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Quick update:

I am currently to exausted to post but I am slowly making progress.

Recovery is painfull but I can do this! Stay strong y'all!

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Day 23 + 24 of my in-patient programm

Lunch of yesterday and today:

Yesterday it was potato veggie casarolle.

Activities:

A lot of sleep (the nurses are a bit angry at me because I missed some treatments because I am so tierd), hydrojet massage therapy, cardio and acupressur treatment.

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Day 22 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

Activities:

- breakfast

- body perception training

- group therapy

- lunch

- psychotherapy appointment

- break

- dinner

- gym

I am currently struggeling with extrem hunger. It annoyes me, but I know it is actually a good thing.

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Day 20 + 21 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of yesterday and today:

Activities:

I slept, studied and went to the gym and in the evaning I played videogames with my partner.

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Day 19 of my in-patient programm:

Today was visitation day so I only had breakfast in the hospital and the rest of the day I spent with my partner.

We visited a bird park. : )

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Day 18 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

Activities:

- breakfast

- cardio

- autogenic training

- lunch

- break

- dinner

- break

- yoga

People, I menaged to eat cornflakes and a pice of bread today! I am totally rockig this! 😂🥳

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Day 17 of my in-patient programm:

No lunch, no activities except therapy and sleeping. Sorry...

But hey, I drew something.

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Guss who the fuck dissociated over some bread and people beeing to loud? I hate my life right now... I am so embarrassing.

Now they ask me if I am sure that I can stay in the programm. Fuck me.

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Day 16 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

Activities:

- breakfast

- group therapy

- social skills training

- lunch

- autogenic training

- break

- dinner

- church concert

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Day 15 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

Sorry, no foto. Steamed fish, potatos and veggies in a lemon sauce and pinapple yoghurt for dessert.

Activities:

- exposur therapy

- group therapy

(then I had a mental breakdown and the rest of the day was canceled for me)

- lunch

- break

- dinner

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Day 14 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

Activities :

- breakfast

- weigh-in

- exposure therapy

- social skills training

- lunch

- fango therapy

- gymnastics (missed it)

- info talk about stress (missed it)

- dinner

I menaged to eat bread today without purdgeing it!

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Day 13 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

No foto today, sorry. It was yellow veggie curry with potatos and chocolate ice cream

Activities:

- breakfast (I overslept again.)

- break

- lunch

- wash day

- dinner

- cardio

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It looks awful but I am still proud of myself for trying something new.

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Day 12 of my in-patient programm:

Lunch of today:

Activities:

- breakfast (I overslept, so no breakfast for me.)

- break

- hydrojet massage therapy

- break

- lunch

- visit from my partner (We played minigolf and ate watermelon. : ) )

- dinner

- cardio

Today started out a mess and ended a mess but the middle was fun. I had a very bad relapse because of some full fat milk...

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I am so sorry for my body. I treated it so fucking awful because of my ed and self hatred. But it is the same body that little child me played in, that fought so hard to survive as a premature baby, that traveld the world with me.

We don't like each other yet but I feel so gulty. Why did I listen to all those bad people and ruined myself because I could not hate them only me?

I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry.

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Art hour with the other female patients.