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Journal Entry 002: My parents don’t believe me

“You went to the movies by yourself?”

I’m 20 years old. Not that old, not that young. My newfound independence is slowly becoming apparent to my family—particularly my parents—but I’ve had it for some time, shockingly. I guess becoming an A-lister at AMC is what it took for my family to realize that I can do things by myself; even though I commute to the city almost every day for school, I digress. I’ve gotten comfortable being alone and not relying on others to show up because it ends up with me being disappointed in them.

As the youngest sister of three, I’m still perceived as that little girl who's heavily dependent on the grown-ups around her. I don’t think that will change in their eyes. I tend to dilute my personality to my parents and sometimes my sisters, not in fear of being judged, but not to taint that idea they have of me. That’s where it’s my fault.

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Feeding into the theme of this blog—exploring the fine line between loneliness and independence—you can’t have independence without the constant feeling of loneliness. This blog isn’t supposed to be stimulating or challenging, it’s just me experiencing my 20s and realizing how alone I am.

Cheers to more independence in 2025.

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Handposting

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February 23rd, 2025

Went to the gallery. Bought some books. The poem is from Ocean Vuong’s collection Time Is a Mother.

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February 22nd, 2025

Theatre for a New Audience's Henry IV at the Polonsky Shakespeare Center. Dinner in Fort Greene.

I was completely blown away by this Henry IV production. The performers were incredible and provided a new vitality to the play. It was a pleasure watching them in the center's intimate courtyard theatre. There is so much I can go on about-the lighting, the crochet chain mail, the sword fighting sequence. Absolutely incredible.

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𝔱𝔬𝔭 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔠𝔩𝔞𝔰𝔰

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The Complete Book Of Camping.

1972

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piercing gaze

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Oakland Tribune, California, February 15, 1953

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they’re sending secret messages through the pigeons…

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the watchers

(to be a riso print hopefully—and based on these two owls I saw at a zoo that were absolutely not happy to be awake in daylight)

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February 10th - 17th, 2025

Poems, movies, shows, and snow. Finally got around to seeing some films that have been on my watchlist since last year. Absolutely fell in love with I Saw The TV Glow and Queer was fun!

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the people on prestwt loveee richard nixon

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rockabilly greaser guy on the titanic: oh fuuuuck my johnny cash CDs..my flaming dice…my grease!!!!

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Instagram: cheri.png

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writing is so fun