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Note to self: Your neighbors do not find it amusing when you put on your renaissance outfit and roll your wheelbarrow through the street calling, “Bring out your dead!” at 7a.m.

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Everything is a tongue twister in another language.

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Been hit.. By a paintball . I cried.

A paintball to the head hurts more than a bullet to the head

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this is a sea turtle. I know they can live for over 500 years but I never knew they got this big

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Truth be told.

I harbor lots of Anger, Sadness and Depression.

I make up for that by hoping I don't pass on my negative energy.

With my husband I don't have to repeat or explain myself.

I can be totally me.

I'm more grateful for my husband more then he will ever know.

I love him so much for cleaning out or making some of my anger, sadness go away .

I'm more than happy with him.

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Showing my husband's friend old pictures. He pointed at an old friend of mine.

He asked her name and what she was like etc.

"Wait a minute who is she? "

"Oh, that's so&so"

He was like "she's cute af! "

Etc. ( check screenshot)

Then like that I started babbling about how beautiful and awesome she is.

Proud happy moments.

I think it has to be harder to describe someone if you don't love them.

But even better if you do, it comes out the words that I have the ability to say with good faith.

So in a sense I do love her unconditionally to be able to talk kindly of her but then I realized that I was only talking about someone who has been such a great part of my success and encouragement.

I think my worries set in when I really thought that I had the answers to someone's prayers without thinking about her feelings.

Maybe, I felt good knowing that she was "cute af! " And how it means a lot to me to know that about her, she is beautiful in and out and only deserves all the happiness in the world.

The funny part is that Charles has very solid friends and I appreciate their friendship with Charles, a lot.

So I know his friend meant those words and I have been very careful about who I am friends with these days.

I know in my heart he meant every word.

I see what he sees.

Anyways.... Cousins are here.

I need a good cry and a blunt and a movie about rom-com... Light and funny... Dark undertones to lighten my depression in the midst of this virus.

Why did I open up my google photos? Oh yah.. Reminiscing... I feel it.

#CoronaVirus2020

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Charles and I started family planning with the OBGYN... To bad the virus shut that clinic down until further notice.

I was hoping for my last and final child.

Gotta put that on hold because of the unawareness of when things will reopen again and how long this virus will last..

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I often miss my friends.

Mostly the ones I trust most.

I miss late night talking and the constant reassurance from a good friend.

Being a wife is amazing but it's the loneliness that comes with it when he goes to work and I have to stay home.

I wish I could sit with someone and just be here in the presence and reflect on trial and error and have that bond outside my marriage.

The sacrifices we make as women for our husbands may seem like less when it so much more.

Where do I find wife friends in this virus?? What would Josie do?

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can we talk about how fine 6LACK is and how he perfectly killed his verse?!!

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J. Cole

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“Cause if I could, I’d spill my blood

Down to give you my last breath”

6lack; Seasons FT. Khalid

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