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I'm convinced England doesn't exist

My conviction is not affected by the fact that I've been there several times

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📍Мурманск

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"That's the game I play. You never win, you just don't lose yet. Errinwright? He lost. Soren, Nguyen, I took them out of the game, and I stayed in, but now? Errinwright is going to retire with extreme prejudice, and I'm going to be given his job."

"Do you want it?"

"Doesn't matter if I want it. I'll be offered it because if the bobblehead doesn't offer it people will think he's slighting me. And I'll take it because if I don't people will think I'm not hungry enough to be afraid of any longer. I'll be answering directly to the Secretary-General, I'll have more power, more responsibility, more friends, and more enemies, it's the price of playing."

"Seems like there should be an alternative."

"There is. I could retire."

"Why don't you?"

"Oh I will," Avasarala said, "the day my son comes home."

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When they send you to play catch with a child they don't mean that she's the f—that she's the ball!

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 52

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Bobbie Draper while staring down the protomolecule monster:

Anything you can do I can do better

I can do anything better than you

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 50

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essentials

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She noticed Amos watching her, he had a dopey grin on his face

"Seriously? Now?" She said "We're talking about your captain going off to his death and all that's going through your head right now is 'ohhh boobies'"

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 50

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"Say the word now and I can have Io reduced to slag before we even get there."

"You're right" Prax said, and then a moment later "why aren't you doing that?"

"Do you want the real reason or my justification?"

"Both"

"I justify it this way" she said

"I don't know what is in that lab. I can't assume that the monsters are only there and if I destroy the place I might I might be slagging the records that would let me find the missing ones. I don't know everyone involved in this and I don't have proof against some of the ones I do know. It may be down there. I'll go, I'll find out, and then I will reduce the lab to radioactive glass afterward."

"Those are good reasons."

"They're good justifications. I find them very convincing"

"But the reason is that mei might still be alive"

"I don't kill children" she said "not even when it's the right thing to do."

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"When this is over, I'd like to buy you a drink and talk about how a dishonorably discharged UN naval officer winds up flying a stolen MCRN torpedo bomber crewed by Martian military personnel and a senior UN politician"

-Captain Richard Seng (?)

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 44

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"How much of the last war was your fault? With your endless goddamn pirate broadcasts. Well?"

"None of it" Holden said "desparate psychotic people do desparate psychotic things when they're exposed. I refuse to grant them immunity from exposure out of fear of their reaction. When you do, the desparate psychos wind up in charge."

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 42

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"They can still kill us if they want to, but we can make it a pointless act of revenge, keep it from actually helping them."

"No." Avasarala said

"Uhh no? You might be forgetting who's ship you're on."

"I'm sorry, did I seem to give a fuck that this is your ship? If I did, really I was just being polite." Avasarala said, giving him a withering glare.

"You aren't going to fuck up the whole solar system just because you are a one trick pony. We have bigger fish to fry."

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 42

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Avatar needs to become the new standard, If you cannot extend the effort to green screen in 8 feet tall women, what is the point

Expend*

Expend my 8 feet tall dick

Actually dicks don't have height so it can't be 8 feet tall

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Fog (1807) by Caspar David Friedrich

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"When this contract with prax is over, the bank account will be well padded, we'll own a high tech warship, and we'll be free to do whatever we damn well want to do."

"Jesus cap" Amos said, "I just got half a hardon."

"I know, right?" Holden replied with a grin.

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 39

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"Seriously," he said "who are we? It's the question I keep coming back to."

"Uhh" Amos said and shifted in his seat "my name is Amos, cap you feeling okay?"

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 39

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"I want to hurt someone" she said. "I'm afraid that if it's not them, it's going to wind up being me"

"We all grieve in our own ways" Avasarala said.

"For what it's worth, you'll never kill enough people to keep your platoon from dying. No more than I can save enough people that one of them will be Charanpal."

The Expanse, Caliban's War, Chapter 35

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"Do you want to kill me?" Avasarala asked.

Bobbie blinked, and before she could answer Avasarala lifted her hand, commanding silence

"I am one of the most powerful people in the UN, we're at war so, do you want to kill me?"

"I—I guess so?"

"You don't. You want to find out who killed your men, and you want the politicians to stop greasing the wheels with marine blood. And, holy shit, what do you know, I want that too."

"But I am active duty Martian military" Bobbie said, "if I stay working for you I'm commiting treason." The way she said it wasn't complaint or accusation.

"They haven't recalled you" Avasarala said "and they're not going to.

The wartime diplomatic code of conduct is almost exactly the same for you as it is for us, and it's ten thousand pages of nine point type. If you get orders right now I can put up enough queries and request for clarification that you'll die of old age in that chair.

If you just want to kill someone for Mars you're not going to get a better target than me. If you want to stop this idiotic fucking war and find out who's actually behind it, get back to your desk and find out who wants what wording"

Bobbie was silent for a long moment. "You mean that as a rhetorical device," she said at last, "but it would make a certain amount of sense to kill you, and I can do it."

A tiny chill hit Avasarala's spine, but she didn't let it reach her face "I'll try not the oversell the point in the future, now get back to work"