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Back on my ruining everything for myself shit

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Been a while since I posted

Back on my depressed shit

Someone come kill me yadda yadda

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hi I'm dr crazynormal I will be doing the bad surgery on you today. what are your deepest desires

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Monsters from Disney's Zombies (these movies are my guilty pleasure lol)

Might do vampires and daywalkers next, not sure which character I should use for the aliens.

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Old oc new design with and with out the mask -antonio

(This is mystery he's a entity form another dimension who came to our dimension with his sister unknown to learn about our interesting lives they took more human forms but somethings are off on both of them for mystery why he wears the mask is if you look into his eyes you will rot from the inside out at a very alarming rate and their is no way to stop the effect so he hides his face the necklace is from his sister she has one as well anyways see ya)

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Fuck. I can't do anything right. *pulls my shirt up slightly and you can see a little bit of my abs*

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Casually using ":3" to hide the FUCKING PAIN

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Fucking kill me fucking kill me fuCKING KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME

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What the fuck does this mean

i think tumblr is giving me a very warped view of what jerma is

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STOP IT! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!

being a "singlet very interested in systems" to finding out you ARE a system pipeline is real

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shout out to those alters that fronted once then dipped🙏🙏

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Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

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Sharing space is nothing new. Sharing bathrooms is nothing new. The reactionary outrage is so manufactured.

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THE SECRET OF THE MIMIC IS OUT!1!1!1!

I had to redraw this screenshot of the little cleaner bot THAT YOU CAN ACTUALLY PET IN THE GAME are you kidding me ?! 😭💕

Anyways I love the game’s vibe, I think it lived up to it’s expectations ^_^

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dawg im on the same shit rn its crazy

I think life might be awesome

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THATS WHAT IM SAYIN!!!

[steel wool voice] and another father-son duo just to fuck with them even harder

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thats what im sayin!

They became a family guys trust me