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you know the post that's like: one day I'll be 45 at a party and ill hear a one direction song and ill be dancing my heart out because I never learned to love anything as much as I love one direction?......... yeah.......thinking of that right now

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no matter what we’ll do after this, we’ll never ever beat this

yeah, but isn’t that scary?

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When I finally got around to making a high yield savings account (financial responsibility yay!), one of the influencers I followed was like “make one of the buckets in your HYSA a fun bucket that you put like $10 per month into and you can crack that open and enjoy when the time comes.” And without a second thought, genuinely without even thinking about it, I titled my fun fund “One Direction reunion tour.” Because I was 1000% sure they would come back and yeah I’d be like 40 but at least I’d have a bunch of money in that account and I could finally go to a One Direction concert after never having gone during their heyday. And maybe I’d have a kid or a niece or nephew with me and we could all go together and it would be the perfect confluence of all my past and present selves.

And now it’ll never be the same.

Some of my fondest memories are driving down an interstate with my friends with the windows down and the Take Me Home album blasting. Arguing about who we liked the most and who was going to age the best and playfully joking about what it would feel like when the news broke that one of them had died. That was supposed to be decades from now.

I’m so sad for him, the 14 year old who grew up wanting to be a star and then actually achieving his dreams, but finding that it wasn’t enough. I wish he hadn’t hurt so many people and I wish he could’ve made amends and become a better person. Obviously I don’t know him, but it felt like I did when I was 12 and 13 and 14 and 15 and 16 in those groupchats with strangers I’d never meet but I swear I knew better than anyone else. I was always a Liam girl, and lately that fact has made me feel pretty embarrassed, but that’s who I was. I wish things were different. I am so sad for his family and friends, and I hope they find some peace. I hope his victims do too.

One Direction has been a part of my personality basically since I was old enough to have one. I went to corners of the internet for those men that I would not go to today with a gun. I will miss them and Liam Payne forever.

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Last group hug of the OTRA tour in Sheffield, 10/31/15.

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red, white and royal blue + text posts

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when you die, you walk into the cold unknown hand in hand with a girl you met once when you were five in a hotel pool and her hand is warm.

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when you die, you walk into the cold unknown hand in hand with a girl you met once when you were five in a hotel pool and her hand is warm.

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jimin running his hand through his hair

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park jimin stop making me suffer challenge: FAILED

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taehyung + esquire magazine

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rather than worry, go

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what are they selling again??