“I don’t know how they do it,” she stated. “They’ve escaped their home being destroyed, and here they are, still finding ways to be kids.”

Her gaze fell for a moment, trying to remember when she’d run around like that. Probably at a station, with other spacers. But the instances were far and few in between that left her with a distant longing.

“Yeah…” Kaidan agreed. “They focus on what we forget. It’s infectious, isn’t it?”

Shepard nodded, making no effort to move, which Kaidan took as a sign to keep talking.

“Kara, the little girl, told me that you are very pretty and that I should tell you I’m a hero—you know, to impress you—when she saw you staring,” he said and then smirked, raising his eyebrows. “Since she’s, and I quote, ‘too young for me, sadly'.”

“Always the ladies’ man, aren’t you, Alenko?” Cal laughed, turning her head to face him.

He ducked his head, cheeks slightly more red in color.

Something fluttered in her chest at the sight. Lately, the only emotion she’d seemed to evoke from him was anger, and for a long time it seemed like it would stay at that.

“Only with someone special.”

She sucked in a breath, reeling from the admission. The emotion that dared to infiltrate her heart was hope. That despite everything, they would be alright.

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RIley Shepard x Kaidan for lovely @girlstandstill!!

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'The ballroom too loud for you?' 'Yes. Hard to go back now that you're here, Knight Commander.' 'Well, let me give you another reason to stay, then.'

Sigh. (affectionately)

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Kaidan: I am at a loss for words Shepard later: Despite being lost for words Kaidan yelled at me for the next 45 minutes

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the more I think about cal and marysia (< her bunkmate until akuze, that she loved without realizing it until she died in cal's arms), the more cal/kaidan makes sense. she loved someone and she always thought they'd have more time but they didn't, and she was left with this unresolved grief following her for years. and then she meets Another person who she feels something for again after years, and she doesn't want it to slip through her fingers. despite regs despite the mission despite everything

and she dies anyway and she comes back and she Understands his pain. she understands his reaction, she forgives him like it's breathing bc she thinks of herself finding mar alive but working for cerberus.... she would have the same reaction.

she loves him despite despite despite and it's only in me3 they're able to be together properly 🥲

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Chapters: 2/? Fandom: Mass Effect Trilogy Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Kaidan Alenko/Female Shepard, Female Shepard & Garrus Vakarian Characters: Female Shepard (Mass Effect), Garrus Vakarian, David Anderson (Mass Effect), Nihlus Kryik, Armando-Owen Bailey Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Spacer (Mass Effect), Alternate Universe - No Reapers (Mass Effect), Alternate Universe - Detectives, Biotics (Mass Effect), Tenth Street Reds, Drug Use, The Citadel (Mass Effect) Summary:

Detective Jane Shepard and Officer Garrus Vakarian investigate the influx of Red Sand on the Citadel.

Their journey leads them from the Citadel to Earth, where they meet Kaidan Alenko, who happens to be a high-ranking member of the Tenth Street Reds.

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Mass Effect Trilogy Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kaidan Alenko/Miranda Lawson Characters: Kaidan Alenko, Miranda Lawson, Shepard (Mass Effect), James Vega Additional Tags: Romance, Desire, Mild Smut, Implied/Referenced Abuse, (in regards to miranda’s father), Biotics (Mass Effect) Summary:

“Okay, how about this?” Kaidan asked. “If we make it out of this, we meet again, one year from now.”

Miranda’s brows furrowed. “To do what?”

- Miranda and Kaidan find their way to each other before the galaxy ends.

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cal post destroy ending, and after waking up from her coma, goes nonverbal for some time. there's a lot to deal with, she has significant skin grafts and later needs implants to regain full mobility of her left hand (as that was where her armor was the most damaged), and had her right leg amputated as a result of the explosion + the rubble she was buried under when she was transported / thrown back down the beam to the ruins of london. some of her implants were nearly completely fried. and then there's the added part of having to explain everything that happened in the crucible, and so on, and she just checks out mentally.

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i think 'I trust you with my life but not your own' as a trope is one of the ones that can always fuck me up no matter what