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and what are we going to do when the HP series comes out and we start seeing a resurgence of the fandom here including gifsets and fics. like are u guys gonna bring up your neurodivergence and cry "can we separate the art from the artist!!!!! you dont need to pay to watch it!!!!!its my comfort show and I'm DEPRESSED and AUTISTIC"

what then

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“all of Apollo’s partners end up leaving or dying, isn’t that weird? why is that?” BECAUSE WHO ELSEEEEE?! WHO ELSE COULD SHOULDER ALL THAT GREIF BUT THE GOD OF POETRY AND ART?!

the stories and myths are lessons, and to me the lesson of all Apollon’s lovers is that art, poetry, music, and light can all carry you through life no matter the heartbreak that comes.

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just when you thought i couldn’t get gayer, i start assembling altars and worshipping the greek gods

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For those who struggle, know that the gods understand that mortality is incredibly arduous. Do not see your suicidality or depression as ungratefulness, because they do not blame you for your hardships & disabilities. All humans are flawed, & they know this.

Thank the gods for the small things, the things that give us comfort in this world.

Thank the gods for how your skin softens after a hot shower,

Thank the gods for the softness of clean sheets,

Thank the gods for the warmth of a meal,

& the coldness of ice cream.

Thank the gods for the craftsmanship of a painting,

& the beauty of hearing a foreign language,

& the way eyelashes rest on your cheeks.

It is the way you know they love you.

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I truly think that one of the best things you can do with your polytheistic practise is to stop listening to random people on the internet.

Don’t listen to the people who tell you that the gods don’t care about or love you. Don’t listen to the people who tell you an offering of water is not good enough. Don’t listen to the people who say it’s a requirement for show of devotion to have expensive items strewn across your altar. Don’t listen to people who tell you that you should have an altar even if you can’t. Don’t listen to people who suggest your disability makes you worthless to the gods because you can’t do what others can.

Try to find and make your own experiences with the gods, and look at what works for you and them. Please don’t let some random post on the internet stress you out and make you think you are doing something wrong (chances are, you’re not, especially if it’s absurd statements like the above).

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The person who re-blogged this wants you to know that they are open to questions regarding their spiritual path, witchcraft and faith, and in fact, would love to talk about their spiritual path with you and have a casual talk!!

(this applies to me pspspsps HMU , don't hesitate, i am always open to respectful discussion of our spiritual paths and just being friends!!)

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before you ask "are the gods mad at me?" THINK:

have you...

1. killed or maimed someone

2. killed or maimed an animal for purposes other than consuming/processing it

3. knowingly and purposefully hurled vile obscenities or insults at any god or gods

4. made it a life goal to be a terrible person

5. been a terf

IF YOU SAID NO TO ALL OF THESE QUESTIONS then girl you're fine go have a dr. pepper

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When I die, I don't want to be embalmed. I don't want to be cremated, I WANT TO ROT.

I want my body to be buried as it is and an apple or walnut tree planted over me. I want to go back to being a part of mother earth and I want my body to feed that tree so that i can continue to care for my loved ones well after my death.

I want my grand babies' grand babies to pick the fruit of that tree, knowing their mammaw is buried underneath, feeding, and caring for them the way I would my own babies. I want them to climb into the branches like they were climbing into my arms so that I can hold them and let them know they are loved even after I am dead.

When branches die and fall from my tree, I want them burned to provide my family with warmth in the winter. I want the children to roast marshmallows and cook over the fire that is fed by the wood from the tree I am buried under. I want to never not be a part of the family bon fires. My children will drink beers and tell stories around the fire as we do now, always knowing Mama's spirit is there.

I grew my babies in my body fed them with my body as infants, and when I die, I want my body to continue to provide for and nurture my family for countless generations to come.

Also I don't want the government knowing where I'm buried

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it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

IT MAY TAKE ME A MONTH TO PUT OUT A CHAPTER BUT AT LEAST IM NOT USING AI TO WRITE IT

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coming from religious trauma and the catholic church, I've come to realise that the gods really are kind.

like, I knew this, of course. everyone in polytheism always tells me of how the gods are not as scary as they seem. and yet it's only now that I realize, they really do love you. they want what's best for you, want you to be treated with kindness even by yourself. They love you, and they are far kinder than people give them credit for.

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You are not falling behind. If you haven't touched your WIP in weeks, if you haven't come up with a new idea, if you haven't gotten your book done and it's been 3 years, it's okay. You are not falling behind. Unless we are obligated to reach a deadline, we begin to believe that we are failing. We see countless people finishing their projects, selling their books, succeeding in the field you're in. And it's hard not to compare yourself to them, you're similar but they are doing the work, and you haven't written a paragraph in over a month.

Comparing yourself to others is a downward spiral that will never give you satisfaction. It's a difficult thing to try and overcome or ignore, but you have to. Instead of seeing other people's victories as a failure on your side, try and see them as goals. Goals to reach, inspiration to get back to your WIP, write that paragraph, or finally try and finish that book.

There is no secret that they know, and you don't. They aren't worse or better than you. There is no right answer. No finish line you need to cross. You work at your own pace, create goals to strive to and try not to compare your progress to others. Enjoy the process!

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wildfire between my teeth and a cigarette between my lips.

- original poem by thecrawlingcreativedesk -

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and as the smoke leaves my lungs,

I think of my soul reaching out in whisps of breath,

abandoning the body for the heart.

If the air from within the gardens of my chest can go far enough,

do you think I'll reach you?

Though, you are never far from my mind.

a corner of the cottage in my heart is dedicated to you I fear.

your image sits above the chest right by my bedside

laughing at me gently when I try to get you off the chest and into my arms.

I could hear your laughter forever

on days I do not utter, I hear whispers of you in the windchimes of the halls, the melodic sound so eerily similar to the music that drips from your tongue as words

in a world where I never have to leave you, what are you if not immortal?

perhaps, if I try hard enough,

the fire that burns the poison of my choice into my chest

will be that fiery comfort of your wildfire heart,

perhaps if I close my eyes

I can feel you burn me

once more.

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TW: Pedophilia

Teenagers are rarely taught the reason why they can't consent to sex with adults.

And that's because teaching them that would completely unravel our coercion-based society.

It can be difficult to explain in detail the exact reason and all the specifics in a way that they will understand. But the simplest way to phrase it is that in some cases, even when someone agrees to something and even when they appear enthusiastic about it, there's too much of a power imbalance that it's no different than forcing them. Also, having power and being abusive doesn't require a conscious expectation to be obeyed.

Imagine a world in which every teenager understood that and was easily able to call out anyone who tried to convince them otherwise.

They'd know that there's no such thing as an employee consenting to working for a poverty wage, working in unsafe conditions, working long hours, or working without taking breaks. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to paying a bank overdraft fee. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to student loan debt. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to medical bills. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to generating profit for banks or landlords in order to have a place to live and being evicted or foreclosed when you lose your source of income. They'd know that there's no such thing as consenting to a police search. They'd know that there's no such thing as a child who's okay with their parents spanking them. They'd know that being dependent on someone does not mean that you can never criticize them. They'd know that if it's considered abusive to simply play along when someone obeys, then it has to be much more abusive to actively expect to be obeyed, which many adults do to them.

And people who benefit from a society based on coercion masquerading as freedom wouldn't like that.

So instead, teenagers are taught something dismissive. They're taught that what they want doesn't matter. They're taught that they're too young to know what love is. They're taught "it's the law". They're taught things that are insulting to their intelligence, which they'll naturally rebel against.

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sick post i just found online. sorry i couldnt find the source

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does anyone wanna hold hands until we feel a little braver