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LucyChuu(bsd) Tumblr Layout!

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LucyChuu(bsd) Tumblr Layout!

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LucyChuu(bsd) Tumblr Layout!

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LucyChuu(bsd) Tumblr Layout!

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Day 3: ADA member

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Bungo Stray Buns 🐰 (The Flags edition)

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Bungo Stray Buns 🐰 (The Guild edition)

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Awwww baby yayyyy ignore how his tan is gone i forogt it😢😢😢

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Self shipping isn't enough i need him to rip a hole between dimensions to get to me

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Beast Chuuya’s grief should be talked about more.

In BSD Beast, through calculated manipulation and ultimate self-sacrifice, Dazai rewrites reality to ensure a happy ending, not for himself, but for others, well, mostly for Oda. Odasaku is allowed to live and write his novels, free of the violence that once consumed him. Even Akutagawa and Atsushi, two broken boys shaped by opposing ideologies, are granted a form of peace. Yet, amidst this manufactured tranquility, one man bears the full weight of Dazai’s absence: Chuuya Nakahara.

Though Dazai arranged for Chuuya to become the next Boss of the Port Mafia, a move that gave Chuuya power and autonomy, it did nothing to heal the emotional damage left behind. For Chuuya, Dazai's death was not a noble sacrifice; it was a betrayal. He had given Dazai everything, his trust, loyalty, and the quiet promise that, one day, he would be the one to kill him, that'd end up being true or not, he could use the promise to protect Dazai from others. That was their unspoken bond, a thread of tension and understanding that held meaning in a world where words often failed. When Dazai died without a farewell, that thread snapped. What was left in its place was anger, confusion, and a grief so immense it nearly tore Yokohama apart.

Chuuya’s heartbreak manifests not in tears, but in destruction. Upon seeing Dazai’s corpse, he immediately unleashes Corruption, not to fight an enemy, but in an uncontrollable storm of rage and despair. It takes several ability users to subdue him, a testament not only to his power, but to how deeply he had been wounded. When the fury burns out, it leaves a hollow shell behind. Chuuya, once the Mafia’s strongest weapon, is reduced to a man broken by betrayal.

Meanwhile, others who were close to Dazai mourn him differently. Atsushi and Akutagawa are affected by his death, but their pain is tempered by closure. There are no lingering promises or deep personal debts between them and Dazai, nothing unresolved that might corrode into resentment. Their loss is real, but it doesn't destroy them.

Beast Chuuya, however, is not afforded that peace. The relationship he shared with Dazai was messy, intimate, and defined by the things left unsaid. In death, those silences become unbearable.

In the end, Chuuya is locked away, yet even that containment cannot hold his vengeance. Blaming the Armed Detective Agency for Dazai’s death, he begins plotting their destruction. His grief becomes a weapon, sharpened by betrayal and boundless loyalty.

“Erase the detective agency from the phone directory. From the map also.”

“If the organisation that caused the previous boss’ death is to operate like nothing happens, it will cost the Mafia its face.”

Chuuya in these lines is being honest and at the same time putting up a facade to hide his grief.

While BEAST closes its curtain on a seemingly balanced world, it leaves behind one gaping wound in Chuuya, a reminder that even in a rewritten reality, not all pain can be erased.

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OK correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like the main 'yin/yang' parallel with Atsushi and Akutagawa is not something like 'this one is bad but secretly has a good side and this one is good but secretly has a bad side'.

I feel like it's more about 'who they are at their core vs who they choose to be'.

At his core Akutagawa is kind and at his core Atsushi is not. But despite this Atsushi tries every day to make the kinder choices and I love him so much for it. He has to work so hard to be good.

He wants to be a bitch SO bad I know he does but he tries his best to help people and be nice (sometimes he fails but that's OK <3)

Atsushi doesn't always WANT to help people, a lot of the time he's selfish and scared, but he does help people anyway. He keeps helping people over and over again. There's still some selfish motivation to it, and his initial motivation for helping people was because the headmaster told him that's all he was worth, but overall he does care about the people he helps and it weighs on him if he fails to save them. And of course, as the series goes on he starts helping people more because he can rather than because he feels like he needs to.

In Akutagawa's case, he's still capable of being kind but his environment led him into being someone who chooses to hurt people. But he's always been a protector at heart. In the start he was bad compared to Atsushi because he was choosing to hurt people and keep the cycle of abuse going. Just like how Atsushi developed in why he saved people, Akutagawa starts to get redeemed when he chooses to not just act on his rage. Not only does he start to spare people, but he speaks more kindly to them (apologising to Higuchi and telling Kyouka he's proud of her). It all culminates into the moment he chooses to help Atsushi and sacrifice himself for him, going back to his core value of being a protector. Even when he's finally revived, he keeps this role in his new position as Aya's Knight.

I kind of see the streaks of white in Akutagawa and the streaks of black in Atsushi not as their 'hidden sides' but as their fundamental selfs. That's who they are at their core, and their main colours (black for Akutagawa and white for Atsushi) are how they're presented to everyone else and how they try to have people see them as.

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they've got one braincell and it pingpongs between the two of them

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seven years

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seven years