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“ show them what destruction looks like. ”

“ you are the kind of book that has magical stories trapped in every single page. ”

“ power is so much more important than beauty could ever be. ”

“ sometimes the people you love are the ones that will cause you the most pain. ”

“ stop holding onto the things that don’t love you enough. ”

“ no one is going to protect us but each other. ”

“ love is also dark. it is ferocious and angry and destructive. ”

“ i could not understand the sadness that was trying to devour me from within. ”

“ the person who will save you, time and time again, already exists inside you. ”

“ you may have been given wars in this life, but in you there lies an army. ”

“ the cosmos that gifted you the chaos, also created you with care. ”

“ when was the last time someone was kind to you without wanting anything from you? ”

“ when was the last time someone was gentle with your soul without asking for something in return? ”

“ you are a miracle. ”

“ there are stars glittering inside you. ”

“ the dark matter of you hides an immeasurable amount of strength. ”

“ a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort. ”

“ sometimes if you let people do things to you, you’re really doing it to them. ”

“ it’s gonna hurt because it matters. ”

“ that’s the thing about pain: it demands to be felt. ”

“ you know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? that’s where i’ll always love you. that’s where i’ll be waiting. ”

“ you can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it. ”

“ time is chasing after all of us. ”

“ i’m playing at real life instead of actually living it. ”

“ it’s as if people can see the damage written all over me. ”

“ you are not the opinion of somebody who doesn’t know you. ” 

“ you are not damaged goods just because you made mistakes in your life. ” 

“ you are not going nowhere just because you haven’t gotten where you want to go yet. ”

“ maybe you lost someone that you never expected you would lose. maybe you lost yourself, that’s even worse. ”

“ you are not damaged goods or muddy from your failed explorations. ”

“ you are the person who survived a bunch of rainstorms and kept walking. ”

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𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐣𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫. // wartime aesthetics.

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updated things across my blogs, my name is now andy !

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in all honesty, harry had kind of expected that answer. if draco had told his mother, he was sure it would have come up already. it wasn't the kind of thing to keep quiet about. but still, it opened up what harry knew was a tense kind of conversation. he didn't want to make draco uncomfortable, of course, but... sometimes the hard conversations were needed. and hadn't they become exactly that for one another? a safe space for all this shit.

his hand remains touching draco as they stand side by side-- fingertips ghosting along his wrist, gentle movements. the glass windows he faces reflects the lights from the capitol and for a moment, it almost feels beautiful. if he forgot the scum and loathing underneath it all.

"you know it's never going to just come up naturally, right?" he turns his head, looking over at draco. "this isn't me pressuring, either, you know i'd never do that. it's not as if i have some open line of communication with what's left of my family either, but..." he sighs, eyes dropping down to their hands. thinks about all their stolen moments together. "you know she'll love you no matter what. i just--" a momentary pause as harry swallows, brows knitting together. "we're already living enough of a lie. i don't want you to have to do it everywhere in life."

for once, his words, what he'd said - hadn't been with the intention of poking at harry or sparking a little bickering session between them. it had been a rare moment of willingly removing a couple of bricks from his own walls that had been built up. but perhaps they'd been poorly chosen words, given by the way that harry then responded to them. it was almost as though the closer they got to each other, the more things blurred, the less draco seemed to think before he spoke.

because of course, he knew that everything that harry was going to wasn't exactly normal for him. wasn't anything that he was used to. but he'd been too wrapped up in thinking about his own situation, that he hadn't really considered how his words might have come across.

so of course, when harry rolled his eyes and bit back, a sigh of exasperation at himself passed lips and he was gearing up to try and dig his way out of the hole he'd dug... but then he felt harry's hand and harry shifted the direction of things...

" no. i haven't. " head shook, and after a moment he moved to be next to harry, only, he was looking out over the balcony instead. he knew what harry was asking about, but it all sounded a lot easier to do than it felt. " it hasn't come up. "

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harry is such a friendmas person like,,, yes he absolutely hosts it for all the strays <33

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all this shit is new to me. ( from draco ) // @unheald

there was a part of harry that knew, that understood that he ought to be kind. that he needed to have some kind of sympathy for draco. after all, they'd grown up, essentially, in different worlds. those in the capitol didn't live in the same world as those in the districts. their view was skewed. he should be thankful that draco is trying, is changing. but that doesn't stop harry from rolling his eyes now.

he pushes away from the balcony railing, turning to rest his back against it and look over to draco. they're alone, for the first time since harry's latest return to the capitol. it's the first night he's not being carted around, shoved from person to person. he wants to make the most of it. but he can't help the way he is with draco, how easily the teasing and pushing of buttons comes.

"oh yeah? tell me what that's like. after all, all of this is so normal to me." he bites, but there are no teeth to be found. after a moment, he reaches out. hand slides against draco's. "have you told your mother yet? not-- i know you can't, not the specifics about us, but--"

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i would die for harry james potter and he wouldn't let me, but--

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𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅𝒓𝒐𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒔. // HJP.

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"i didn't think i'd see you again" ( from ginny. ) // @unheald

if harry were to be honest, there was a part of him that had wondered the same. wondered if he would see any of them again. the difference now, of course, being that unlike when he'd had that worry in the past-- it was no longer the idea of his death that kept him from people.

no, this had entirely been his own choice. he left. he was the one to make the move after the war, after trying to settle for a few months, to then just leave.

as much as he felt bad for the people he was leaving behind, he knew he had to put himself first, for maybe the first time in his life.

but now... now he's back. and he's staring at ginny and just hoping she won't hate him forever--

god he wants to hug her.

"i'm sorry about that... the way i left. i uh-- i guess it just all got a bit too much. but i'm back now, for real. and i'm not leaving again."

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as always, feel free to edit/alter to better fit!

“ every piece of me is made from what you did to me. ”

“ i couldn’t stop missing you if i tried. ”

“ death seems to follow me. ”

“ i can’t let go of this. ”

“ what if we tried again? ”

“ i don’t want to know what life is like without you. ”

“ you’re an impossible person to forget. ”

“ i didn’t think i’d see you again. ”

“ i don’t think i’m built for forever. ”

“ sometimes you break in places that can’t be fixed. ”

“ stay, just for tonight. ”

“ once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale. ”

“ her/his/their/your angel eyes see the good in many devils. ”

“ you can’t go back and change the beginning. ”

“ you can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending. ”

“ every atom of me missed him/her/them/you. ”

“ destroy what destroys you. ”

“ your eyes stole all my words away. ”

“ you are someone too. ”

“ be kind, but don’t forget that you deserve kindness too. ”

“ we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. ”

“ darling, you are not at war. ”

“ darling, you are not at war with anyone but yourself. ”

“ i want kingdoms to tremble when they hear my name. ”

“ teach me how to be a monster. ”

“ some things have to end for better things to begin. ”

“ never feel guilty for starting again. ”

“ i’ll be there when your heart is ready. ”

“ if someone makes you feel, let them. ”

“ there is true magic in you. ”

“ choose people who choose you. ”

“ soulmates aren’t just lovers. ”

“ you drew memories in my mind i could never erase. ”

“ the person you loved was an illusion. ”

“ people leave you out in the cold and get mad when you learn how to get warm by yourself. ”

“ your name hurts. ”

“ grieving someone who still lives might be the worst pain. ”

“ you’re just a stranger with all my secrets. ”

“ i think we were meant to be, but we did it wrong. ”

“ how could you possibly let go of someone that felt like home? ”

“ a part of me still thinks that if i can find the right words, it will save us. ”

“ whatever we are, i still remember the way we were. ”

“ as long as you still love it, it will continue to break you. ”

“ you made it look so damned easy to leave me. ”

“ i still find pieces of you in me. ”

“ perhaps not forgetting you is the only forever we will ever have. ”

“ you and i will always be unfinished business. ”

“ hell exists. it’s here, 3am, awake and without you. ”

“ i regret the end, the way we couldn’t leave one another without wounds. the way we made it seem as if all the love we shared was just wasted time. ”

“ you can forgive yourself now. ”

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taylor swift // midnights rp meme. 

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lavender haze. 

meet me at midnight. 

you don’t ever say too much. 

i’ve been under scrutiny. 

you handle it beautifully. 

all this shit is new to me. 

i’m damned if i do give a damn what people say. 

all they keep asking me is if i’m gonna be your bride. 

they’re bringing up my history. 

they’re bringing up my history, but you weren’t even listening. 

i just need this love spiral. 

maroon. 

we lost track of time again. 

you were my closest friend. 

how’d we end up on the floor anyway? 

i see you every day now. 

i chose you. 

we were shaking. 

how the hell did we lose sight of us again? 

ain’t that the way shit always ends. 

i feel you, no matter what. 

and i lost you. 

i wake with your memory over me. 

that’s a real fuckin’ legacy. 

anti-hero. 

i get older, but just never wiser. 

midnights become my afternoons. 

my depression works the graveyard shift. 

i should not be left to my own devices. 

i end up in crisis. 

i wake up screaming from dreaming. 

one day i’ll watch as you’re leaving.

one day i’ll watch as you’re leaving, coz you got tired of my scheming. 

it’s me, hi. i’m the problem, it’s me. 

i’m the problem. 

i’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror. 

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero. 

i’m a monster on the hill. 

did you hear my covert narcissism i disguise as altruism like some kind of congressman? 

life will lose all its meaning. 

she thinks i left them in the will. 

she’s laughing up at us from hell. 

snow on the beach. 

life is emotionally abusive. 

time can’t stop me quite like you did. 

i’m unglued, thanks to you. 

it’s like snow at the beach: weird, but fucking beautiful. 

you wanting me tonight, feels impossible. 

this scene feels like what i once saw on a screen. 

i’ve never seen someone lit from within. 

my smile is like i won a contest. 

to hide that would be so dishonest. 

it’s fine to fake it till you make it. 

i can’t speak. 

i don’t even dare to wish it. 

can this be a real thing? 

you’re on your own, kid. 

summer went away, still the yearning stays. 

i play it cool with the best of them. 

he’s gonna notice me. 

we’re the best of friends anyway. 

i hear it in your voice. 

i didn’t choose this town, i dream of getting out. 

there’s just one who could make me stay. 

i waited ages to see you there. 

you never cared. 

you’re on your own, kid. you always have been. 

you’re on your own, kid. 

i see the great escape. 

he loves me not. 

something different bloomed. 

i’ll run away. 

i gave my blood, sweat and tears for this. 

the jokes weren’t funny. 

i took the money. 

my friends from home don’t know what to say. 

there were pages turned with the bridges burned. 

everything you lose is a step you take. 

you’ve got no reason to be afraid. 

you can face this. 

midnight rain. 

he wanted it comfortable, i wanted that pain. 

he wanted a bride, i was making my own name. 

he stayed the same. 

all of me changed. 

my town was a wasteland. 

for some, it was paradise. 

i broke his heart coz he was nice. 

i was midnight rain. 

i guess sometimes we all get just what we wanted. 

he never thinks of me. 

i guess we all get some kind of haunted. 

i never think of him. 

i never think of him, except on midnights like this. 

question…? 

we had one thing going on, i swear that it was something. 

i don’t remember who i was before you. 

i just may like some explanations. 

can i ask you a question? 

did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room? 

what did you do?

did you ever leave her house in the middle of the night? 

did you wish you’d put up more of a fight? 

it was too much. 

do you wish you could still touch her? 

did you realise out of time? 

fuckin’ politics and gender roles. 

i just may like to have a conversation. 

does it feel like everything’s just like second best after that meteor strike? 

i’m sure that’s what’s suitable. 

vigilante shit. 

draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man. 

you did some bad things, but i’m the worst of them. 

sometimes i wonder which one will be your last lie. 

they say looks can kill and i might try. 

i don’t dress for women, i don’t dress for men, lately i’ve been dressing for revenge. 

i don’t start shit.

i don’t start shit, but i can tell you how it ends. 

don’t get sad, get even. 

i’ve been dressing for revenge. 

she needed cold hard proof, so i gave her some. 

picture me, thick as thieves with your ex-wife. 

she looks so pretty, driving in your benz. 

ladies always rise above. 

i’m on my vigilante shit again. 

bejeweled. 

i think i’ve been a little too kind. 

didn’t notice you walking all over my peace of mind. 

putting someone first only works when you’re in their top five. 

i’m going out tonight. 

best believe i’m still bejeweled when i walk in the room. 

i can still make the whole place shimmer. 

familiarity breeds comtempt. 

don’t put me in the basement when i want the penthouse of your heart. 

i polish up real nice. 

i think i’ve been too good of a girl. 

i think it’s time to teach some lessons. 

i made you my world. 

have you heard? i can reclaim the land. 

i miss you, but i miss sparkling. 

sadness became my whole sky. 

but some guy said my aura’s moonstone. 

you can try to change my mind, but you might have to wait in line. 

a diamond’s gotta shine. 

labyrinth. 

it only hurts this much right now. 

i’ll be getting over you my whole life. 

i’m falling in love.

i’m falling in love again. 

it only feels this raw right now. 

lost in the labyrinth of my mind. 

you would break your back to make me break a smile. 

you know how much i hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back. 

karma. 

you’re talking shit. 

addicted to betrayal. 

you’re terrified to look down. 

you’ll see the glare of everyone you burned. 

it’s coming back around. 

karma is my boyfriend. 

karma’s a relaxing thought. aren’t you envious that for you it’s not? 

my pennies made your crown. 

don’t you know that cash ain’t the only price? 

ask me what i learned from all those years. 

ask me what i earned from all those tears. 

ask me why so many fade, but i’m still here.

so many fade.

i’m still here. 

karma is the thunder rattling your ground. 

karma’s on your scent like a bounty hunter. 

sweet nothing. 

they said the end is coming.

the end is coming. 

everyone’s up to something. 

i find myself running home to your sweet nothings. 

all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing. 

this happens all the time. 

you should be doing more. 

to you i can admit that i’m just too soft for all of it. 

i’m just too soft for all of it. 

mastermind. 

the planets and the fates and all the stars aligned. 

the touch of a hand lit the fuse. 

checkmate, i couldn’t lose.

i couldn’t lose. 

what if i told you none of it was accidental. 

none of it was accidental. 

the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me. 

what if i told you i’m a mastermind? 

i’m a mastermind. 

now you’re mine. 

we were born to be the pawn in every lover’s game. 

if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. 

strategy sets the scene for the tale. 

the first night that you saw me, i knew i wanted your body.

i wanted your body. 

it was all my design. 

no one wanted to play with me as a little kid.

i’ve been scheming. 

i’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since.

i’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since to make them love me. 

this is the first time i’ve felt the need to confess. 

i’m only cryptic and machiavellian coz i care. 

you knew the entire time. 

you knew that i’m a mastermind. 

the great war. 

my knuckles were bruised like violets. 

cursed you as i sleep talked. 

spineless in my tomb of silence. 

tore your banners down, took the battle underground. 

flashes of the battle come back to me in a blur. 

my hand was the one you reach for all throughout the great war. 

i vowed not to cry anymore. 

if we survived the great war. 

you drew up some good faith treaties. 

you said i have to trust more freely. 

you were playing with fire. 

maybe it’s the past that’s talking. 

maybe it’s the past that’s talking– telling me to punish you for things you never did. 

i justified it. 

i vowed not to fight anymore. 

i vowed not to fight anymore if we survived the great war. 

got a sense i’d been betrayed. 

that was the night i nearly lost you.

i nearly lost you. 

i really thought i’d lost you. 

we can plant a memory garden. 

there’s no morning glory, it was war, it wasn’t fair. 

we will never go back to that bloodshed. 

we’re burned for better. 

i vowed i would always be yours.

i would always be yours. 

paris. 

all the outfits were terrible. 

i’m so in love that i might stop breathing. 

i was taken by the view. 

romance is not dead. 

romance is not dead if you keep it just yours. 

levitate above all the messes made. 

i want to brainwash you into loving me forever. 

high infidelity. 

i didn’t know you were keeping count. 

you said i was freeloading. 

put on your records and regret me. 

i bent the truth too far tonight. 

i was dancing around it. 

do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes? 

seemed like the right thing at the time. 

there’s so many different ways that you can kill the one you love. 

there’s so many different ways that you can kill the one you love. the slowest way is never loving them enough. 

do i really have to tell you how he brought me back to life? 

glitch. 

we were supposed to be just friends. 

maybe i’ll see you out some weekend. 

i think there’s been a glitch. 

i’m fastening myself to you. 

i’m not even sorry. 

i was supposed to sweat you out. 

our love is blacking out. 

the system’s breaking down. 

i’d go back to wanting dudes who give nothing. 

would’ve, could’ve, should’ve. 

if you tasted poison you could’ve spit me out. 

if you’d never looked my way i would’ve stayed on my knees. 

i damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil. 

the pain was heaven. 

now that i’m grown, i’m scared of ghosts. 

memories feel like weapons. 

i wish you’d left me wondering. 

if you never touched me i would’ve gone along with the righteous. 

you made me feel important. 

you made me feel important, then you tried to erase us. 

you tried to erase us. 

you’re a crisis of my faith. 

if i’d only played it safe. 

i miss who i used to be. 

the tomb won’t close. 

i regret you all the time. 

i can’t let this go. 

i fight with you in my sleep. 

the wound won’t close. 

i keep on waiting for a sign. 

if clarity’s in death, then why won’t this die? 

living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts.

give me back my girlhood, it was mine first. 

dear reader. 

if it feels like a trap, you’re already in one. 

just run. 

pick somewhere and just run. 

desert all your past lives. 

if you don’t recognise yourself, that means you did it right. 

never take advice from someone who’s falling apart. 

bend when you can, snap when you have to. 

you don’t have to answer just cause they asked you. 

the greatest of luxuries is your secrets. 

when you aim at the devil, make sure you don’t miss. 

i prefer hiding in plain sight. 

you should find another guiding light.