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" why? " a furrowing face is made in frustration. the jedi way never want a display of negative emotions. the sith way never want a display of positive emotion. they want simple numbness - a walking corpse. it made no sense to allana to feel nothing as a person. before anything else, that is what she was. that was the fault she viewed with the jedi and the sith : their superiority complex. believing they were better to humans due to their connection to the force. that was the furthest concern she had. emotions it what made a person unique. special. to feel it all meant to be normal.

" it's what makes us who we are. " there was a frustration rising as she spoke and she was sure he would be disapproving of this. " to feel emotions, is to be human. no matter what you or anyone says, that is what makes us who we are. " there was a momentary pause, sighing, " do you ever think that if you let anakin skywalker feel his, he would not have become darth vader and we wouldn't have gone into a galactic war? "

@k3nobe : be mindful of your feelings.

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allana's legs were crossed as she sits on the forest floor of hapes where they discreetly returned for the next part of jedi training at her request ... the building of the lightsaber. a monumental part of their teaching and one her grandmother felt she was finally ready for. there was excitement but also fear. allana had witnessed both the good and evil within the force. so many tried to paint it in a black and white situation but allana always questioned - what if it was more than that? what if it was there was just as much good as there was bad within their duty to the force? maybe that was always the downfall of the jedi and sith.

their misunderstanding of the duality.

feeling the breeze drift onto her pale skin, eyes closed and breathing quietly, in tune with herself and the force. feeling the presence of so many who came before her. all of their joy. all of their pain. the force was a complexity. it was like witnessing its memories in flashbacks dating back to the dawn of time. she felt the presence of everyone, drawing for guidance. a white kyber crystal was placed within the hilt of the saber, believing in independence and neutrality.

a familiar echo lingers in her ear. one that causes her to ignite that very saber for the first time. she wields it effortlessly as if it is an extension of her, prepared for any attack if need be. after all, she was on a planet that several believed her to be deceased. it's only then when she realizes who the voice was ... jacen. it was a faint whisper. one that she never calls out to, never senses. a father that could never be.

gulping for a moment before reposition herself on the floor, collapsing the saber back, relaxing back to tune in. she clears her thoughts and is sent into a trance like state, pushing the thought into the force and hoping to receive an answer. then again, he was a haunting ghost. " i am brave. i have my mother and grandmother to thank for that. " shooting back sharply, " i'm just lost. what if everything i believe and stand for is wrong? "

@caedus : be brave and don't look back.

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i just…. love it so much……. the diplomatic vibes…..

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STAR WARS: EPISODE I - THE PHANTOM MENACE PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue from the 1999 film, adjust as necessary

you can't stop change any more than you can stop the suns from setting.

i can only protect you. i cannot fight a war for you.

you almost got us killed!

the ability to speak does not make you intelligent.

are you sure about this?

i want that treaty signed.

it's impossible to locate the ship.

he will find your lost ship.

this is getting out of hand. now there are two of them.

may the force be with you.

at last we will have revenge.

they will be no match for you.

i will not condone a course of action that will lead us to war.

wipe them out. all of them.

i beg your pardon, but what do you mean "naked?"

are you an angel?

they're the most beautiful creatures in the universe.

you're a funny little boy.

how do you know so much?

i listen to all the traders and star pilots who come through here.

you're a jedi knight, aren't you?

[name] says i should be mindful of the future.

be mindful of your feelings.

my place is here. my future is here.

tell them we wish to board at once.

i can't explain what happened.

there is no civility, only politics.

keep your concentration here and now, where it belongs.

this is your arena. i feel i must return to mine.

my fate will be no different to that of our people.

if we do not act quickly, all will be lost forever.

we are your humble servants. our fate is in your hands.

greed can be a very powerful ally.

what has that got to do with anything?

i sense much fear in you.

there's always a bigger fish.

no one can kill a jedi.

remember, concentrate on the moment.

feel, don't think. trust your instincts.

you said that the biggest problem in the universe is no one helps each other.

remember: your focus determines your reality.

why do i get the feeling that we've picked up another pathetic life form?

which one was destroyed, the master or the apprentice?

i'm a pilot, you know.

someday i'm going to fly away from this place.

i need something more real.

i don't have anything else.

no money, no parts, no deal!

they all sense it, why can't you?

don't do that again.

will i ever see you again?

what does your heart tell you?

i will come back and free you. i promise.

be brave and don't look back.

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a sweet hum echoes between the two, peacefully at bliss in their own little bubble of the galaxy. coruscant was home. leia and han, they made it that for her with anji. a place for her to feel safe and secure when several often tried to sabotage her existence even at two weeks old. many would not find it normal and in fact, it truly was not. like other children growing up, she should have been playing in the garden, going to school to learn, make friends. no ... not amelia. allana.

truly complementary elements of life.

instead, allana's closest friends were her grandparents and a nexu. of course, at one point, that did not bring enough satisfaction. she witnessed the lives of other children who lived such ordinary lives and were oblivious to ( what allana viewed at one point ) her own tragic upbringing. there was so much resentment towards other children her age ... because she envied the life of simplicity.

then, allana reels back to the real world. without this life, there would never be adventure. there would never be the life with her grandparents. the life with anji. even with all the difficulties and challenges faced, it washed away all those negative feelings because it made this life truly worth it.

there was no changing this reality.

" you know ... " there was a little perk in her tone, still sounding so graceful and elegant. truly the mirror of her diplomatic grandmothers. " what are your thoughts of me finally building my lightsaber? " a hint of excitement at the thought. a jedi is nothing without the force and their saber. " i know you said you'll tell me when you think i'm ready. " hands grasp her grandmothers, gently squeezing them, " i think - i know i am. "

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" i mean ... " a shrug of shoulders, her face slightly contorting at the thought - pretending to be deep in thought. a familiar solo gesture that often resembled her grandfather. although, she carries her mother and grandmothers features, han's behavior passes down from generation to generation. " does a bantha mother produce blue milk? " smiling brightly, of course it was an obvious answer. he would protect her just as if she were his own.

luke skywalker, her great uncle, one way or another always saved the day. it was hard not to have a deep admiration for him. everything luke had endured and lost, yet, ethically and morally, he still managed to have a steady balance within himself. found a light even in darkest times. maybe that's why she had always sought him out for the most honest conversations.

" do you think i'm ready? " for whatever her destiny is to become, for whatever she is meant to transform into, for who she is meant to be. allana knew of all the tales : bringing balance to the force, sitting on the white throne, being jedi queen in addition to her natural duty of the hapes cluster. stacks of prophecies and visions placed on her shoulders that she was meant to accept. sometimes it was overwhelming and family helped ground these thoughts.

in this moment? it was desperately needed.

" the entire hapes cluster is in my hands. people rely on me to survive and make sure there's peace and sanctuary here. that's all i have ever wanted for not only the consortium but the entire galaxy. it's the dream, uncle luke. i think i can achieve that. i just - what if i'm not good at this? what if i'm not meant for diplomacy and get killed on my first day? "

@dualsuns : you think i'd let anything happen to you?

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allegedly.

dialogue prompts from allegedly by tiffany d. jackson.

are you hungry? can i get you anything to eat?

no one's ever bothered to explain anything to me.

i don't know why god does a lot of things.

don't ask questions and keep praying.

no house where you fear for your life can be considered a home.

we shouldn't let good wine go to waste.

your feelings are showing.

where'd you get the money? did you steal it?

it's okay to cry, you know. you can cry in front of me.

i don't cry.

i've been waiting my whole life to meet you.

i googled you.

it's easier to keep an animal into cage than to play with it.

you think i'd let anything happen to you?

i always feel better when you're around.

don't ever let anyone stop you from bettering yourself.

you scared of change? good. change is scary. get used to it.

who really knows what they're doing, with a baby?

do you love your parents?

what does it mean when you love and hate someone at the same time?

what's your favorite childhood memory?

i almost didn't recognize you.

you look at me like you're happy i'm alive.

you know i love you, right?

haste makes waste.

what kind of trouble is worse than what i'm in now?

you're the first one i've told the whole story to.

you don't have to tell me about your life, if you don't want.

if something happens, you won't leave me, right?

no one is nice for no reason.

something doesn't feel right.

are they mistreating you? you can tell me. just say yes or no.

what's it like, having a dad? a real dad?

go on. it's okay. i'm here with you.

role reversal could be good for us here.

why do you do what you do?

i forget, sometimes, how young you are.

you ever been pregnant?

where's your mama? it's dangerous out here.

i'm getting us the hell out of here. no matter what.

cut the crap. you were never a good liar.

what are you thinking up in there?

you're different. i saw that from the very first day.

i didn't get you anything.

you really believe me, don't you?

it was no accident. it was fate.

'i'm sorry' doesn't seem like enough.

maybe i never knew you at all.

you think i'm going to hurt you, don't you?

i just hate surprises, that's all.

you're as far away as the moon.

you were trying to tell me something, and i didn't listen.

when can i see you again?

promise me you'll fight. that you won't give up.

i had a lot of dark thoughts about you.

that's my biggest regret: not taking more pictures.

i knew something was wrong. i felt it.

i wanted to hurt you the way you hurt me.

it just happened. it was nobody's fault.

we're all too broken to be fixed.

i want to hate ____, but i can't.

all that i am is what you have molded.

i want to remember the details.

i'll be good. i'll be better.

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yellowjackets, season 2 [pt. 2].

dialogue prompts from the second season of showtime's yellowjackets.

trust me. i've been where you are.

i thought you'd be more excited to see me.

you should get the hell away from me. i'm poison. i ruin people.

i killed my best friend. the only person i loved. the only person who knew me.

that 'something' that was in ___ is in me.

why didn't you wake me up?

is there a chance it could be us? you and me?

i gotta take care of myself, too, okay?

if you're done crying, i can tell you some stories.

where are you? we need you here.

you are so close to being on the other side.

aren't you the last person who should be giving me legal advice?

i'd rather keep the past in the past.

are you even trying to be happy?

i know you're too evolved for online dating.

i just want to know that you haven't given up on love.

you should be responsible for something other than yourself.

you know i don't deserve your friendship, right?

we're all like this. aren't we?

i never even wanted to be a mom.

life doesn't tend to turn out like you think it will.

it was all really complicated. i'll tell you all about it someday.

it's you and me against the whole world.

we thought we lost you.

i just think it's time we woke up.

i would be dead without you.

i need to know why the fuck i'm still here.

all my rational instincts are just kind of screaming.

you aren't welcome here anymore.

shouldn't you be in therapy?

i really need you right now.

when you look at yourself, what do you see?

the truth is all around you, but you refuse to see it.

i'm sorry. i should never have pushed you away like that.

i'd never ask you to wait for me.

does a hunt that has no violence feed anyone?

how much do you remember?

i love this song.

i know there's a lot of pain right now, but let it out.

you're lying to me, and i want to know why.

you hear it, too?

we all need things we can't have.

you're a good person. i'm sorry for ever making you feel otherwise.

you are nothing if not proactive.

i can't get rid of it. it's a part of me.

i thought you loved all of me, like i love all of you.

it's gonna be okay. we're gonna be okay.

i can't imagine being here without you.

you're not going to solve shit with talking.

this isn't something that therapies can fix.

you're gonna have to look me in the eye.

it's no secret we're all a little fucked up.

what exactly are you suggesting?

our lives are not that bad.

i did it for the good of the group.

i knew i wasn't the only one who felt this way.

didn't we swear we would protect each other?

do you google yourself a lot?

disappearing is not as easy as they make it look on tv.

i need you to leave while you still can.

you don't have to be one of those people.

i appreciate you trying to teach me forgiveness. it's a nice idea.

it was supposed to be me.

you're a good person. you really don't belong in this place.

i'm not ashamed. i'm glad i'm alive.

you're like, an honest-to-god detective?

i know this is a lot. but i'm a friend. and everything is gonna be fine.

is this what you wanted to happen?

it's called a narrative. try to 'yes, and' a little.

what about a story you haven't heard before?

i never wanted to be in charge.

you were always the favorite.

there's nothing to be afraid of, you know?

i'm not supposed to be here.

how could it not have been me?

go ahead. i'm right behind you.

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HAPES CLUSTER.

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yeah…….. yeah……….

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never forget the hapan royal navy is one, if not, the largest within the galaxy yet allana truly brings peace and neutrality and never has to use it. many hapans still join to serve her as queen mother and trust and believe in her ruling but allana never truly deploys the battleships into wars or battles.

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amelia is more solo where allana is more djo

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𝐷𝐸𝑆𝑇𝐼𝑁𝑌 𝐻𝐴𝑆 𝐵𝑈𝑇 𝑂𝑁𝐸 𝑇𝐻𝑅𝑂𝑁𝐸 𝐴𝑁𝐷 𝐼𝐹 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝐽𝐸𝐷𝐼 𝑄𝑈𝐸𝐸𝑁 𝐶𝐿𝐴𝐼𝑀𝑆 𝐼𝑇, 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝑆𝐼𝑇𝐻 𝐶𝐴𝑁𝑁𝑂𝑇.

independent and private allana djo solo of star wars legends. written by itza ⁽ ᵗʷᵉⁿᵗʸ⁵˒ ˢʰᵉ / ʰᵉʳ ⁾.

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her grandmother told her of the stories of jacen. of how all his happiness, of his joy and simply his livelihood had been stripped away. day by day, who they were as individuals had been torn away with each massacre. it was no shock they were all walking corpses. allana brough life to the family. a resurgence and purity that was so often missed. she was a reflection of their past and what their future represented. their salvation of their present. as chume'da and future queen mother, as a jedi, she believed in neutrality, justice and peace. in unity. in balance. the true prophecy was in her grasp. allana was not naive to the weight that help in her two hands. she bore it with pride, pleasure and maybe with some fear.

there was always the thought in the back of her mind : what if she was no better than anakin and jacen? of darth vader and darth caedus?

" what you wanted for me ... " her life was predestined. allana had come to that conclusion long ago. accepted it, in matter of fact. there was no greater gift in a sense knowing she could change the lives of many and fix the legacy of her family. of course, that left little to no room for error but she didn't care. with the support of who was in her corner, anything was possible. no matter what allana endured and no matter what she had faced, that was the difference between her and all of her predecessors.

allana remained ever so kind.

" it wasn't fair. " there was a sense of guilt that allana would never get over. it was her one tragedy. something the young jedi queen struggled to face. " i lost so much because of you. " taking a deep breath in, " but i forgive you. " lips purse together as the back of her hand is used to wipe away a singular tear that falls, " if that counts for anything, at least. "

➝ @chumeda said: ❝ What you did, it required an answer. ❞ ( jacen pls!! )

" What I did — " He had opened his mouth without thinking, had been close to burdening his child with the same tired excuses and lies he had brought forth during his reign of terror, to all but confirm he was but a shadow of his former self, embodying the darkness he knew must have haunted her in her nightmares and how LOW he had truly sunken for that to be the reality of his connection to his daughter. And yet she humbled him in a way few could and so he paused, the pain he had caused her more evident than ever. He had set her upon this course while desperately trying to keep her out of it all. He had been a fool to think he could keep her entirely away from politics and had only made it worse trying to build her a path she could never take. And so he instead let out a long and weary sigh. He had no good response to her accusation because they were true, as much as he wanted to deny it. He had FORCED her into this life.

" It was not what I wanted for you. " And that much was the truth, though it was up in the air how much she would believe him. He tried to open himself up to her, to let her feel his love for her through the Force and yet — what good was the word of a liar? He had tricked her before, had hidden parts of himself from her, to hide the ROT inside of him ... He might never be able to rid himself of it fully, might never be able to speak of it even to her. What he had done, it had been in the name of sparing her the pain he had suffered in his youth. War, death ... it had ruined him until nothing had been left of the young boy who had loved the world around him. He would never be able to forgive himself should she suffer the SAME fate.

" It was all for you ... "